The Time We Lost

by Baylexis

Stuck in a loveless marriage and a job he despises, 31 year old Kurt Hummel wishes on a shooting star to go back before he ruined his life. Though, he didn't actually expect to wake up 17 and in high school again. Now given a second chance, Kurt will do anything in his power to get the life he deserved. Which seems hard when he's so distracted by Blaine Anderson. M for later chaps

1. Chapter 1

Kurt Hummel was someone who had big dreams ever since he was young. When his mom was alive, he had wanted to be just like her, which to him, was a superstar. He wanted to cook like her, clean like her, sing like her; he wanted to be her. She was his world. When he got a little older, maybe 7 years old, Kurt wanted to be a Disney princess. He wanted to be saved by a prince, and would make his dad pretend to save him from silly situations. Sometimes, Kurt would even save his dad from those situations. Being a Disney princess in the coolest outfits and the best crowns was all Kurt needed to feel happy and accepted in his life.

At about 12 or 13, Kurt just wanted to be normal. He knew he wasn't, he was different. He didn't really know what that meant. He prefered more feminine colors, pinks and light purples to contrast with his jeans. He liked clothes that were considered for girls, though his mom always told him that fashion had no gender. Kurt loved his clothes, but everyone around him called him a girl and gay, and Kurt wasn't sure that he was even one of those things. Well, until his first crush. If you asked Kurt now, he couldn't tell you what his name was. He was a transfer student from France, and he was the only kind boy to Kurt. The young Hummel didn't understand these feelings, but he knew they were wrong. And apparently, he was bad at hiding his stares and longing looks at this student, because he was the first one to start bullying Kurt.

Turning 16 meant a lot to Kurt. It held bigger, more permanent dreams. He wanted to move to New York and be on Broadway. As a sixteen year old, Kurt felt he was as free as he could be in the town that he hated. He focused on school more than anything, he hardly hung out with friends, choosing to stay inside and study rather than go out. And this was something that affected his life as he grew. Bullies forcing him to stay inside and scaring him into never socializing took an awful toll on him.

When Kurt turned 20, His only dream was to get married. To find love and have a family. And he did… Sort of. He met Adam in NYADA, and dropped everything to be with him. Kurt had never really been in love with anyone before, and he felt like he'd never get the chance again if he didn't want to lose his chance. So, Adam and Kurt got married right before Kurt turned 21. And it was good, life was good. He was happy for a while. He got a mediocre desk job at some insurance company, it made money and that was all he needed at the time. Until Adam began to become distant. They stopped sleeping together, they stopped sleeping in the same room, even. And soon, they were both stuck in a loveless marriage.

At 31, all Kurt wanted was to go back and fix his life. It was the only ounce of dreaming he had left, and It was something he truly couldn't do. It was his 31st birthday party that sparked this. It was a surprise party thrown by his father, one Kurt wished he didn't throw. Adam wasn't there. He had a few coworkers show up, and they all had a drink and a refreshment, but the party ended almost an hour after it began. At 8, there was only Burt and Carole left, everyone else having inevitably said their goodbyes.

Being alone, seeing that sorrowful look in his father's eyes really projected the problem to Kurt. He wasn't happy, his life was over too early. And there was nothing Kurt could do about it. Saying goodbye to his parents about a half hour later, Kurt took a look at his life. He really looked. It was pathetic. For someone who had such big dreams as a child and in high school, Kurt's life seemed to have fallen out of place for almost no reason at all. These thoughts and feelings made the birthday boy go to his window. He opened it up and stared up at the sky.

"A shooting star." Glasz eyes looked up at the sky as a shooting star passed by. Feeling silly, Kurt closed his eyes and wished hard. 'Take me back. Take me back to when my life went wrong. Please.' He kept his eyes closed for a little longer, hoping and praying and wishing as hard as he could that when his eyes opened, he'd be somewhere different.

Maybe he kept them closed for a little too long, because he didn't hear the sound of his husband coming in the house with another man. He didn't hear Adam toss an empty apology in the air and move to his room. Kurt just sat with his thoughts, letting his mind divagate from it's stressful thoughts and hope and wish to be somewhere else. When he finally opened his eyes, Kurt was upset, but not disappointed that he was still in his living room. The man felt silly, actually wishing to go back to where his life messed up. With a heavy sigh and the trudging of his feet, Kurt locked himself in his room. If only he could go back, Kurt would change everything. He'd never marry Adam, he'd never leave NYADA, he'd never let the bullies hurt him. It wasn't hard to sleep on these ideals and wishes to the past.