written for the room of requirement
the ultimate hogwarts house competition
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prompt #17:
(pairing)
Sirius Black/Marlene McKinnon
word count: 532
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you anchor me down to the ground
pulling me down
from the falsified joy i felt before
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you hold me in your arms
i try not to breathe in
try to let the moment last
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you were just the
'flavor of the week'
at first
the girl of the day
the wooing of the week
not real
none of it was real
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everyone wanted you
you wanted no one
but i saw you for who you truly were
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at first you hated me
but then i managed to make you see
who i truly was
[cause, you see,
you were more than just
the flavor of the week]
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i didn't trust this at first
wondering why you would ever
take an interest in me
silly marlene mckinnon
so ugly her parents left
they didn't want her
little ugly blood traitor bitch
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it seems i've finally fallen from my heaven
where i could have anyone i wanted
anyone but the girl on the ground
you
i've fallen down down down
through the miles and miles of clouds
but down here i've got you
and that's enough
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you weren't the boy i knew
not anymore
you weren't loyal sirius black
handsome sirius black
loving sirius black
you are
death eater sirius black
killed his best friend, sirius black
ihateyouihateyouihateyou.
sirius black.
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there is one happy memory that
the dementors can never take
and that is your face
[you are keeping me alive
in the midst of a living hell.]
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how am i still in love with you?
i miss your face
your loving smile
your chaste, soft kisses
ihateyou.
but i don't.
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i am hoping that you will not hate me
that perhaps one day the truth will be known
and you will be there
and perhaps we will still have a chance
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the last thing i say is
sirius black.
i feel as if your hands are still there
anchoring me to the earth
begging me to stay
but i can't
not anymore.
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i am out.
i am alive
and
you are gone.
that is the first thing i can hear.
the only thing i can hear.
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…
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this has to be a dream,
i tell myself
another falsified memory
another nightmarish dream
brought on by the horrors of azkaban
maybe i'm still inside these prison walls
maybe i never managed to escape.
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…
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but i can see your grave.
i can see the urn where your ashes are,
burned from the body with eyes still open
unseeing
unblinking
unalive.
falsified life.
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…
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it is everything i can do not to do it
a simple spell
a wand pointed at my own heart
and it will be over
and you will be there
with me
in the dark
together.
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…
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i feel the cold wind as i pass through the veil
and i can see your face
the memories coming back
taunting me
because i cannot touch you
the veil has sent me into a wall
where i will forever look upon the ghosts of the dead
forever staring upon them
while not being truly with them
myself
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i reach a hand forward to touch you.
but you are forever out of reach.
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a/n: yay! sorry allison i'm blowing up your inbox XD
also
I'M OFFICIALLY A MOTHER!
A bird mother, to be exact.
My parents have never let me get a cat or dog or snake or lizard or spider or... anything of that sort. and then I hit upon the magic animal.
A BIRD.
Her name is Addie, and I'm really not even sure if it is a she because she's so young that her ceres haven't turned distinct colors yet.
BUT SHE'S SO. FREAKING. ADORABLE.
AAAAAHHHHH