Through the Years
Summery: A poem about how Sesshomaru looks at Inuyasha and reflects on his past
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha (pout)
I remember the first time I had to see you
Once again I had to hold you
No bigger than the length of my arm
Even though I despise you wither everything in me
One thing caught my attention…those ears
Little fuzzy soft white ears
Of course it was this one that you decided to teeth on…little mongrel
The tragic day father died I blamed you and you mother no less
Pathetic weaklings
My mid was set
I was to abandon you without a second thought
Something stopped me though……my heart?
Ridiculous, I Sesshomaru have no heat
Word came to me that you mother was murdered
Mine was as well yet I had no comforting in my grieving, why should you?
Hmm, another useless life gone
I of course had no intention of going to your aid
But nonetheless I was tracking a demon and he led me to you
Crumpled in a ball whimpering
that's how I saw you
Frightened wide eyes stare back at me with droopy ears
Those ears……
I had the sudden urge to take pity on you
But did I?
……a little
I could not stand to see those ears down, it hurt me like it hurt you
After all father said I had to make sure you survive
He didn't say that I had to be nice…and I wasn't
Who would've thought that someone at my young age would be caring over someone like you
Many times we were mistaken for father and son
I am NOT you father, just your blood sadly
Had you killing for food at 70, 7 in human years
And then pushed you "out of the nest" at 120, 12 in human years
Now was my turn to be free and unburdened
Yet you kept coming back
It got to the point where I had to chase you away and shout things at you
Not that it hurt me to say them, you ears went droopy once more
20 years down the road and we encountered each other
"Move." I told you but instead of the obedient hanyou I "raised" I got a arrogant, foul mouthed, cur instead
Of course we went into battle and I saw instantly how clumsy your moves were
No one could survive if they fight like this
Once again father did say I had to make sure that you lived
New mission: train hanyou
Now through the years I had to consistently torture you and make you think that I was doing this all because I hated you
Foolish idiot, it wasn't because I despised you with everything in my being, and that I did
It was because I felt I had to keep the promise to father
Now looking at you at this moment I began to think, was it all because father asked me to look over you
Seeing you battle against Naraku almost filled me with something that I only seem to feel towards Rin
Pride
Joy
……Love?
No
This Sesshomaru could never 'love' anybody
Not even someone who is almost a spitting image of him
Man people wander how I am so well with Rin,
How I am able to understand her,
How I am able to know what someone such as her needs
Because of you I know what a child needs, wants and thinks
Little brother, through the years we have actually begun to grow close
As hard as for me to believe it
And as much as I hate to admit it
Father never said that I had to love you….
Yet hear I am
Loving you from faraway…in my own wicked way
Just know dear brother
One day, someone will put you through what I went through with you
Through the years