A/N: I am going to kill my computer! After I write this story that is. I finished this story about five minutes ago and my computer crashed before I could save it so I lost the whole story. So now I have to do it again.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the plot.
Summery: Harry has a chat with Remus about Sirius' death. Remus reflects on his life and friends. Remus also gets comforted by the last person he would have thought. Who is it? I am not telling.
Please read the story and review it. So on with the story!
Grief and Comfort
Harry was back at number twelve Grimmauld Place with Ron and Hermione. The Order was still meeting there even after Sirius' death. Harry was sulking about it too. He didn't want to talk to anyone about it. Ron told him to go talk to Dumbledore, but what would that do? It was Fred and George who came up with the idea.
Harry was sitting alone at the table in the kitchen just staring at the fire. Fred and George walked in wearing their green dragon jackets and sat on either side of Harry. They started talking as if Harry wasn't there.
"You know who I think Harry should talk to Fred?" George asked looking at Fred over Harry. They pretended not to notice him.
"I don't know. Who should Harry talk to George?" Fred asked looking back at him.
"I think Harry should go and talk to Remus," George said.
"You're right. Remus also lost Sirius. And more," Fred said and looked at Harry. He gave no sign of listening so Fred and George shrugged and walked off.
Harry wasn't about to tell them that they were right. He should go and talk to Remus. He was thinking of himself all the time since Sirius died and he didn't even notice that someone else lost him too. Harry got up and walked to find Remus. He just turned the corner into the foyer when he ran into Snape. The last person he wanted to see.
"Watch where you're going, Potter," Snape said in a cold voice.
"Sorry Professor Snape. I was just looking for Lupin," Harry said. Snape looked down at Harry confused. He has never once heard Harry be nice to him.
"He went upstairs. Said something about feeding Buckbeak," Snape said as he watched Harry walk to the stairs.
"Thank you Professor Snape," he said and ran upstairs to Buckbeaks room.
As he ran to the room, his conversation with Snape still ringing in his ears. He couldn't believe he had been nice to Snape. His mind was on the conversation still when the door to the room opened up and an arm shot out and grabbed Harry by his shoulders, stopping him from hitting the door.
"Easy Harry. We don't want to have an accident now do we?" said a voice to Harry's left. Harry turned and saw Remus Lupin holding him by the shoulders. He was wearing a pair of shabby trousers and a jumper under his patched-up cloak, his face was as pale as ever.
"Lupin, I need to talk to you," Harry said taking a deep breath. Lupin sighed and ushered Harry in and shut the door. Buckbeak was laying on a bloodstained bed eating what appeared to be rats.
"I was expecting you to talk to me soon," Remus said sitting on the edge of the bed. Harry remained standing.
"I was just wondering, the way that Sirius died, did he want to have died that way?" Harry asked after a moment.
"You mean fighting?" Remus asked and Harry nodded. "If there was action, Sirius wanted to be in it. I have no doubt that Sirius would have wanted to go anyother way. If he wanted to go at all."
Harry remembered his talk with Hagrid before school let out. It was just what Hagrid had said. That Sirius would have wanted to go fighting. But Harry was the one who said the he wouldn't have wanted to go at all. Maybe it was that Remus was friends with Sirius that Harry knew it was true.
"Thank you Lupin," Harry said and turned around towards the door.
"There is something else, isn't there Harry?" Remus asked and Harry turned around.
"Yes there is," Harry said and he turned around and saw Remus smiling at him. "Now that Sirius is gone, and now that I have no other person to live with am I to live with the Dursley's the rest of my life?"
Harry was suprised to see Remus laugh.
"Harry, you are not condemned to live the rest of the life there," Remus said.
"But now that I do not have a godfather," Harry started but Remus waved his hand signaling Harry to stop.
"You don't think your parents would want you just to have a godfather would you?" Remus said trying not to laugh again and saw Harry's face, "They wanted you to have an uncle too."
"But I do have an uncle. Uncle Vernon," Harry said. This time Remus let out a loud laugh that sounded like a howl.
"Harry, a normal uncle. A wizard uncle. A little flashback might be in order then," Remus said smiling "On the day you were born, Sirius and I were both their with your parents. Lily was holding you when they asked Sirius to be your godfather. His response was not just an answer but he took you out of Lily's arms and said yes, holding you up in the air. Then they turned to me. They asked if I would be your uncle. Not by blood but by family. So you would have an uncle who you can go to. I had to think about it at first but then Sirius put you in my arms and I looked down into your eyes and you smiled. That was all it took."
Harry stood their staring at Remus and smiled. He had a wizard uncle. He had another person who was there for him when he was born and who loved him. But there was something else nagging at the back of Harry's mind.
"Lupin, you keep saying that Sirius is gone. Why do you not say that he is d," Harry started but stopped.
"Harry, Dumbledore has told you about the Phoenix, has he not?" Harry nodded. "I believe the same with humans. They die and they are reborn. I do not believe anyone is dead. They are just gone from the earth."
Harry pondered this for a moment and nodded.
"You have lost all your friends to Voldemort, yet you do not show it," Harry said and regretted it the moment the words left his mouth. He looked up at Remus and saw a shadow pass over his premature face.
"I have not only lost friends, Harry, but people I trusted and loved," Remus said.
"I'm sorry," Harry said quietly but Remus did not seem to hear him.
"James and Lily. Harry you look so much like them. It was hard for me to teach you. To not bring up that I knew them. I knew right away that you could not fill in their spaces in mine and Sirius' hearts. But you made and impact Harry. And I won't let anything hurt you," Remus said staring at Harry with tears in his eyes.
Harry opened his mouth and was about to speak but was cut off by Remus.
"James, Lily and Sirius all had their lives taken. They didn't have a chance," Remus said in a low growl that made both Harry and Buckbeak look at him, "But Peter, I wouldn't call that traitor a friend! He betrayed me!"
Harry looked at Remus and saw tears streaming down his face. Harry turned and walked out the door, leaving Remus there alone. He was sure Remus wouldn't want him watching him cry. Harry walked into his room where Ron and Hermione were talking.
Remus looked up a few minutes later. He didn't see Harry and was glad of that.
'He's just like his father. Not wanting people to have an audience when they are upset," Remus thought to himself.
Remus slowly got up and wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his cloak and opened the door. He looked around and was thankful that no one would see him like this. He was walking down stairs and just stepped into the foyer when he looked up from the ground and was three inches away from the last person he didn't want to see him like this.
A/N: Cliffhanger! So what do you think? Who do you think it is? I have three people in mind. This story is rated PG-13 for me to have space to 'move around' in. :-) It might turn slash. MIGHT if the person is a guy. But it could be a girl. And I am not telling. I do hope you all review it. And if you want I will read some of your stories and if you tell me to email you when the next chapter is up, I will be glad to. Just tell me. Although I will email some people telling them about it. Others I won't bother if I don't have your email address. I do hope you like this and return to it. Just to let everyone know that I did cry when I read the part on how Sirius died, and then when Harry got the mirror, and when he talked to Nick, and when they were on the train. I love Sirius! And Remus! And one other person but I won't tell you about it yet. I think.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the plot.
Summery: Harry has a chat with Remus about Sirius' death. Remus reflects on his life and friends. Remus also gets comforted by the last person he would have thought. Who is it? I am not telling.
Please read the story and review it. So on with the story!
Grief and Comfort
Harry was back at number twelve Grimmauld Place with Ron and Hermione. The Order was still meeting there even after Sirius' death. Harry was sulking about it too. He didn't want to talk to anyone about it. Ron told him to go talk to Dumbledore, but what would that do? It was Fred and George who came up with the idea.
Harry was sitting alone at the table in the kitchen just staring at the fire. Fred and George walked in wearing their green dragon jackets and sat on either side of Harry. They started talking as if Harry wasn't there.
"You know who I think Harry should talk to Fred?" George asked looking at Fred over Harry. They pretended not to notice him.
"I don't know. Who should Harry talk to George?" Fred asked looking back at him.
"I think Harry should go and talk to Remus," George said.
"You're right. Remus also lost Sirius. And more," Fred said and looked at Harry. He gave no sign of listening so Fred and George shrugged and walked off.
Harry wasn't about to tell them that they were right. He should go and talk to Remus. He was thinking of himself all the time since Sirius died and he didn't even notice that someone else lost him too. Harry got up and walked to find Remus. He just turned the corner into the foyer when he ran into Snape. The last person he wanted to see.
"Watch where you're going, Potter," Snape said in a cold voice.
"Sorry Professor Snape. I was just looking for Lupin," Harry said. Snape looked down at Harry confused. He has never once heard Harry be nice to him.
"He went upstairs. Said something about feeding Buckbeak," Snape said as he watched Harry walk to the stairs.
"Thank you Professor Snape," he said and ran upstairs to Buckbeaks room.
As he ran to the room, his conversation with Snape still ringing in his ears. He couldn't believe he had been nice to Snape. His mind was on the conversation still when the door to the room opened up and an arm shot out and grabbed Harry by his shoulders, stopping him from hitting the door.
"Easy Harry. We don't want to have an accident now do we?" said a voice to Harry's left. Harry turned and saw Remus Lupin holding him by the shoulders. He was wearing a pair of shabby trousers and a jumper under his patched-up cloak, his face was as pale as ever.
"Lupin, I need to talk to you," Harry said taking a deep breath. Lupin sighed and ushered Harry in and shut the door. Buckbeak was laying on a bloodstained bed eating what appeared to be rats.
"I was expecting you to talk to me soon," Remus said sitting on the edge of the bed. Harry remained standing.
"I was just wondering, the way that Sirius died, did he want to have died that way?" Harry asked after a moment.
"You mean fighting?" Remus asked and Harry nodded. "If there was action, Sirius wanted to be in it. I have no doubt that Sirius would have wanted to go anyother way. If he wanted to go at all."
Harry remembered his talk with Hagrid before school let out. It was just what Hagrid had said. That Sirius would have wanted to go fighting. But Harry was the one who said the he wouldn't have wanted to go at all. Maybe it was that Remus was friends with Sirius that Harry knew it was true.
"Thank you Lupin," Harry said and turned around towards the door.
"There is something else, isn't there Harry?" Remus asked and Harry turned around.
"Yes there is," Harry said and he turned around and saw Remus smiling at him. "Now that Sirius is gone, and now that I have no other person to live with am I to live with the Dursley's the rest of my life?"
Harry was suprised to see Remus laugh.
"Harry, you are not condemned to live the rest of the life there," Remus said.
"But now that I do not have a godfather," Harry started but Remus waved his hand signaling Harry to stop.
"You don't think your parents would want you just to have a godfather would you?" Remus said trying not to laugh again and saw Harry's face, "They wanted you to have an uncle too."
"But I do have an uncle. Uncle Vernon," Harry said. This time Remus let out a loud laugh that sounded like a howl.
"Harry, a normal uncle. A wizard uncle. A little flashback might be in order then," Remus said smiling "On the day you were born, Sirius and I were both their with your parents. Lily was holding you when they asked Sirius to be your godfather. His response was not just an answer but he took you out of Lily's arms and said yes, holding you up in the air. Then they turned to me. They asked if I would be your uncle. Not by blood but by family. So you would have an uncle who you can go to. I had to think about it at first but then Sirius put you in my arms and I looked down into your eyes and you smiled. That was all it took."
Harry stood their staring at Remus and smiled. He had a wizard uncle. He had another person who was there for him when he was born and who loved him. But there was something else nagging at the back of Harry's mind.
"Lupin, you keep saying that Sirius is gone. Why do you not say that he is d," Harry started but stopped.
"Harry, Dumbledore has told you about the Phoenix, has he not?" Harry nodded. "I believe the same with humans. They die and they are reborn. I do not believe anyone is dead. They are just gone from the earth."
Harry pondered this for a moment and nodded.
"You have lost all your friends to Voldemort, yet you do not show it," Harry said and regretted it the moment the words left his mouth. He looked up at Remus and saw a shadow pass over his premature face.
"I have not only lost friends, Harry, but people I trusted and loved," Remus said.
"I'm sorry," Harry said quietly but Remus did not seem to hear him.
"James and Lily. Harry you look so much like them. It was hard for me to teach you. To not bring up that I knew them. I knew right away that you could not fill in their spaces in mine and Sirius' hearts. But you made and impact Harry. And I won't let anything hurt you," Remus said staring at Harry with tears in his eyes.
Harry opened his mouth and was about to speak but was cut off by Remus.
"James, Lily and Sirius all had their lives taken. They didn't have a chance," Remus said in a low growl that made both Harry and Buckbeak look at him, "But Peter, I wouldn't call that traitor a friend! He betrayed me!"
Harry looked at Remus and saw tears streaming down his face. Harry turned and walked out the door, leaving Remus there alone. He was sure Remus wouldn't want him watching him cry. Harry walked into his room where Ron and Hermione were talking.
Remus looked up a few minutes later. He didn't see Harry and was glad of that.
'He's just like his father. Not wanting people to have an audience when they are upset," Remus thought to himself.
Remus slowly got up and wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his cloak and opened the door. He looked around and was thankful that no one would see him like this. He was walking down stairs and just stepped into the foyer when he looked up from the ground and was three inches away from the last person he didn't want to see him like this.
A/N: Cliffhanger! So what do you think? Who do you think it is? I have three people in mind. This story is rated PG-13 for me to have space to 'move around' in. :-) It might turn slash. MIGHT if the person is a guy. But it could be a girl. And I am not telling. I do hope you all review it. And if you want I will read some of your stories and if you tell me to email you when the next chapter is up, I will be glad to. Just tell me. Although I will email some people telling them about it. Others I won't bother if I don't have your email address. I do hope you like this and return to it. Just to let everyone know that I did cry when I read the part on how Sirius died, and then when Harry got the mirror, and when he talked to Nick, and when they were on the train. I love Sirius! And Remus! And one other person but I won't tell you about it yet. I think.