A/N: Hi guys :). This fic will be exploring Mary's and Carlos relationship. This fic will be split up in short parts and it will all be in Mary's point of view. I will hopefully be updating this twice a week :) Enjoy .
Love and Loss
Part 1: Acceptance
Love and loss are not strangers in my life. And whenever they come, they come together. I think that is why I've run, run so many times. It's hard for me to settle, and it's especially hard for me to trust. Others around me, who think they know me, see me as a person who is confident and who doesn't get easily offended. Where as the real me, and I hate to admit it, is sensitive and scared.
The first person to see that person was somehow the only person I'd let in. Carlos.
I really wondered after our time together was over, how he found his way into my heart.
I've come to realize it was his love, gentles and genuine nature that first captured me. And the first time I made a mistake, he was the first person I'd ever known to smile and shrug it off. He gave me something no one else had ever given me, and that was acceptance. And my Family, God knows I love them, they just couldn't give me that. They could never quite figure me out.
And Carlos? Well I fell for him quickly and hard and before I knew it we were married, it was so fast but I loved him and he loved me, he loved me so much more.
He was so caring and loving to me that sometimes it used to scare me. I couldn't believe I had ended up with a man who loved me for me, and looked out for me constantly. I was always his first priority and growing up in a house with 7 kids I had never experienced that before.
Of course the thoughts of not deserving such attention of this flooded my mind often. Yet on a daily basis, Carlos would somehow, with him not knowing it, be able to wash all those thoughts away.
I remember the first time I ran away…………….
TBC