Chapter One.

I scoffed to myself, taking another drink. 'Isn't it funny how you're own mother can't even take care of you? Can't even look after you properly?" I asked myself, out loudly. Not that it mattered, I was in my room by myself and even if anyone could hear me.. They probably wouldn't take a second look anyway.

I wasn't even drunk yet and here I was, talking to myself.

I growled to myself, hearing a knock at the door.. I could ignore it and pretend I was asleep but then whoever it was would know something was wrong. I pushed myself off the floor, running my fingertips through my hair.. Luckily I hadn't drank that much and I hadn't got to the point of crying yet, I was in the early stages of my routine.

I walked slowly down the stairs, wondering if they would have taken the hint before I got to the door.

Clearly not, I could just make out a figure in the dark behind the door.

"Joey" I said. Taking me by surprise.

"Hey you" he smiled, smoothly. He walked straight in, not giving me the chance to invite him, I probably never would have.. Giving the emotional state I was in.

"So, what's up?" I asked him.

He looked at me for a moment, taking in every facial expression I expressed. He looked concerned, I'm sure he was going to question my state, it was like he could see right through me.. He was only my cousin and I'd only hung out with him a few times on my own while we worked together on a project for my dad but there was something more about Joey, I just couldn't figure him out.

"Lucy's drunk and being annoying, you know what she's like" he laughed, but it was more of a tired laugh, followed by his right hand coming up to rub his eyes.

"That bad ey?" I giggled, hoping to take attention off of me.

He nodded, making me giggle again, it was nice to have jokey around, he was the only person on my level... As much as on my level you could get anyway.

"You alright then?" I asked him.

"Well I broke up with Lucy" he told me.

A weird feeling swept through me... She was one of my best friends and I know she adored him, and he did that to her? So why did I feel the happiest I had all week?

"Oh, why?" I asked him, not feeling rude at all, I felt totally comfortable with him.

"It's not right to keep leading her on if I have no intentions on taking our relationship any further than drunken fun... Plus I have my eyes on someone else, someone I can't get out of my head... She's pretty special" he said.

"Joseph Branning getting all soppy" I said in a sarcastic voice whilst laughing.

"Shut up" he mocked me, before lightly pushing at my shoulder.

"So, come on then... Who is she?" I asked him.

"You don't need to know that.. Not just yet anyway" he said.

I smiled at him, feeling a little bit gutted to be honest.

I was snapped out of my thoughts by Joey trying to push me towards the stairs.

"Erm, what are you doing?" I asked him.

"You're gonna go get dressed up and we're gonna go up west, away from Albert square and all the drama it holds" Joey said.

"You know Joey.. I'm not feeling that well, I think I just want an early night" I lied to him.. I just wanted to get so drunk I collapsed.

"You either go up there and make yourself look absolutely gorgeous or you tell me what's really wrong with you?" He said sternly.

How did he even know there was anything wrong with me? I hated how he knew me so well.

"Give me half hour" I smiled sarcastically at him.

I proceeded up the stairs, I knew I couldn't drink too much tonight. One, Joey would probably be ashamed of me if he saw the state I got into when I was drunk, and two, I didn't want to end up telling him my secret because well it was my secret and nobody could ever know.

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