It is just tiva one shot. I have got nothing to do, so I wrote this. I am sorry for my english, it is my second language.
Disclaimer: I don't own NCIS and saddly I am never going to have.
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His wedding
I watch to him, as he is standing before altar. He is wearing simple black wedding suit with white rose in lapel. He is smiling and it isn't his well-known immature grin, its new nice loving smile and I would give everything for just one that smile. I would give everything, but it isn't enough. He is in love with her, not me. Since he met Maria, he changed, a lot. The childish joker changed into mature man and I can't help myself, but this change caused, that I fall in love with him more.
Life is not fair, and I know that, if it were, I'd be with him and not her. But I still hope that at least I can dream, that I can dream my hopeless dream of being with him. It always was like this and now it always will, forever. I will never get another chance. Even if it hurts like hell, I could never ruin his happiness. He deserves to be happy and if he can be happy with another woman, I will be happy for him.
I know that now I could never be really happy, but still I can try to be content with my own life. A lot of times I tried to move over, but I can't, I love him. And it is killing me, that I can't tell him that. He found his lucky and it is all that matter. One lonely tear left my eye and fall down to my cheek. Soon I start cry. No one, but Gibbs, noticed. It is not unusual to cry at wedding, so no one wonder, no one ask why. Gibbs know it, he is the only one, who knows that I am in love with Tony. I told him just few days ago. He accepted my choice to do nothing. He understood why I chose to let him be, because I love him and I always will.
Now it is after the wedding and everyone go to congratulations to newly married couple. As I stand before them, I can do nothing, than just whisper congratulations and run away. I am sitting outside at ground and I cry. Nothing matter anymore, my world is totally ruined. I just lost my reason to live. And it hurts. I thought, that I can handle this, that I can be happy for him. But I was wrong, I can't do this anymore. I am not as strong as I thought I am. I am broken.
Then suddenly someone came to me and hugs me. I know that it is Gibbs. He just silently holds me. We both know that it will not help, but at least something, than be all alone.
There is only one thing, that will help me, but it is never going to be happened. I don't believe to miracle anymore. Now I know the cruel reality, that not every love story has got happy end. But to the last moment I hope that my will have a fairy tale end. But my love story should never have got fairy tale end. His yes, but not mine. And I will must to learn to live with this. I will be happy for him. It will be my life. Only pretending, that there is nothing, that I feel nothing, forever.
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