Hey! This is a Rylexis story, so if you don't ship them, then I don't blame you for not reading this, but who knows you might like it anyway. So I hope you at least give it a shot. If you are a Rylexis fan, then I am very excited for you to read this. It obviously doesn't follow canon, so I hope you don't mind. Took me awhile to write this so please take the time to write a review. Just a few words would be enough!
Okay, this is a new type of story for me, so I hope you like it. As you can see this fic is rated M, so you have been warned.
He never imagined he would be in this situation. He never imagined that he would be walking to Castle's place in the middle of the night. He would have gone to Javi's, but Javi and Lanie were practically living together, so he couldn't go there. He just needed time, a little time to think and get some sleep. Maybe then he would know what the hell he was supposed to do.
Was he supposed to work through it? Give up? He wasn't thrilled about the prospect of divorce, but he wasn't sure if this was something he could simply overlook. He wasn't sure he could forgive Jenny or ever trust her again. The phrase, "Once a cheater, always a cheater" ran through his mind. Maybe she would cheat again. He wasn't enough for her the first time she cheated; maybe he still wasn't enough for her now.
Kevin found himself stepping out of the elevator and walking towards Castle's door. He knew it was a little late, but he wished he had called first. He had been in such a hurry to get away. He couldn't be there anymore, couldn't be in that apartment with her. Not after what she had told him.
He knocked on the door and waited, trying to figure out a good story to tell Castle. He was showing up at his place pretty late and Castle made up stories for a living, so it had to be a damn good story. Maybe he could just tell him the truth. He quickly shook his head. He didn't want Castle or Beckett taking pity on him.
The door opened and Kevin was a little surprised to see Alexis behind it.
"Detective Ryan?" she asked, frowning. Did he really look that pathetic? "Is Dad okay?"
He gave her a look. "How should I know? Isn't he here?"
She shook her head. "No, he and Kate are in the Hamptons for the week. I thought you were here because something happened to them."
He immediately shook his head. Great, he had shown up in the middle of the night and scared the hell out of Alexis. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you. As far as I know, they're both fine."
She nodded and let out a breath. "Good. So if they are okay, why are you here?"
That was a damn good question. "I needed to place to stay but since they are gone, I think I will just go to a hotel." He turned to walk away, but her voice stopped him.
"You could stay here."
"No, that's okay."
"Detective Ryan, it's pretty late. You can stay on the couch or in the spare room. Gram isn't here, so you will have plenty of privacy."
It was a nice offer, but he thought it might to be weird if he stayed. She may not have been underage, but it still seemed inappropriate.
"I'll just go see if Javi's home," he lied.
"No," she said, stopping him again. "I insist." She backed up and gestured for him to come in.
Kevin felt a little weird about it, but much to his surprise, he found himself walking into the loft.
It was kind of dark and a very quiet upon entering. He looked around to notice that the only light on was in the kitchen, and a pint of ice cream sat on the counter. Maybe Alexis was having a rough night as well.
"Uh, thanks, you know, for this," he stumbled over his words.
"No problem," she smiled. "Can I offer you something?"
A time machine would be good.
"No thanks, I'm fine."
She gave him a quizzical look and then laughed. "Yeah, right."
"What?"
"You don't look fine." She shook her head, pulling Kevin by the sleeve of his jacket to the kitchen. "Here," she said, getting in the refrigerator and handing him a beer. "You look like you could use it."
He didn't reach for it.
"Come on, it won't bite." She moved the bottle closer.
He sighed and took it. She was right. It did sound good. "Thanks."
She nodded before grabbing the pint of ice cream. "This works wonders as well."
"Trust me, I know."
She jumped on the island and gave him a look.
"Something on my face?" he asked.
She nodded. "You're very transparent. Something is bothering you. Wanna share?"
He shook his head. He wasn't going to push his drama onto her. It was embarrassing and he doubted she had ever had to deal with anything like what he was going through.
She hunched shoulders. "Fine, if you aren't going to share, I will. My boyfriend of two months broke up with me through a text message and told me that he's been cheating on me for almost two weeks." She stuck a spoonful of ice cream into her mouth.
She had spoken fairly quickly, but he was able to hear every word. His jaw dropped. "Wow, I'm so sorry."
She laughed a little bitterly. "Me too."
"No, you're not."
She shook her head. "I was naive, I guess. I have plenty of girlfriends who have had this happen to them. Why did I think I was any different?"
"Trust me, it can happen to anyone," Kevin said.
"What do you mean?"
He bit his lip. Well, if he was going to tell anyone about the mess that was now his life, why not put it to some good use? "I just found out Jenny cheated on me a month ago." The words flew out and somehow saying it out loud made the pain hurt even worse.
He shook his head as an image of Jenny appeared in his mind. He took a drink and looked up to find Alexis giving him a weird look.
"How?"
"How, what?"
"How could she do that to you?"
He hunched his shoulders. "I don't know."
"I'm sorry."
He wasn't going to let her pity him. "It's fine."
"It is?"
"Well, no, but you don't need to be concerned about it." He leaned against the island. "I just thought you should know that this sort of thing can happen to anyone. Nobody is immune to heartbreak."
She nodded and then looked away, grabbing the ice cream. "Want some?" she asked with a weak smile.
Despite his current state of mind, he couldn't help but smile back. "No, thanks. I think I should get some sleep."
"Sounds better than staying up all night and eating my feelings," she muttered. "I should get some sleep too." She threw out the almost empty container and walked towards the stairs. "I'll show you where the room is."
He pushed himself forward and followed her. He just needed some sleep. Everything would make more sense when he felt refreshed. He nodded to himself and then, without really thinking about it, he caught himself watching Alexis walk up the stairs. His eyes slowly went from her legs to her ass. Was she making her hips move like that or was it just his imagination? He shook his head. What the hell was he doing?
She opened the door. "Everything you need should be in there."
Kevin looked inside. Wow. Even Castle's guest room looked amazing. Lucky talented bastard.
"If you have any questions or need anything, my room is right down there," she said, pointing down the hallway.
He nodded. "Thanks again for letting me stay here."
"No problem."
He looked at bed and sighed. It looked so comfortable.
"Detective Ryan?" Alexis' voice called.
"Please drop the 'detective' title. You can call me Ryan or Kevin," he said.
"Okay," she said. "I just wanted to let you know that I think Jenny is very stupid. I've gotten to know you fairly well over the past few years, and I think you are a really good person. I know that you are one of the reasons my dad has never seriously gotten hurt. Whatever reason she had for doing what she did, you should know that it isn't good enough. You deserve better."
He was sort of grounded as her words hit him. Alexis may have been young, but she knew what to say to make the pain lessen, even if it was just for awhile.
"Uh, thanks," he said awkwardly and saw her smile. "You know, you shouldn't be sad either. The guy broke up with you over a text and was cheating on you. Clearly he wasn't a good guy, so he definitely isn't worth any tears from someone as great as you." It was true. Anyone who could cheat on her wasn't worth any of her time or energy. Could he say the same about Jenny?
He noticed her cheeks turn pink. "You think so?" she asked, looking away.
"Definitely. You're young and beautiful. I doubt you will have hard time finding someone else."
She looked up at him and smiled. He found himself mirroring her expression.
"Goodnight Alexis."
"Goodnight detect..." She shook her head. "Goodnight Kevin."
His breath caught in his throat as she leaned forward and pressed a kiss to his cheek. It was something she had never done before. He found himself closing his eyes to try to savor how good it felt.
Her lips felt soft and she smelled like vanilla. When she backed away, Kevin placed his hands on her waist. She didn't jump, but her eyes did lock onto his. Before leaning in, he stole a glance at her lips. They looked so soft. He decided he needed to know how soft they were. What they tasted like. Without giving it much thought, he pressed his lips against hers.
Part of him wanted her to back away. To tell him that he was a horrible person, but she didn't. What the hell was he doing? He was married. He was hurting, well, not so much at the moment.
She was the daughter of one of his best friends. He couldn't be doing this. He shouldn't be doing this. There were too many things telling him that he should pull away, but he couldn't. Not when her arms snaked around his neck and she pulled him closer. It was far too easy to get lost in this kiss. Too easy for the consequences to fade away.
Kissing Kevin Ryan felt good. Really good. Alexis may have had a little crush on him before, but she had never imagined how good it would feel to kiss him. Now she knew that any fantasy she could have conjured up wouldn't hold up to the real experience. Why was he kissing her? Was it because of Jenny? Of course it was. She felt silly to think he'd be kissing her because of her.
She knew why she was kissing him. He was really sweet and nice to her. He always had been. Sure, she was a little hurt, but she shouldn't have been. Kevin was right. Why waste time on people who hurt her? She'd much rather spend her time on people who made her feel good about herself. Like Kevin.
She almost lost the ability to breathe when his hands trailed from her hips up her sides. Her shirt raised with his hands and he deepened the kiss. She leaned in closer to him and kissed him with as much enthusiasm as she could conjure up. It seemed to be good enough for him; she heard him groan as he pulled her closer to him and then pinned her against the door frame. His hands kept searching her body and with each new area of skin he touched, it felt like flames were spreading across her body. A moan escaped her as his hands worked their way to her hair and his lips moved down her neck.
Alexis ran one hand over his back, while the other massaged the back of his neck. This was hardly her first time making out, but it was the first time she had ever felt like this. Every time he touched her, she wanted more and she wanted him closer. He could never be close enough. She let out what she was sure was maybe the most embarrassing moans ever as he used his knee to spread her thighs apart. His mouth came back to hers and his hand slowly moved down until he reached the waistband of her shorts. Just as she was about to ask if they should go into the room, he moved away from her.
Alexis was out of breath, but couldn't really force herself to slow down. She moved back to him, but he held up his hands.
"What?" she asked, still breathless.
"We can't," he said, shaking his head. "It's not right."
"It felt right."
His eyes met hers and then looked away. "We're both going through stuff. We're both hurting. We can't just use each other like this." He looked back to her, regret written all over his face. "I don't want to use you Alexis. You don't deserve that."
She was getting so tired of everyone automatically assuming they knew what was best for her. Why couldn't she be in charge of her own decisions, whether they were good or not? It was her life, not theirs.
"What if I want to be there for you? What if I don't mind being used?" She knew the words made no sense. Who would want to be used? The truth of it was that she didn't mind. Kevin wasn't some random loser she had met at a club; he was a good guy who was going through something she couldn't even imagine. She had been cheated on, but the difference was that she's been seeing her boyfriend for a few months. She wasn't married like Kevin was. What was so wrong with her wanting to help him?
"Alexis-"
She cut him off, knowing what he was going to say. She didn't want to hear it.
"Obviously what we were doing before was helping, because if it wasn't, I don't think it would have gone as far as it did." He wasn't denying it, so she decided to continue. "You are hurting and if I can help ease that pain, then I want to do it. I'm not some stupid kid; I know what this is. Maybe we both could use a distraction. I want this and I know you do too."
He shook his head, about to say something, but she cut him off with her lips. He tried to move back, but she didn't let him, instead she pulled him as close as possible to her. After few moments, she almost gave up. That was until he moved her backwards. The back of her legs hit the bed and she almost fell, but Kevin wrapped his arms around her waist and laid her gently down on the bed.
He removed his jacket and then leaned down to take off his shoes.
She moved back on the bed and started to take off her shorts, but his hand stopped her. She quirked an eyebrow.
"Let me," he said.
Once his shoes were off he got on the bed and hovered over her. His hand moved from her ankle all the way to her waist. God, he was good at that. Her body responded to his touch like nothing before.
His hands grabbed her shorts and yanked them down. When she was free of them she got up to her knees and started undoing his belt. She threw it onto the floor and then immediately worked at getting his shirt off.
"I didn't mean to treat you like a kid, clearly you aren't," he said, placing his hands on her waist and moving his hands up. She moved her arms straight up as he took her shirt off.
"I know," she replied with a smirk before taking off her bra.
He was like a open book. His eyes widened and he swallowed thickly. She tried not to take too much satisfaction as she leaned back on the bed, pulling him with her. He willing came with her, pressing his lips to hers in a very heated kiss that left her dizzy as his lips moved down her neck.
She gasped when his tongue moved along her skin. He stopped at her nipple. He circled it a few times until his mouth came down on it and began to suck. He took turns sucking and flicking it with his tongue. She bit her bottom lip, trying to hold back on making a noise. She ran her hand through his hair keeping his head there.
Just when she didn't think she could be anymore surprised by him, she let out a groan as one of his hands eased in between her legs, rubbing gently. She whimpered as he laid kisses down her stomach, his fingers were beginning to work frantically. She couldn't hide the moans anymore. Between his two slender fingers teasing her and him laying kisses all over her, she was helpless.
"Oh god, please, Kevin." The words came out before she had time to even process them. She didn't care though. She wanted this and wanted him. "Please." His mouth came down claiming hers. His fingers were still stroking her and she moaned into the kiss when he added a third finger. She nearly lost it when his fingers skillfully pinched her clit. He broke the kiss and quickly removed his pants and boxers, while she laid back, still overcome by what was happening. He quickly disposed of his clothes and came back, kissing her harder than she had ever been kissed. She wiggled out of her panties, throwing them aside as he spread her legs and moved on top of her.
His head dropped laying kisses to her neck, which quickly turned into soft, but fast nips. She licked her lips and ran her hands down his back. He rubbed his tip against her and she softly moaned. He grabbed her hands and pinned them above her head. His forehead touched hers as he pushed against her. She bit her lip.
"Don't," he slowed. "I want to hear. You sound so sexy when you moan." His voice was a whisper and she couldn't believe how turned on she was just by his voice. He pushed forward, entering her and she couldn't hold in it, even if he told her to. It felt so good.
Kevin's lips went back to her neck as he quickened his pace. She couldn't believe how good this felt. How much she wanted this. She rotated her hips against his and he let out a struggled groan.
"Fuck, you feel so good," he whispered in her ear, making her whole body react. She wrapped her legs around his waist, pushing him in deeper with the heels off her feet. She crashed her mouth against his and he actively kissed her back while his pace increased.
"Oh god," she breathed. "Faster, oh please, faster!"
He obeyed as quickly as the words left her mouth. Alexis arched her back, pressing her hips against his. "You shouldn't beg like that. It's driving me crazy," he said.
The pressure was beginning to build up pretty quickly as his thrusts became faster and rough. "Please, oh Kevin, please!"
He groaned. "Fuck it," he muttered before going full force. She had no idea how much he was holding back. The moans and whines became louder and more frequent before she was sent over the edge with one final thrust. He collapsed on top of her, breathing raggedly.
She hadn't quite come back from the amazing orgasm she had just had. Having him still inside of her, while breathing heavily wasn't helping any, but she didn't care.
Their breathing normalized and he lift himself off her, gently pulling out. He leaned over and laid on his back next to her.
Once the effects from what just occurred faded, Alexis was finally able to think about what it meant: she'd just slept with a married man.
Oh God, what had she done?
Here's the first chapter. I plan to start posting once a week, maybe more depending on how this fic is perceived. Like I said at the top, please feel free to leave a review, follow, or PM if you want :)
Special thanks to A.K. Hunter who helped tons not just with edits, but with keeping me motivated as well. Please check out her stories if you like Rylexis, she's so talented when it comes to writing for them.
Hope to hear what you think!