Disclaimer: Naruto doesn't belong to me... Sadly.
Warning: BL, songfic, a bit of angst. Nothing serious, really.
If I would tell you how much you mean to me
I think you wouldn't understand it
Sasuke sighed for the hundredth time. He was sick. So sick of avoiding his fangirls, sick of tricking Kakashi into training him, sick of Itachi, sick of thinking about Naruto. And again, he sighed.
Ever since he met the dobe, he was pulled into some twisted whirlpool of emotions. Hey, everything about the blond was a whirlpool, starting from his never-ending gaze, that even skies could not match up to. After years of denial, Sasuke finally came to terms with his own heart, and admitted to himself that he was truly and strongly in love with Naruto. He honestly didn't know what made him fall in love with him. Was it his silly and cheerful character? His empathy towards Sasuke's pain? Heck, his empathy towards everyone!
Naruto, he... He could really relate to anyone. No matter how crude, cold and bastardish the person is; Naruto always managed to crawl his way into everyone's heart. Even Sasuke's, who for personal reasons decided to keep it closed.
So I wait, I wait until this day comes
When you will understand me
Naruto was so cheery, happy all the time that all Sasuke wanted was to bask in his radiance (he was like the Sun) until all his dark thoughts and nightmares went away.
But he couldn't. He was an avenger and Naruto had a dream. Something that had to be done before all those feeling couldn't be suppressed anymore. He needed to wait for both of them to reach their goals. He could wait until that day, right?
But I can't help myself
I can't stop myself
I am going crazy
But, dear Kami, every time he saw that bright smile of his, those sparkling eyes full of life, Sasuke wanted to give up. Just abandon everything and be with his usuratonkachi.
And I can't stop myself
Can I control myself
I am going crazy
He couldn't even control his own body when he was near the blonde! The teasing, the fights... Just a way to make Naruto notice him, not that pink witch, to touch him, even if it was to hurt him...
And I love you, I want you
I wanna talk to you
I wanna be with you
He wanted nothing more than just to be near him... Even if Naruto yelled at him and he grunted in response... Sasuke still cherished it.
And I love you, I want you
I wanna talk to you
I wanna be with you
Even that wasn't enough at times... He yearned to be with him, speak his mind freely, smile with him, hold him, kiss him…
I cannot change it
I'm sure not making it
One big hell of a fuss
There, he sighed again, thinking how stupid his reasons were and how stupid he himself has always been. The blonde never noticed his feelings. Well, that was he's mistake. Always demeaning him, teasing, fighting and sometimes ignoring (he was just observing) him, Sasuke created a mess out of them. Naruto thought Sasuke hated him and Sasuke was sure, if he continues doing so, Naruto will truly hate him in return.
I cannot turn my back
Got to face the fact
Life without you is hazy
While he knelled there, staring down at unconscious Naruto, right after their fight at the Valley, Sasuke could only conclude one thing. How now, he could not possibly live without that hyperactive ninja. He couldn't, but he had to. He knew it will be hell, but he had to survive it. For Naruto's sake. So that after, after he accomplished his goal...
Smiling softly, he lean down a little, imagining Naruto and himself, free. From all worries and prejudices, and mostly, free from reality.
Kiss me goodbye...
A/N: So I tinkered with it a little and changed some stuff... Nothing big, just the end... Mostly...