The Beating Of My Heart
A/N I do not own anything CH and AB do.
Eric started to run faster and faster away from that house and away from that infuriating woman. Sookie's cry of despair rung out through the forest. That was the cry of someone who had lost everything. Thinking about his maker Godric, Eric turned around and went back.
He quietly approached Sookie's house. He could see her slumped on the kitchen floor just inside the door. Sookie looked totally and utterly defeated. Violent sobs racked her small body as tears pooled on the floor in front of her. Eric dropped to his knees before the barrier and just watched her, trying to send her comfort and strength.
"I know your there. Have you come to see your circus monkey perform one last time? Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you but I've got nothing left to give" Sookie said and her voice sounded dead.
"Sookie it's not like that. Your not a circus monkey. Your special" Eric began but Sookie cut him off when she laughed, a sad hollow sound.
"Your so special, your valuable. Yeah, for my bloody gift or my blood. What about me? Why can't someone want me for just plain me?" Sookie cried out and a powerful wave of sadness assaulted Eric and he winced.
"Your wrong" Eric said but it was barely a whisper.
"Wrong? Wrong? Bill was sent here to fetch me for the Queen. He had me beaten and almost killed. All so he could feed me his blood and why? So I would feel attracted to him, just like you did" she cried out but the last part was so low that Eric even with vampire hearing had to strain to hear her.
"I' am nothing like Bill Compton, nothing. I made you take my blood so that I could come to your aid if you ever needed me. To keep you safe. I had never had your blood until recently" Eric yelled, he was hurt that Sookie would think him like Bill. Soookie laughed bitterly.
"Right. To keep your asset safe you mean. How could I ever trust you?" Sookie said and tears fell from her eyes once more.
Eric reached out to offer her comfort but the barrier stopped him. Eric rested his hand against the magic that kept him out. He didn't know what to do. He couldn't stand seeing Sookie cry, it made him feel human, vulnerable and he didn't like it. He closed his eyes for a moment, trying to think of away to make her understand. Maybe he should tell her how he feels? All of a sudden the feeling he was getting from Sookie changed drastically. He was getting a sense of resignation. What was she thinking? Eric opened his eyes. When his eyes fell on Sookie's face his undead heart died again.
"I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger for Gran, Jason or you. I forgive you Eric, for everything you've done. Really, in your own way you tried to help me" Sookie said as she got to her feet. A feeling of dread started to come over Eric. Sookie was going to end her life.
"No, Sookie no" Eric yelled beating at the barrier but it was useless. He couldn't get in.
Eric watched helplessly as Sookie went over to the counter and grabbed a big knife. This can't be happening, not again. He won't let her do it. Not Sookie.
"Sookie, please. I don't want you to die….I, I need you" Eric confessed but Sookie just laughed that hollow laugh again.
"I know Eric, I know. Do me a favour if you could, can you please tell Jason I'm sorry" Sookie asked as she got to her knee's once more. She put her hand against the barrier just in front of Eric's and then pulled back a couple of feet.
"Sookie, please. Don't do this. I love you" Eric pleaded as bloody tears fell down his pale skin.
"You don't even know what love means" Sookie scoffed at the vampire before her but the look on his face was sincere.
"Your wrong Sookie. Eric cares a great deal for you. HE does have a great capacity to love. He was going to sacrifice himself for you before I changed his mind" Pam said as she came upon the porch.
"Pamela" Eric barked at his childe but she continued on ignoring his warning.
"I had him chain you in the basement and I interrupted your kiss on purpose. You're a distraction, a breather that will get him killed. I was wrong and I'm sorry" Pam said and it hurt to do so.
"Your sorry?" Sookie said dumbly, she was still stuck on the Eric sacrificing himself for her part.
"Yes. Me, Pam Ravenscroft am sorry that I caused you that pain. I owe you my life for saving Eric so I came to try and save yours. Bill Compton is not worth the tribute you will give him if you go through with this. Your not alone Sookie, you have friends" Pam said as she got to her knee's and placed her hand next to Eric's on the barrier.
"You'd say anything to keep me alive" Sookie said but her voice faltered, could they be telling the truth?
"Yes, I would but not for why you think. Eric needs you. I could give a shit about the fucking Queen, she sold us out. I hope someone stakes her ass and soon. No one else knows who you really are and I wouldn't tell. You and Eric are perfect for each other, your both stubborn and wilful" Pam said with a wink, Sookie laughed.
Eric could sense that something had changed inside Sookie.
Sookie felt a spark of hope until she saw Bill coming across the yard. Their just like him and they will betray me too.
"What are you two doing here?" came Bill's voice.
Pam was up off her knee's and had Bill by the throat in seconds. She was feeding off of Eric's rage. Eric refused to leave Sookie's sight or even look at Bill, he was nothing.
"You don't belong here Bill. I would kill you without a second thought but I think that Sookie would regret that later once her heart healed. Your death would cause more pain then you are worth. Get lost" Pam said and threw Bill across the yard, he hit a tree with a loud thud.
"Sookie, no" Eric yelled but it was to late."I have to. I have nothing left, nothing" Sookie said as she raised her arm which held the knife. Sookie brought the knife down fast and it went right through her.
"Noooooooooooooo" Eric howled as he beat mercilessly at the barrier. Pam fell in the dirt where she stood her maker's pain making it hard to move or function.
"It's ok Eric, I'm ready" Sookie said as she coughed up some blood.
"I'm not ready for you to go. I need you Sookie, I want you to be with me" Eric said as the blood tears kept falling.
"I, I can see a white light. It's so beautiful Eric. It wants me to come in" Sookie coughed.
"Come into the light" Sookie finished gasping for breath.
Eric slammed his fist against the barrier but it wasn't there. He slid across the floor and knelt beside Sookie. He could barely feel her heart beat.
"No, no no" Eric repeated over and over again. He bent his head and placed a kiss on Sookie's lips. He had a choice to make. Bring her over or let her rest in peace. He knew that Sookie did not want to be vampire so he couldn't do it.
"I'm sorry Sookie, I'm sorry" Eric whispered as he watched Sookie's like go out.
Suddenly there was a white light it, blinded Eric it was so bright. When he was able to open his eyes the light was gone and so was Sookie.
"Eric?' Pam called out staggering to the porch.
"Sookie is gone" Eric said his voice flat. Eric could hear the Queen and Bill at the Compton house and took off after them.
"Eric, don't do it" Pam yelled and fell exhausted into a heap. Pam could smell fairy and was surprised that Eric didn't pick up on that. Strange.
"Eric, what are you doing here?" the Queen asked as Eric came through the front door.
Eric growled low and menacing as he heard the Queen's voice. The Queen and Bill would pay and they would pay dearly. Eric turned to face Sophie Ann.
"Why is there blood on your face? Were you crying?" Sophie Ann asked as she took in Eric's appearance. She wanted to laugh.
"YOU. This is all your fault. Sookie is dead and gone because of you" Eric spit out as his teeth descended so fast they tore into his lower lip. The pain felt good compared to the emptiness he was feeling.
"What? Sookie's dead? What are you going on about Eric?" the Queen asked confused.
"She killed herself, right in front of me. I couldn't stop her. I wasn't allowed in. She felt betrayed and alone, because of you" Eric repeated again as he stepped closer to the Queen. Both the Queen and Bill could feel the rage rolling off of Eric in waves.
"Sookie wouldn't do that. She's stronger than that" Bill reasoned for the Queen and Eric just laughed and it sounded hollow to his own ears.
"You didn't really know her, did you?" Eric said and advanced on the Queen. Eric had murder in his eyes and Sophie Ann gulped.
TBC