A/N I do not own these characters S.M. does.

Time passes even while your in pain. They say time helps, that time can heal all wounds but it doesn't. It only creates the thoughts of what could have been. Time is the enemy.

I sat here looking at all the pictures, all the memories, all the pain. I couldn't forget it but deep down I didn't want to. If this pain is the reminder of love then ill take it. I will take it and be grateful.

Some days I just stare at his picture, I stare at our letters I stare at his tags. No matter what I do the last thought I have everyday is why him? What could have happened? I just don't know if this was what he was trying to tell me. I keep telling my self that he wasn't right that at we went through was worth it. But as I sit here the silent tears running down my face I cant argue anymore. The tears seem to never stop. You'd think they would have ran out by now, but the haven't. I know I should at least try to stop for my daughter. She's a spitting image of him. That scares me so much. I love her so much. She will never know her dad. She will never see the love he had for her or for me. All I can do now is pray. Pray that where every he is he is looking over us. Pray that he's okay. Pray that he knows we love him. All I can do is hope.

Jasper and I grew up together. I met him when I was six and he was eight. He was at first like my big brother. Our parents knew each other. So we always were together. He would push me on the swing. Share his PB and J with me. Everything was so innocent and sweet when we were little. When we got to middle school. He became my best friend. He would beat up anyone who messed with me. Who called me names or bumped me in the hallway. When we got to high school we faded. He was captain of the foot ball team and I was president of student council. He would smile at me in the hallway. I would ignore him. I mean he never tried to talk to me unless his buddies weren't around. Plus he had a rep with the females at school. When junior year hit. I was, well I matured. So did Jasper. I had grown to an actual braw size. I had curves and long hair. And a light brown/blond complexion. I even began to have style. Boys actually paid attention to me, Me Bella. Jasper he was a very fit muscular guy. He had nice brown hair. He looked as if he was sculptured. All the girls saw this too. I remember when we started talking again. I was in the hallway trying to get my locker open.

When a jock came up too me. "Bella, Right." I nodded trying to get my locker open still. "So, umm you want to go out sometime." He was a cute guy, but he gave me this creepy feeling. "No, I'm fine." I said getting my locker open finally. He slams my locker shut. "Look, I don't take no for an answer. Don't try to act like you're too good for me. I can nock you off your high horse sweetie." He was about to grab me when Chris came out of no where. "Hay Dave ill see you later." He said very harshly. Dave looked at him and looked at me. He walked away making a big commotion. I opened my locker back up completely ignoring him. When I started to head to class I felt his large hands lightly on my wrists. I turned to look into his gray eyes. "Bella, I can't get a thank you. Or a hi." I looked at him he was really cute. I couldn't believe I just thought that about him. "Nope." I said waiting for him to leave me alone. "Look, my mom and dad are having there anaversy party this weekend. The wanted you to come. They miss you. I miss you too." I looked at him then at his hand that was on my wrists still. I felt something when he toughed me. He took his hand off me seeing how I was looking at it. "So will you come?" I looked back at him then I looked down. "Maybe." I walked off to class after that.

The weekend came quick and I was in my closet. I didn't know what to wear. Jasper's mom Amber loved me and his dad Jasper senor did too. But I still didn't know. I wanted to look good but not trashy. I ended up in my white halter long top. And a pair of blue jeans shorts and my silver gladiator sandals. I but my hair up in a high pony tail and went to get in my car. I looked to make sure I had the painting I painted for Amber and Jasper anaversy. I could always draw and paint. So I had painted a picture of the beach at sunset time and two figures close to the shore. It was a beautiful painting that took me all week to finish. I had put it in a huge gift bag and with a card expressing how I was happy for them. I hadn't seen them in over a year. And it was kind of weird showing up out of the blue. But as I went around back to there back yard I was over whelmed. I was happy to see my childhood second parents. I was happy. I hadn't been this happy since I found out my mom was moving on. My father had died in the army. I never really knew him but I remember little things. Like him playing with me as a child. But my mother had recently moved on. So I was happy that she was finally able to move on. The first person I saw was miss amber. She was beautiful. She was wearing a long yellow dress that fit her like a glove but wasn't too tight. She spotted me the same time I saw her talking to a lot of other people. She blinked like she couldn't believe it. She smiled and I saw tears in her eyes. She laughed and ran over to me and hugged me. I hugged her back using the same about of strength. She giggled. I looked at her she was always like my second mom and one of my best friends. "I can't even. . . You look so big. . . And pretty." I smiled at her words. "I missed you so much miss amber." She smiled at me. "I know, you to baby girl. Come on lets show Jasper you're here." she started to walk in the direction of Jasper senor. He was laughing with a bunch of men when he looked up and gazed at us. She smiled bigger. "Bella, thanks for coming I didn't know if you would make it." He said hugging me just as tight as amber did. I laughed again. "I had to come see you guys.

We laughed and caught up. It was a good day. And even though I still love jasper so much, I can see myself falling for Edward. I didn't plan it I never thought I would. My name is Isabella Swan, I go by Bella. My boyfriend and the father of my child went missing after his base got attacked in the army. All of his partners were found dead besides him and one other, they are presumed dead. That was years ago. Now I Isabella think I am falling in love with his best friend. Edward Cullen.

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