Disclaimer: I don't own the Harry Potter Universe. Ivy, on the other hand, is mine.
AN: I wrote this in the middle of the night when I couldn't sleep (I can't be the only one who does that!). It's a completely different writing style compared to how I normally write, but I hope you guys still like it...
I was roaming the corridors, no idea where I was headed, still angry from the fight I just had with my brother. I certainly didn't expect to run into her! Especially not literally.
'Ouch,' she said, rubbing her head.
I had already turned around, and was walking away, when she called: 'Reggie, wait a sec!' and ran over to me.
'Tell me it's not true!' she demanded. 'You can't do this,' she added, insecurely, tears in her eyes.
'Look Ivy, I just talked about this with my brother, I have to,' I replied.
'You have to? No one's forcing you to do this. It's your own choice, but please, make the right one. You can't do this.' She said again, more fiercely this time. 'Think about everything you leave behind.'
She was really starting to annoy me.
'Look, you don't understand, if I don't do this my parents will disinherit me, like Sirius, and I have nowhere else to go! Besides, what difference will I make? It can't be that bad,' I told her, but at the same time I was trying to convince myself.
I pulled my arm from her grip and stalked away.
'Regulus Arcturus Black, don't you dare leave, don't you dare becoming a death eater, don't do this to me! You're just sixteen...' she called after me.
I pretended not to hear her, not to show how much this really meant to me. How much she meant to me.
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I watched him walking away, and I knew everything was lost. I knew that, no matter what he said, it would never be the same again. I saw him disappear, and so did my façade. I fell to my knees, crying. Why? He could have chosen to ignore his parents, but for some reason, they were his whole life. Everything he did, it was only to please them. Why didn't I matter that much to him?
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As I walk onto the damp grass, I have no idea how I got her. I put on a mask, so they won't know what I really feel.
Everything is blurred, like in a dream. My head is completely empty as I walk to the most horrible person ever alive. He's bald, has got red eyes, and he lost his nose.
I don't feel fear when he lifts his wand arm, to mark me as one of his, forever. It's worse. I don't feel anything at all.
When he jabs his wand in my forearm, it hurts, but I feel numb, and I don't show any pain.
It's over faster than I thought it would be. I get back to school and walk in the corridor where I talked to Ivy.
It is then, and only then, that I realise the full impact of what I've done. The numbness goes away, only to be replaced by a pain that's worse than anything I've ever felt. But the pain in my forearm isn't half as bad as the pain in my heart.
Ivy hates me now, and so does Sirius. The only two persons in the world who ever cared about how I really was.
In a shock I realise my parents aren't included. I always wanted to please them, but it was never the other way around. I wasn't like a real son to them, I was a copy of themselves, a second chance, a way to do it better this time, to make up for their mistakes. They didn't love me. And I just wasted the only two persons in the world who did because of them.
I screwed it up, and the worst thing is, it is all my own fault. I fell, but there's no one left to help me back up, to help me out.
I lost them.
AN: That was a short story, please tell me what you think about it. Please leave a review, and tell me whether I should keep it a one shot, or that you'd like me to add another chapter ^^