Um...yeah so this is from the same story. Yeah I know all of 'em seem to be, but I can't help it!!! It's such a good story!!! This on is kinda depressing at first but then hope seems to come. Yeah...well I'm very proud of this and I hope people like it, even though they might not quite get it...but just to help you out a bit Hei has some serious hear problems that will eventually kill him and yeah this is pretty much a summary of a small part of the story. (its has way more stuff in it than just Hei's problems) Maybe eventually you'll get to read it' i dunno, but i can tell you this much: I wont be the one writing it. (oneesan will)
enjoy!!
My Name is Already on My Grave
I couldn't hide it forever, and when it got worse, it got harder. You found out but we were okay. I didn't tell you everything. I didn't think you noticed, I was never strong, I was only getting weaker. I tried to act like everything was fine, but then it got so bad it started to show. When everyone knew it seemed easier, but I didn't know how you felt.
I don't want to think about it right now. Can you be with me a little longer? I'm trying my best not to cry. Can you hold me for awhile?
I feel so small now. I don't want anyone's help. I don't want you to save me, but I know I can't do this alone. I'm starting to get weak, you're already here. I don't think I will make it, but you're still holding on. Can you really save me? You're all that's keeping me here, but for how long?
You don't want to think about that right now. I will hold your hand a little tighter. You're trying your best to save my life. I will stay with you a while longer.
We held on to each other for a long time, we made it through the night. I'm still here and everyone is happy, even if it's for a short time. Eventually, it will take me, what will you do then? It's harder knowing that I will leave you and everyone behind, but there is nothing I can do to stop it. Where will everyone be when it's my time? I'm afraid no one will be there with me, will I die alone?
I can't help but think about it. Will you all stay here with me tonight? I try my best to keep on smiling. Will you try your best, too? My name is already on my grave, I knew this for some time, but let's not think about the future, just as long as we're all here now.