Here I am, again, where we started, in Besaid. The wind plays gently with my hair and the sun shines brightly. The village is much as I remember it, and it's a lovely day. If I could have been given a vision of the future six months ago, I would never - could never - have dared to believe it.
Still, I think, you left me here, alone.
I know it isn't true - not really - but that's the thought I come too, again and again. I know you eould have stayed - you tried, I know - if you could, but I can't really make myself believe it.
You promised me, over and over on my Pilgramage, that we could find a way to defeat Sin with summoning the FInal Aeon. I didn't believe you. There had been Summoners four how many hundreds of years, who were we to see something all those others had overlooksed? Yunalesca herdelf could find no other way. You were only trying to come to grips with the truth of of the Final Summoning, I thought. What could you do?
But you did it. You saved my life. I would be dead but for you, Tidus.
And yet, I find myself wondering if perhaps it would not have been better that way. That's so selfish, isn't it? I know it is. If it had gone differently, if I had summoned the Final Aeon, and died, we would never have defeated Yu Yevon, and on it would have gone, on and on for years, more FInal Aeons and the Summoners dead calling them.
So of course it's better this way, even without you.
But, still, couldn't I have done something more? If only you'd told me, we could have done something. But who am I to talk, look how long I put off telling you about the Final Summoning.
But still.
I replay each memory I have, thinking about the things I could have said, should have said, the witty comebacks I never thought of at the time. I hold each one close like a pearl. I know that in time, each one will fade, but still I hope they never do.
Life seems so much emptier somehow without you. I know that isn't true either - Lulu and Wakka, Rikku and Kimahri, my friends, are still here.
They all miss you, you know. I can see it i n their eyes. Sometimes I catch Wakka just staring out onto the horizon, a look in his eye. He might make some excuse about missing his blitzball days, but I know what he's thinking about. Rikku's more vocal about than any of the others - she'll actually come out and admit it - and Lulu and Kimah are more worried about me, I think - but they miss you too.
I haven't gone to the farplane, not yet. I know it wouldn't be the same, but maybe it would help, you know?
I miss you.
Still, I think, you left me here, alone.
I know it isn't true - not really - but that's the thought I come too, again and again. I know you eould have stayed - you tried, I know - if you could, but I can't really make myself believe it.
You promised me, over and over on my Pilgramage, that we could find a way to defeat Sin with summoning the FInal Aeon. I didn't believe you. There had been Summoners four how many hundreds of years, who were we to see something all those others had overlooksed? Yunalesca herdelf could find no other way. You were only trying to come to grips with the truth of of the Final Summoning, I thought. What could you do?
But you did it. You saved my life. I would be dead but for you, Tidus.
And yet, I find myself wondering if perhaps it would not have been better that way. That's so selfish, isn't it? I know it is. If it had gone differently, if I had summoned the Final Aeon, and died, we would never have defeated Yu Yevon, and on it would have gone, on and on for years, more FInal Aeons and the Summoners dead calling them.
So of course it's better this way, even without you.
But, still, couldn't I have done something more? If only you'd told me, we could have done something. But who am I to talk, look how long I put off telling you about the Final Summoning.
But still.
I replay each memory I have, thinking about the things I could have said, should have said, the witty comebacks I never thought of at the time. I hold each one close like a pearl. I know that in time, each one will fade, but still I hope they never do.
Life seems so much emptier somehow without you. I know that isn't true either - Lulu and Wakka, Rikku and Kimahri, my friends, are still here.
They all miss you, you know. I can see it i n their eyes. Sometimes I catch Wakka just staring out onto the horizon, a look in his eye. He might make some excuse about missing his blitzball days, but I know what he's thinking about. Rikku's more vocal about than any of the others - she'll actually come out and admit it - and Lulu and Kimah are more worried about me, I think - but they miss you too.
I haven't gone to the farplane, not yet. I know it wouldn't be the same, but maybe it would help, you know?
I miss you.