A/N: Anyone ever wondered what Naru was thinking and how he felt when Mai called him a murderer? Well I did and I decided to share what I came up with. He may seem a little ooc but hey, it's my fanfic so he can be a clown for all I care.

Disclaimer: I don't own Ghost hunt. Do you think I would be writing fanfics if I did?

"You murderers…!" she said venomously. I could hear the monks scolded cry shortly after that.

"Mai!" he yelled.

"If you can solve this case but what good will come of it? The death and mourning. What good will it do?" She doesn't understand.

"It's not too late to stop! Its not too late!" she yelled again. It was taking everything I had to stop myself from bursting and spilling everything to her. She doesn't understand. She won't until it is done. But for now I need her to be taken care of.

"Monk-san. Please restrain Mai," I asked him casually. I watched as he grabbed her shoulder. I turned to re-enter the room in which Lin was but before Takigawa could fully question me, Mai had butt in again.

"Don't you dare! Naru!" I heard her yell as I closed the door behind me. I remained silent as Lin continued with his ritual but my head was screaming thoughts and my chest was aching.

What Mai said had hurt. I know she doesn't understand that nothing will happen to the students, but calling us murderers still made my gut twist. And it wasn't the words per se. It was who was speaking them. Mai never gives up on anyone. Maybe I have pushed her to her limit.

I know she thinks I'm just cold, narcissistic and a smart-ass, but I know what feelings can do. They can cause you to have lapses in judgement and, in turn, cost someone's life as a result. I won't let another person be taken away from me because I make a mistake. Everyone thinks there was a special reason I hired her, and don't get me wrong, there was, but again that is going down a road that doesn't need to be travelled just yet.

Long ago I admitted to myself that I had feelings for the part timer, but getting close to people is just something I don't do. Any more. Besides, she doesn't know anything about me. She thinks I'm Kazuya Shibuya, a narcissistic ghost hunter. She will never know who Oliver Davis is. At least, not until I feel the need to tell her.

Keeping up this facade that I have is getting tiring. I just wish I could tell someone everything that is going on in my head. Isn't that funny? I have a degree, I know several languages, I own my own business, am smarter than most people twice my age and yet I can't find it within myself to tell a sixteen year old girl how I feel about her. Sure we fight a lot, but it's not like we really mean anything we say. Well I don't.

Thinking about that just made me rethink what she had said earlier.

Maybe she did mean it this time. From what she knows, it would appear that I am a murderer. Carelessly placing every student of this school in danger just to save one cranky old man. She doesn't know about the hitogatas or the plan. No. I can't let myself believe that Mai actually thinks I'm a murderer.

"Naru, I hate everything you stand for,"

Those words too sliced at my heart. She didn't actually say she hates me but she came pretty close. I know my response was a very thinly veiled insult, but what else was I supposed to do? Take her in my arms and tell her that her bluntness is why I love her? That I love her because she is a fool that hates everything I stand for? Don't get me wrong. I've seriously considered it but when I think about it, the reactions would be too much to bear. Everyone would probably faint. Or laugh their heads off. And being the boss, I can't afford to have my employees laughing behind my back.

Lin approached which effectively broke me from my thoughts. And not a moment too soon. Any longer and I might have gone about planning to tell Mai my feelings. I made sure my emotionless mask was in place before opening the door and stepping out.

Who knows? Maybe one day I will get up the courage to tell her the truth about me. And my feelings. Until then, I will just have to be content with the death glare she happens to be sending me right now. One day Mai, you will understand that just because I hate everything you stand for, doesn't mean I don't love you for you. And maybe one day you could love me too.

A/N: well that was just a little one shot I came up with. Let me know what you thought. Read and review people. Read and review.