This was my first phanfiction so I hope you enjoy it please R&R
I roll out of bed, trying and failing to not think about him. I lay my head in my hands, trying to erase his image from the inside of my eyelids. I only succeed in hurting my eyes so I walk to the kitchen for some toast. It occurs to me that I haven't eaten much since what happened and I vow to start eating regularly flat is eerily empty without him. I check the window just in case there has been a spontaneous zombie apocalypse overnight but nothing; it seems that ever since he died my world has stopped spinning. I envy the people who are unaware of my agony, whose only problems are what to cook for dinner. The toaster startles me and ignoring my vow I simply chuck it in the bin, it's not the same without him.
I walk to the bathroom and I stare at my reflection and search for the boy that used to be there, who believed in the shadow realm and was so blissfully unaware of the horrors that would befall him. All I can see is a pale, blue eyed boy gazing back at me. I close my eyes once again and I can feel his hand on my cheek, his laugh in my ear and I can see a dark haired, chocolate eyes boy in a llama hat who whispers my name
"Phil"
My eyes snap open
And my boy in the llama hat is gone.