Thanks to Maddicake for inspiring me. This will be my first songfic, and it's for Dallas and Johnny (coming from the rest of the gang.). The song is 'Please Remember Me' by Tim McGraw. I think it's meant to be a love song, but it seemed to fit Johnny and Dallas, so, here it is.
The lyrics are bold and itallic, and the actions and thoughts are in regular.
Ponyboy stared out the window as the rain slashed mercilessly against it. It had been two weeks since they're deaths, but every day he and the what was left of the gang had tears in their eyes.
None of them thought that their deaths would come at such a blow.
All our tears have reached the sea
Ponyboy could still feel Johnny's presence everywhere, and he could hear Dallas's voice in his head, in the wind…. They were still with him wherever he went; they were part of everything he did.
Part of you will live in me
His heart ached painfully for his friends. He missed them terribly and wondered why he couldn't get them out of his head. He could feel them coming, bit by bit, through his pencil and onto his paper as he wrote his English theme. Every word came from his heart
Way down deep inside my heart
He dragged through each day, rain and shine, snow and hail, storms and heat waves. He pulled himself through each of them, but it was hard knowing that he would never see Johnnycake or Dally again.
The days keep coming without fail
He met somebody in his homeroom class. She was sweet, and she helped him see that he was going to be okay. She lifted his spirits, and he found that getting up each day wasn't as hard as it was before.
A new wind is gonna find your sail
Even as his grades began improving, and his thoughts were filled less and less of Johnny and Dallas, he knew it was only the start; he still had a long way to go before he could go through even one day without thinking about them more than once a day.
That's where your journey starts
He missed Johnny and Dallas so much; his love was with them, and when they left, he lost it. He loved them (like friends) more than anything; except for Soda, Darry, and his parents.
You'll find better love
He was trying to be strong, but he cried himself to sleep every night. How could he be strong when he couldn't get them out of his head?!
Strong as it ever was
His love for his friends was deep. It flowed through his veins, and it would always be there.
Deep as the river runs
He felt nothing, anymore. He wished the sun had some warmth left for him; he didn't feel cold, and he didn't feel hot…. He felt nothing, because his friends were gone, and they presented him with feeling.
Warm as the morning sun
Sometimes, it was a burden to do it, but he would always remember Johnny Cade and Dallas Winston.
Please remember me
He stared at pictures of the ocean…. Johnny had never seen it, and now he never would; Pony would have been glad to take him there on a vacation, but now that could never be.
Just like the waves down by the shore
Fall came, year after year. That season he found the worst; they were in his head more than ever then
Were gonna keep on coming back for more
Pony finally realized that they didn't want to be forgotten. They meant everything to him, and it was only them that made him live.
'Cause we don't ever wanna stop
He was trying to be brave, and he cried less and less every year; he had grown tough like Dallas, but he was still sensitive, like Johnny. The world was cruel, but he was learning to deal with it.
Out in this brave new world you seek
He saw the mountains six years exactly after their deaths. He knew that Johnny and even Dallas would have loved them. They were full of color and sparkled with never melting snow…. He wished they were there; a valley was nestled between two peaks… It was covered in grass, flowers. Through the air, birds flitted, playing a beautiful tune.
Oh
the valleys and the peaks
He must have imagined it, but he could have sworn that he glimpsed his mother and father laughing and waving with Johnny and Dallas. They had wonderfully white wings on their backs… And a halo of gold above their heads. He couldn't help but smile back, they were his guardian angels, and at last he got a chance to see them all again.
And I can see you on the top
He was engaged to a beautiful woman
You'll find better love
She took up his every spare time
Strong as it ever was
They were wed, a year later, twins were born
Deep as the river runs
He couldn't remember smiling as happily and warmly as he did that day since Johnny and Dallas died.
Warm as the morning sun
They were christened Jonathan and Dallas. He made sure to remember them.
Please
remember me
Sometimes, when he strolled through the woods of his new home, he thought of Johnny, and how he would have loved the smell, and colors, and the animals…
Remember me when you're out walkin'
…. And when the snow fell, he thought of Dallas because Dallas hated snow. He hated the cold, and he hated the plain-ness. There was nothing to see, so he cared nothing about it.
When the snow falls high outside your door
He sometimes laid in bed, unable to fall asleep, and it was then he thought about his friends, too. He remembered the church in Windrixville; where sleeping on the pews were next to impossibly uncomfortable.
Late
at night when you're not sleepin'
He watched shadows flit across the hardwood floor; he saw, more than once, shadows of both Johnny and Dallas.
And moonlight falls across your floor
Thinking about them didn't hurt him anymore; he smiled in their memory, and he was clad he didn't hurt….
When I can't hurt you anymore
He found new love; perhaps even better…
You'll find better love
It was strong; perhaps even stronger…
Strong as it ever was
It was deep; perhaps even deeper…
Deep as the river runs
And it was impossibly warm; perhaps even warmer
Warm as the morning sun
But he remembered them. Oh, how he remembered them.
Please remember me
Johnny and Dallas smiled as they looked down upon Ponyboy Curtis. He was a husband, a father, and a great friend. At least he kept them in his thoughts.
"Our work is done," Johnny whispered softly, as if any sound might wake the sleeping couple and his family.
"I think I might stick around, you know, Johnnycake?" Dallas replied, just as quiet. "Kid's grown on me a bit…. And I like his kids; they're loud, but they're not bad kids. Not like I was. I'd like to learn a bit."
Johnny chuckled to himself. Of all things, it was their job to teach Ponyboy not to worry and to be good; but of all the people, Dallas Winston had learned the most.
"At least we don't have to tell him anymore…." Johnny sighed softly, and Dallas put his arm around the small boy's shoulder.
"It's okay, Johnny. He won't forget anymore, and it won't hurt him anymore. He's doing better, and he won't forget."
Please remember me
a/n: okay, one shot. First time doing this kind of fanfic….. Hope it's good, and any suggestions for further ones (if I play to do this kind of thing again) are appreciated. Again, thanks to Maddicake for inspiring me! And thanks to my readers for supporting my every flaw and mistake; it makes for a better day! )
Stephanie
P.S. I'm searching for a beta. Any takers, please get in contact with me…. )