A two-shot idea I had in the makes in January as well that I dug up. Thought I could try it out with my other story updates. Nothing much to say except, here's the first part!

Disclaimer: Don't own it. How many times have I said that now? Fifty?

Why do you hate me?

We set today's scene in the Common Room of Titan's Tower.

If you look out the window, you can see the beautiful sunset in the distance. Making the water of the bay dazzle and the clouds in the air change into a rainbow of colors.

Inside, the TV is off. Due to the fact that no one is currently in the room.

The only sound that can be heard inside is of the various machines running on the walls.

The fridge, stocked with Cyborg's meat, some tofu, and some weird blue mold, is humming in the kitchen.

A clock ticks away the seconds above the doorway. The short hand pointing halfway between 8 and 9. And the long hand going over the 6. Pointing out that it is 8:30.

It seems like all is normal in the room. Just the various sounds of technology running. A nice, peaceful atmosphere to play a game, or read a book (or write one *nudge nudge, wink wink*).

But then… the sliding doors slid open. A wave of sadness coming in through the doorway. Sending the calm atmosphere right out the window.

A very down looking Beast Boy entered the room. Looking worse than the time he had changed into the Beast. He was sad, but there was also some anger behind it.

He moped his way over to the couch in the room. He'd had a bad day today. And it seemed like everyone was out to get him. And he had honestly came in here to try and calm down a little. Before he lashed out at someone.

As he sat down, Beast Boy saw his green controller to the Gamestation. Almost seeming to beg him to play with it. To mash his fingers into the buttons on it. Whether to kill zombies on the screen, or to cream his best friend in some one on one gladiator robot game. A few months ago, he would have done so without any hesitation. And he was thinking of doing just that.

When she entered his mind again. Belittling him for playing his games and acting like a child. Telling him to grow up as he was thrown out the window.

He looked down at the green controller. And he felt an uncontrollable fury rise up in him. Something he just couldn't stop, if he had wanted to that is.

He got up off the couch, his game controller in his hand. He went to the window, opened it wide, and chucked it far out into the sea. It making an inaudible splash as it hit the water.

Not satisfied in the slightest, he followed this up by grabbing the gamestation itself. The claws in his hands extending. As he ripped the complex piece of machinery apart with his claws. Following which he also threw it out the window in the same manner. Piece by piece. By piece.

This was definitely not a normal thing for the changeling. But he didn't care. As even as he threw out the last piece, he punched the glass of the window hard. Sending it shattering towards the ground below.

He proceeded to do that to a whole row of windows. Punching each and every one of them out. The pieces falling onto the rocky ground far below.

Still feeling unsatisfied, he looked up to the big glass window. The one that was specially wired by Cyborg to act as their TV screen. Their alert system. Or showed who was communicating with them. It was his third biggest pride and joy. The second being the Tower. And the first being the T-Car.

Beast Boy morphed into a T Rex. And he smashed his head into Cyborg's pride and joy. Feeling it shatter into thousands of little pieces, small microfiber wires sticking out of them. As most fell towards the ground far below. Joining the rest of the glass down there. While the rest came to rest in front of Beast Boy's feet.

He morphed back into himself. Gripping his head as he felt a massive headache coming on. Pushing the burning Rage inside him back. And the sadness took it's place again.

He sat back down on the couch, not feeling any remorse for what he'd just done. Why should he have?

He'd felt his anger building up ever since… well… since the last time he'd even talked to Raven. Or at least, tried to. Gosh, did that name alone burn him to his core.

Why was he so angry about Raven? You might ask. Let's take a look back in time, shall we.

It had been shortly after they'd gotten back from Tokyo a few months ago.

Robin and Starfire were now the famous couple of the tower. Cyborg had had fun teasing them whenever he could, although they had acted like he wasn't even there every time. Seeming to be almost a little too absorbed in each other to care.

It had since gotten old to Cyborg, and he refused to be anywhere near them when they were both together. Since it involved a lot of touching, groping, and did I mention kissing? Sometimes, you'd think they hadn't seen each other in forever when they got together again.

Cyborg had lots of extra training after the trip.

Apparently, he'd eaten so much food while in Tokyo, that his seven hundred pound body became eight hundred and fifty-seven pounds. You could definitely see the fat on the human parts of his body.

Coming home with a bulky appearance that wasn't as muscular as it used to be. Robin also hadn't been very pleased when he received the food bill. Who knew sushi could be so expensive in large quantities?

Apparently, not Cyborg.

Since then, Robin has helped him with excercising all the weight off Cyborg. When he wasn't with Starfire of course.

Beast Boy, well he thought he had finally reached popularity with a female crowd. Leaving Tokyo with a humongous self-esteem boost at first. Having fond memories of being flocked by cute girls everywhere he went.

It had been so real to him.

That was, until he found a video on YouTube that was in Japanese characters. It had showed a picture of himself on it. So being curious, he had it translated.

When translated, it had said, "Green dork laughing stock of Tokyo karaoke bar."

He had been shocked. But still, he decided to watch it, hoping Google Translate had been wrong. It hadn't, for once.

Many of the showcases in the video were of him, talking to the different girls who had spoken to him. Some of which he even recognized.

He hadn't understood what they said then, it all being in Japanese. But the video had also come with English subtitles. And he was able to tell all that they said about him. He had seen the view count on it, and almost passed out.

It had blown past fifty million. And the comments, the likes for the video. Everything pointing to how much people had liked it.

Let's just say after that. He threw away all the souvenirs he'd kept from Tokyo. Most of which having come from those he perceived as fangirls. And vowed to never search himself on YouTube again.

And Raven, she hadn't really changed from their trip. Besides making harsher comments and quips about her green teammate than before.

Throwing him out the window had seen a drain increase. For trying to talk to her about something. For trying to invite her to join the rest of them for an activity. For entering a room while she was reading a book. For breathing in the same airspace she was in.

Let's just say that every time he was within ten feet of her. Doing whatever it was he was trying to do. One thing, or another, happened. And yes, all of it was bad.

At first, he had been shocked. Mostly because, before, he hadn't really been bothered by her sarcastic quips and insults before. Nor had he cared when he was thrown out the window. Or hit on the head. Or belittled. Or anything really.

Granted, the fact that he had feelings for her. Ever since Terra had officially left his life. And she had helped him through it. So he hadn't really minded before, since in his mind, that was her normal self.

But now, it seemed like every word she said to him. Big or small, drove a needle into his very heart. Every hit he received was stronger than the last. Hurting him more and more with each time it happened.

There was a couple times she healed him if it was serious. But other than that, she just left him to lie in pain on the ground. Acting as if nothing had happened.

At first he thought he'd done something to make her mad. So he did the natural thing he normally did in this situation. Avoid her like the plague and wait for her to calm down. And then try to apologize for whatever he had done to her.

At first, his plan had seemed to work. Raven seemed to be calming down a little as he watched from afar. And after a week, he had almost felt ready to be in her presence again.

But then, she had sought him out.

He had been in his room. Reading a book no less, trying to grow up a little. As she so cruelly pointed out to him on a daily basis.

When his door had been thrown open. And she had appeared. Saying even harsher things to him. Insulting his dead parents. Calling him an immature prick. Yelling at him for wanting to avoid her now.

All the while she was throwing him around like a rag doll. Moving his body around the tower as she did so. Ending with a trip out into the bay through the roof hatch.

She had healed him afterwards. But his heart still ached in his chest. That was something she could never heal with her magic.

The girl he had a crush on seemed to have such a deep hatred for him. Whether he acted like himself. Whether he tried to mature a little. Or if he even tried to give her the space she asked for. Her hatred for him never seemed to change.

And it was hurting him. No, killing him on the inside. Because no matter what he did, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't see why Raven seemed to ated him.

Was it his colored skin? The fang point out of his mouth? The one to many pranks he pulled on her before Tokyo? He just couldn't seem to figure it out!

He felt like it couldn't get any worse. That he had hit rock bottom with her. That her hatred for him couldn't have gotten ever deeper as the months passed.

It had.

Today, several crime alerts had came from the city.

He had been assigned with Raven to take down Doctor Light. While Cyborg took down Cinderblock. And Robin and Starfire faced Johnny Rancid. The villain Robin hated almost as much as Slade. Almost.

Doctor Light had been far too easy to defeat. Mainly since he still had nightmares from whatever he had seen beneath Raven's cloak. And one sight of Raven in her magical tentacle form was enough for him to surrender quietly.

Beast Boy wasn't even sure why Doctor Light tried to be a villain anymore. Since he was to scared of Raven to even fight back anymore.

Beast Boy had been tying him up. Muttering how he got easier every time. Hoping to coax a small smile from Raven. To see if she truly did hate him or not. There had been a crowd gathering near the two.

When Raven took one look at him, and said a particularly hurtful comment. Straight from the Japanese video. He hadn't even known she had watched it.

And she had said it. Right in front of Doctor Light. And the gathering crowd of people.

All of them, having seen it as well, started to laugh. The whole crowd and Doctor Light chanting names from it. Like the green house pet, or the deranged animal. One even asked where his leash was.

The worst were the comments about how useless he was to the team. How they could do without him.

And he just stood there in shock. Feeling and hearing all the hatred the people around him felt.

The people he saved on a regular basis. The people he would die for if need be. The ones that he would expend all his energy on if it meant saving one soul.

It wasn't like he never heard their whispers before. Every time he was with the team and things had calmed down. They'd always be there in the background. Whispering these very things, thinking he wouldn't here them.

But now, they were chanting it. And he looked to Raven. Wondering why she wasn't even stopping it.

And then, she had smiled. As she watched everyone's reaction. She had smiled! It hadn't been from one of his jokes. It hadn't been from a funny trick he pulled on Cyborg. It hadn't even been when he had basically insulted Doctor Light.

It had been because of everyone's reaction. To his pain.

And that smile had been what finally broke something in him. A whimper escaping from his throat. Grabbing her attention.

He had looked up at her, with tears in his eyes. Tears that he had refused to show themselves till then. Tears that he had been holding back for the past couple months.

It was... the only way he thought he could possibly communicate how much she was hurting him. That she was hurting her friend.

The one person who understood her better than anyone. Or at least, he had thought.

He never had tears in his eyes. And he hoped she would somehow get the message. That she had hurt him to badly this time.

For a second. A fleeting moment. The blink of an eye. The time of a shooting star.

He thought he saw a look come across her face. A look that rested somewhere between hurt and anguish. He didn't know what it could have been.

But as it had happened, the smug smile had returned. As she focused on taking Doctor Light away.

And that was when the harsh reality had set in for him.

Raven Rachel Roth truly, with every fiber of her being, hated him. Just like everyone else in this city. Just like every other person he'd met ever since he left the Doom Patrol.

The one person he loved. Possibly more so than Terra. Had taken his heart, and crushed it. Leaving a deep sadness where it had been.

He had flown away. He couldn't stand being in hers, or the crowds presence, anymore.

That had happened just an hour earlier. And why he had so much hatred in him.

Which was the reason why he had lashed out in the Common Room. Why he had a massive headache forming in his head. Why he was so angry. And yet so depressed. That there was no one in the world who truly loved him.

'And to think, she was finally opening up to me. To think, I actually thought she would have liked me… and now… ever since Tokyo...'

A breeze blew in from the broken window. Making him shudder a little. But also calming down his headache a little.

He got up from off the couch and approached the window. Standing by it, he allowed the cool breeze to ease the pain in his head. Providing some relief from the pain he was feeling physically. And the view of the city also seemed to help a little.

But not even an ocean breeze and a great view can provide an easy cure to emotional pain. Despite all the Rage he had inflicted upon the Common Room. He still felt that anger buried deep into his chest. The depression that was hand in hand with it.

And yet, behind all of that emotion. Was the love he held for his dark angel. Despite all she had ever done to him over the last couple months. Despite her best attempts to get him to hate her.

Beast Boy still loved Raven. Despite all she had done to him.

He still loved her.

He sat back down on the couch. All of these hopeless thoughts and feelings filling his mind.

He sensed someone appearing behind him. Almost as if, out of thin air.

He could always seem to tell when she used her powers. At least, when his attention wasn't being diverted onto something else. Like the latest Super Monkeys video game. But since it was currently in the ocean...

"What is it now Rae? Came to make fun of the green freak again?" He said in a tone he tried to keep close to normal.

Raven glared at him after examining the room. "What have I told you about calling me Rae. And where were you. I had to bring Doctor Light to the police all by myself. And help Cyborg detain Cinderblock." She snapped at him in her monotone voice.

Although she couldn't see it, his face was starting to narrow from anger again. Anger, and sadness. "What! I can't call you Rae! But you can call me… what you did! Out there in public! And expect me to help you out after that!" He snapped back. Deciding to quickly drop the act.

Her eyes narrowed. "What, isn't that what those Japanese girls you liked called you in the video? Didn't you always tell me you liked what they said about you? Why is it so bad coming from my mouth when it was acceptable from theirs? And should it excuse you from your duty to this city?" She said in a sharp voice to him.

His claws extended. Gripping the couch through his gloves. "And how did you think I felt when I finally figured it out! Huh! Couldn't you even tell how hurt I was by it!"

She quickly replied in a heated tone. "You know I can't feel emotions Beast Boy. I can guess what others are feeling. But I can't guess everything I see. So why are you asking me that question?"

Beast Boy started to laugh. Raven became confused as he continued to laugh. "What the hell are you finding so funny about this!" She shouted in a harsh voice. Gesturing all around her as she did so. Noticing all the damage at last that hadn't been there before.

Beast Boy stopped laughing. And he stood up. His voice became deeper out of anger. "You can't feel emotions! That has to be the best joke I've ever heard from you Rae. It seems like for the past few weeks you've always been experiencing something close to hate every time I've been around you!"

Raven blinked. Seeing the sudden changes in his emotions always confused her. "So what. I thought I was always one to push you away when you invaded my space. You should know better by now." She said in rather simple terms to him. Her voice a regular monotone now.

A growl escaped from his throat. Actually causing Raven to step back into a defensive stance. "Invading your space! Leaving you alone to live a miserable life! If anything, I haven't so much as come into your airspace for the past few months!"

Raven tried to say something. But he continued. The anger growing in his voice.

"I've been trying to do what you've been telling me to do for years! I've gone out of my way to leave you alone! And what do you do! You seeker me out! You treated me even worse than before for it!"

He still hadn't turned to face her this whole time. He couldn't look at her now. Otherwise, those damn tears that he had been holding back earlier would fall. He'd finally have his emotional breakdown. He was considering himself lucky that all his anger was hiding the deep sadness in him. Otherwise, Raven would only make fun of him again in his view.

Raven still stood in her spot. Debating what he had said in her mind. She could tell he was angry. And it was most likely because of what she had done earlier to push him away. "I've been treating you the same way since I first met you." She finally said. Her voice becoming unsure.

His shoulders tensed. He wanted to turn around so badly. To yell until he was blue in the face.

But he took a deep breath. The sadness in him fighting his anger back a little bit. His tone also softening.

"Raven, I remember every day of being a Titan... I remember, every single villain that we've faced... From Cinderblock, to Slade, to the Brotherhood, to Brushogan... I remember every argument about meat I've had with Cyborg... Every training session with Robin... Every single time I helped Starfire to adjust to our planet…"

He choked up a little. Raven felt his anger disappearing. Being replaced with sadness, and this warm feeling he had behind it. Something she couldn't name. But yet, felt so good to her every time she was around him.

But it had been emotion. Something she could never allow herself to feel. Yet it had been something that had always drawn her to him. Yet, was also the reason she tried so hard to push him away.

This was why she had been acting the way she had towards him. Every time she had been harsh on him, that feeling dropped back a little bit. Became less, strenuous, to ignore.

But it was almost like a drug to her. And she had been ashamed that she was addicted to it. To his warm feelings.

That had been why she always sought him out. And why she covered it by being harsher to him.

She hadn't taken into account just how much she had been hurting him.

"I remember all that and more Rae. But out of everything. I remember my time with you the most… how you helped me when I was down… how you always kept me in check… how you always made sure that after a battle that I was okay..."

A tear fell down his cheek. He needed to get out of there now. "I'm sorry that I got mad at you and yelled. It was totally out of line for me, and you did nothing to deserve it. I'll just stay out of your way."

He turned. Hiding his face from her. As he walked for the doors to the room.

Raven knew he was trying to give her what he thought she wanted. What she always told him that she wanted. But that didn't stop her from doing her next action.

Beast Boy felt her grab his arm. Stopping his progress to the doors. "Beast Boy, even if I wasn't an empath, I can tell that you're hurt emotionally about something. Do you need to talk about it?" She asked. Keeping her voice calm. For her sake, or his. She didn't really know. All she could tell was that he was feeling unhealthy amounts of sadness in his mind.

His head fell even more. Refusing to look up. "What's the point in talking anyways. It won't change anything. It'll only make things worse."

Raven should have let it go at that. She understood wanting to be alone. Yet, she didn't.

"Beast Boy, look at me."

He couldn't. If he did, then it would all be over for him. She yanked on his arm a little. Turning him around to face her.

"Beast Boy, tell me what's wrong." She told him. Trying to keep her tone level.

He still stared at the ground. Not even bothering to answer. Raven took a deep breathe.

"Garfield, please, tell me." She said. Allowing concern to enter her voice.

That was what did it. She never called him by his name before. Saying she was going to save it one day to tease him about it.

But now she had said it. Not in a teasing sort of way. But as if she was actually worried about him.

And he looked up at her. Her face was just a foot in front of him. It was mainly neutral, just like it always was for her.

But her eyes. Those amethysts of hers. That was where all her emotions showed through her outer shell. Displaying all the worry and concern she was feeling for him in that moment.

It was so beautiful to him. Seeing something other than hate in her eyes.

And the tears. Those damn tears that he had been trying so hard to hold back. Finally started to fall down from his eyes.

'No! She can't see me cry!'

He jerked his arm away from hers. Almost shocking Raven after having seen those tears from before.

'So they weren't my imagination earlier.'

He was running for the sliding doors of the common room. Wanting to get as far away from Raven as possible.

When a black force field came up over the doors. Keeping Beast Boy from escaping that way.

He turned to the line of broken windows. He started running towards them. The tears still falling down his face.

Only, he forgot Raven was between him and said windows.

He found his feet suddenly trapped. And he looked down. He could barely see through the tears to find Raven's magic pinning his feet to the ground.

He tugged, and tugged, and tugged. Trying to escape from the sudden bondage. Wanting to find a quiet corner to grieve for his heart. Not wanting the world to see how weak he was.

"Raven, let me go!" He shouted. Trying to mask his voice with more anger. As if that had worked before.

"Not until you tell me Garfield!" Raven yelled in his face. Standing in front of her grieving teammate. Her emotions were starting to come out. Levitating and breaking stuff all around her.

But she either didn't notice. Or didn't care. As her teammate was seeming to be suffering from a very deep pain. And she seemed to be the cause of it.

He looked up again. Seeing her in front of him again. The look he thought he saw earlier was now on her face. Not that neutral mask she always wore.

It was a look of worry and concern. The same way her eyes looked now.

"Gar, just please tell me. Why are you hurting so badly." She said in a soft voice. A hint of emotion added to it. Something she rarely ever did.

She looked so beautiful to him in that moment. The sun behind her making her hair glow like a small purple halo around her face. The light reflecting off her pale skin. Making her seem to glow.

If she had been dressed in white. He could have sworn that she looked like an angel in that moment.

But an angel he would never have. An angel who would never love him back. An angel who would always push him away. Wanting to stay alone from the hosts of heaven.

"I can't." He said.

His tone no longer masked with anger. Just the deep sadness that had been bottling up in him ever since Tokyo.

"I can't." He repeated, like a broken record player.

"Please… just tell me what's hurting you so badly." Raven said. Getting closer to him.

This was probably the closest he had ever been to her. Without her pushing him away. Her beautiful, angelic face so close to his.

And it was killing him. She would never feel the same way in his mind. He was just someone that everyone hated. Nothing could ever change that.

He tore his gaze away. His voice breaking as he finally put all his thoughts and feelings in one question.

"Why do you hate me?"

He felt Raven step back from him.

He didn't see the look of shock that was on her face. He didn't hear all the plates in the kitchen blow up from her emotions.

He had finally gotten his question out. Pandora's Box had been opened. And now, he didn't want to stay to see what happened.

Raven's mind was going haywire. Going over the past few months. Comparing it to the years before. Trying to logically find why he would even ask her such a question. And then, it was like something in her mind clicked.

Her attempts to push him away.

Her harshness.

Her bitchy attitude towards him.

'Oh Azar… he's sad because of me!'

And that was when Beast Boy transformed. Escaping his bonds by changing into an eagle.

He flew out the broken window. Heading towards the city.

After a few seconds. Raven finally recovered from her shock.

She flew out the window after him. Tears threatening to escape her eyes. As her emotions waged out of control around her.

Author's Notes:

So I wanted to write something angsty. Practice it a little bit. And while I was brainstorming, I remembered this idea I had left in the back of my Google Drive. I added to it. Modified it. Perfected it. And this is the result you read.

Was it any good? Should I resolve it next chapter? Or just end with tragedy? Leave something that makes people cry so to speak.

Till Next Time

Allen