Where are you?...
I walk to the edge of the dock, staring out into the endless mass of water. It reminds me of you, just a week ago.. sin was destroyed along with you. Just a week ago, i watched you disappear right before my eyes. You dont know how much that hurt me because that moment when you went away, you had taken away my heart, my love, my soul.
The wind blows against my skin, i feel it tingle upon me. It caresses me as if trying to make me feel better, but it cant. My hair blows every which way, pressing the beaded strand against my cheek. My green and blue eyes water at remembering you. I long for your touch, that day when you held me in the waters. I cry knowing you will never embrace me again. My lips yearn to touch yours just as they did that fateful day. I am no longer a summoner, there is no need for a high summoner such as I. In fact, if you were here, we could live happily together, we could go back to Zanarkand and watch the sunset as u tell me the stories of when u lived there. My fingers inch towards my mouth, my fingertips brush against my lips. I blow, whistling. You'll come right? I need you... you promised that you will come for me if i whistle. Here i am, im whistling and you still arent here. My eye's well up with tears again as i fall to my knees and hug myself.
Tighter, i hold myself tighter everytime i think of you because... i feel lonely without you. I fell in love with you, and yet you leave me. I look at my rippling reflection, my green eye seemed to glow more than my blue. Tears begun to finally fall from my thick black lashes, distorting my image. Come back to me... come back to me. I yearn for you, i call for you and yet.. you still dont come. I lift myself back up and stick my two fingers in my mouth again, this time blowing with all my might. I whistle until i lose all my breath. Should i give up hope? Should i forget about you? I ask myself this, but even if i tell myself i should i know that i wont be able to. I wipe away my tears and turn my back toward the water, walking back to the village. Wakka and Lulu will be waiting for me. I should really thank them because... they've supported me ever since you left. If fact, i think they might get together, im happy for them. But it only makes me think of you again and again. I take in a quivered breath, im ok now, and let it out. No... i dont have the spirit to be ok. I need you.
"Yuna!" Wakka waves at me from afar after spotting me. I raise my head and smile. He was always there for me, as a guardian and a friend. I always thought it was funny how his hair slicked up like a cow had licked his orange hair. My smile brightened as i thought of this. I picked up my pace and started to run, letting my blue skirt skim the gravel. Soon, I saw Lulu walk from Wakka's hut. She smiled with her deep purple lips. Lulu was like a sister to me, her braided black hair pranced behind her within each step she took, also her bangs fell limp upon her forehead covering a bit of her eyes. She was beautiful and i admired her charm. Kimahri was there to, standing in the distance with his arms crossing his chest. His usual stance. I've always looked up to that Ronso ever since that day he took me in as his own. I was crying, because i had realized my father had dyed while defeating sin. Kimahri came to me that day, and ever since ive looked up to him. In fact most people would be afraid when a Ronso came up to them, they were like animals. Blue fur covered Kimahri's body and they all had horns such like a unicorn, but Kimahri... his horn was cut off.
"You Ok, ya?" Wakka put a hand on my shoulder as i approached them, Lulu had her hand on my other shoulder. They watched me carefully and i knew if i said i was, they knew it was a lie. Nevertheless, my lips curved into another smile. It was always like this, I'd come back to the village and both Wakka and Lulu were always worried... even Kimahri. I shook their hands off my shoulders and took a step back shaking my head up and down.
"Of course i am. Wakka... Lulu.." I said keeping that same smile upon my face. If i let it go, i knew i would cry. They days are getting longer and slower, making it even hard adjusting that your gone. Deep down, i could never accept this, its not true because... because you'll come back to me. "Im going to go pray." I announce to them and push them aside as i step foward, in the direction of the temple. I need to get my mind off of things, lately i have been praying alot even though i no its pointless. Im not a summoner anymore, there is no use for me. Wakka stops me by resting a hand on my shoulder again, pushing me back a little bit. I look at Lulu with teary eyes.
"You dont need to pray anymore, Yuna." She said in her low feminine voice. She then looked to the side revealing to me her smooth cheek. I watch her, as if mesmerized, but really... i didnt know how to respond or what to do. Lately, my mind has been on just you, nothing else. Perhaps... deep down i believe that if i never lose hope, you'll come back. Im not smiling anymore, nor can i put up a fake one. Little ways away, i see Kimahri walking towards us. I think he thinks something is wrong. Im still looking at Lulu and finally she looks back. I can see the sadness she weilds, i can tell that she feels sorry for me.
"Lulu..." I whisper her name and turn my body towards her, only to fall into her arms weeping. Im not embarrassed to cry anymore, it just hurts to much. My fingers clasp around her arms, holding her tight as my tears dampen her dress. "Lulu..." i whimper her name again as more tears run from my different colored eyes. "I cant... i cant... I miss him.." I tilt my head up to her, looking in her reddish brown eyes. She watches me back. This time, her arms are around me to, her eyes teary as well.
"Yuna... Sin is gone, in order for sin to finally be vanquished... he had to go." She threw the truth at me as if throwing a thousand needles into my heart. I only wept harder. "He loved you, Yuna... he wanted you to live." She said. I couldnt hold myself up anymore and i fell to my knees bringing Lulu along with me. We were still in each other's arms, crying.
"H..He'll come back... right?" I ask her afraid to know the truth. "He promised he would come... He promised." i told them letting my arms slip from their grasp on Lulu. I leaned back a little, hugging myself this time. Wakka bent down behind me, watching my back. I know he is speechless, he's seen my cry many times but never for a lost love. He and Lulu were the ones who taught me to smile even when i want to cry. Remember... i taught you that to. I looked at Lulu, she was afraid to answer me.
"Im sorry." Lulu spoke such hurtful words even if they weren't. They pierced me. I turned to Wakka, grabbing his arms with panic. My eyebrows turned fiercely to each other as my eyes threatened to tear up again.
"He'll come back.. right.. Wakka..." I hesitated and bent my head down, looking at the gravel. "Tell me he will..." I whisper even though i know the answer. You wont come back. Wakka didn't say anything, he was afraid to i just know it. I slap my hand to the gravel and lift myself up, stumbling to catch my balance. "He'll come back!" I yell at them and turn around, running to the edge of the village, leaving Wakka and Lulu behind. I stop little ways away from them and take a deep breath before letting it out in a high pitched whistle. You'll come back... i lose my breath again, but take in another letting out a whistle once more. I remember, when i first met you... you screamed because you hurt. I let my hand drop to my side and i scream. "COME BACK!" Before I know it, Kimahri is standing by my side. I look at him, tears streaming form my eyes.
"Kimahri sad because Yuna sad." he admitted, crossing his arms again while looking off into the distance. I wipe my eyes and realize, im crumbling apart, every day your not here. Everyday i dont see you, im slowly losing all hope. I turn around to face the village and glance up at Kimahri.
"Dont be, This is a Yuna problem." i tell him with a smile, but this one was real. Kimahri was worried, he's always like that and somehow... he always makes me feel better. I look back once more before walking towards the village again. "Tidus... I love you." I whisper even though i know Kimahri had heard me. I walk to Wakka and Lulu once more, feeling more like myself too.
"Feeling better, ya?" Wakka greeted me as i nodded. Lulu put a hand on my back as she led me to her cottage; Wakka following behind.