.Pointless Existance.
Ever.. have the one thing you thought would last forever? Something you never thought in your entire life would just.. disappear? Ever wonder what its like to have everything you ever wanted...just taken away? I do.. If you go back in time and warn yourself about events that are going to happen would you? Would you ever go back just to see how your future would change? I wouldn't.
Just when you think your life is going how you want, don't ever for a moment think that in one second it can all be taken away.
Because...it can.
Chapter One
Taking those first steps out of middle school, on that last school day before summer begins. One step closer into becomming an adult..just four more years and thats it...everything is done. Sure there is college, but now all you are focusing on are those next four years and what you want to make of yourself. Better start planning...four years can come very quickly.
Summer of 1998, Middle School is OVER. You're done completed can't wait to get out of that hell hole of a middle school you've put up with for the past three years so excited for what's ahead of you. Not once.. did you think it could get any worse so for now you're going to enjoy these next couple of months before you take that one step into High School. You are Twelve years old now, its the end of June beginning of July. Sitting on the bus ride home you sit with your friends talking about how much this summer is going to rock hard core, everything that you are going to do before school begins again...and there they were four friends sitting in the back of the bus, three guys and ONE girl. Me. Three of these friends were best friends since Elementary school, the other one was met while being in middle school. Andrew, Josh, Brad and Jennifer..me. Andrew, Brad and Jennifer were friends since they were tiny kids, Brad and Jenn even BEFORE elementary school, their parents were friends then boom instant friendship. The bus ride home turned into the plans of summer... although Andrew and Brad were going away for the summer with their families leaving Josh and Jenn together for the entire summer. The bus stops at each of their stops and they all agreed to hangout before Andrew and Brad went off on summer vacation.
No one knew what they wanted to do together before everyone basically went off on their seperate ways for vacation so.. they all went to the movies, then came back to Jenn's house for basically a sleep over. It was weird, Jenn had alot more guy friends that girl friends. It wasn't that she didn't like having girls as friends she just felt a strong connection with her three best friends out of everyone else she was friends with. Once Andrew and Brad left for vacation, Josh and Jenn spent everyday of the summer together making their friendship between one another grow more and more. They spent nights at each others houses.. basically late night talking about stupid and pointless shit. They were twelve and thirteen.. there wasn't anything exciting to talk about. But...they kind of grew a spark between each other, well.. at this age it's not a spark its the 'Omg, I got a crush on youuuuu'. Just before.. summer was ending Josh basically or sort of asked her out he was scared to ask cause he was only so young and didn't really know her reaction to it was. Of course she said yes, basically wanting to walk into High School with a boyfriend. She thought it was cool and so did he.
Summer's over and high school is beginning. Andrew and Brad were back, surprised to see that Josh and Jenn had gotten together over the summer vacation. The scene is now September of 98, outside of the school where Andrew, Brad, Josh and Jennifer were standing there and talking before school actually started. "See what happens when we leave for two months?" Andrew said to Brad, joking about what happened between Josh and Jenn over the summer break. Jenn gave Andrew a shove when he said that "Hey! I bet you are just jealous" Jenn said to Andrew, he only just rolled his eyes at her. Andrew was changing.. but you couldn't really tell right now. School bells rang and they all parted off in their seperate directions towards whatever first period class they had to go to. After that day.. the next four years were only becomming more interesting.
Four years has passed already? Wow.. time does sure fly by quickly.. what's going on with everybody? Andrew's.. in JUV, Brad is on his way to a scholarship, Josh is the star of the football team and Jenn...had joined almost every club in highschool, and dispises everyone on the cheerleading squad. Being in highschool.. Jenn has grown a dislike for every single cheerleader in her school. Short skirts, pompoms, and fake attitudes isn't something she liked too much, they didnt like her either why? Jenn was still dating Josh after FOUR YEARS. They have been together since high school started...is it love? They both think so, everyone knows they are together, some people like it some people don't. Senior Prom was comming.. and they had won for best couple. Josh had grown a small ego from being the star of the football team but.. whenever he got carried away Jenn was always there to put him back into check which if she didn't he'd be a total mess and he knew it just would never admit to it.
This was the time of their lives right? THEY WERE SENIORS. They were just about to graduate high school and take that FIRST STEP into becomming an adult. Josh was eightteen already while Jenn was seventeen. Planning all these things before the month of June was over, was seriously getting them all excited. There...they were Josh and Jenn at his house up in his room talking about what they were going to do after highschool was over. "School is almost over Jenn, what are you going to do when it's over?" Josh asked her, just curious as what she wanted to do "I want to be famous" Jenn said, but laughed even though she really did but she'd probably end up doing something else. "Then you should, I mean.. you're an excellent singer.. when you want to be" Jenn never really tried to sing but when she did she actually could sing. "Would you still love me if...I did?" Jenn asked him, "Of course" he replied back to her with a cheeky smile. Jenn smiled too, and was glad he said that. "Will you brag to everyone that you're girlfriend is famous?" Jenn asked him, "Of course" Josh replied but then just laughed, they both did. She loved him ALOT. After four years they seriously grew a bond together that nothing could break..or so she thought.
Last week of school before finals everyone was so glad to see everyone.. it was in the middle of the week Wednsday.. June 17th 2002. Everyone as doing their business, untill someone heard comotion comming from outside.. seriously loud comotion people screaming, running around, frantic for their lives basically. Who would ruin the time of their lives? Someone who should have been enjoying it with them obiviously. Andrew.. had gotten out of JUV and well.. wasn't happy. He hated his SO CALLED best friends, because they never visited him but little did he know they weren't allowed to. His families orders. Andrew was at the highschool with well.. a gun. Andrew lost his ever loving mind and was shooting at anyone and everyone. When.. school started all four of them agreed to meet in one area if and when this ever happened. Brad was there... Jenn was there...where was Josh? He was comming.. running towards them. They had a spot with a bunch of other friends they had aquired over the years in high school...but Andrew knew this spot too.. and he wanted to basically seek revenge on his friends for ditching him.
Jenn saw Josh and seriously was glad nothing happened to him, she would be devistated if something did. "JOSH" Jenn shouted to him and gave him a huge hug as he got to them. But.. everything got quiet..and so did everyone around them. Jenn had a smile on her face, she was happy Josh was safe nothing happened to him. Everyone seriously had a gasp on their face, what were they gasping about? The way Jenn hugged him was one arm around his waist and the other hand on the back of his head. She knew her hand felt wet...but only figured he was sweating from running to the spot they were all supposed to meet at. "Jenn?" Brad called her, but Jenn didn't listen she was just so HAPPY he was safe but... Josh didn't say anything to her and the way he was in her arms.. well you just thought he was hugging her untill Jenn let go of the hug and he fell to the floor. Her hand on his head was covered in blood...soon as Josh fell to the ground, Andrew was seen in the distance with the gun still pointing out from when he shot Josh in the back of the head.