Hello, this is my first Gin/Ran fanfic. Im just starting to get into writing bleach fanfic. I do have a tumblr where i tend to post lots of fanfiction, poems, pictures/drawing, inspiration, ideas,etc. those stories make it here most of the time. Check it out .com

Btw i dont hold chapters hostage for reviews but i do enjoy them especially when they help me grow as a writer :)

Chapter 1

She stumbled into her room. Everything was spinning as she fell face down on her bed. The sake bottle was held tightly in one hand as the other wiped away the ceaseless tears.

"Fuck you!" She yelled at no one in particular. She turned onto her back and slid down to the floor. She took another big swig and tried to focus on the door.

Her memories had come back like raging waters, destroying what little hold on sanity she still possessed.

"Gin! Where are you going, Gin?" He stopped walking. "Those are Shinigami clothes! Why are you dressed like.." He cut her off "Isn't it obvious? I am going to be Shinigami."

I stared.

"I am going to become a Shinigami so I can change things. So you wont have to cry anymore."

"Liar!" She threw the sake bottle at the door. The crash was loud and the liquid raced down the door, just like her tears. Glass was everywhere.

She couldn't believe him. He had betrayed them all, but most importantly he had betrayed her.

Though there relationship was complicated and was a far cry from what she had hoped it would become, what she dreamed it could become, she always held on to the fact that he cared about her. She always held on to that as truth.

Now. All she has our doubts. He did that to her.

"I hate you." She whispered as she curled in on herself and began sobbing silently on the floor, her rage subsiding into hurt.

This was the first time she had given into her emotions, those thoughts she had suppressed ever since that fateful day where he left, betraying all of the seretei.

She had maintained herself strong. She was a vice-captain. She had to be leader. No matter how she felt about him and what he had done she had to reign in all those negative emotions and walk around with a facade of happiness and normality.

Yet, even she had her breaking points.

As she lay there, on the cold hard ground surrounded by tears and sake, remembering all the good times between them, back when things weren't as complicated. She imagined a future with him, a future that could no longer exist becaus he destroyed that for them, someone listened to her sobs.

Someone stood outside her window, hidden by the night, listening to every sob, every tear, every curse. With every second Rangiku Matsumoto's heart was breaking, laying bare and naked on the floor next to her, cut by the jagged pieces on the floor and soaking in Sake,

His heart broke too.

Honestly, though it is in part Ran/Gin pairing I have no idea if I am going to keep it that way. Maybe a love triangle? But with who? And no lie the ending of this chapter wasn't meant to be a cliffy I just don't know who to put outside her window..any ideas?