Who's Gonna Save Us

Prologue

Summary: When Kensi believes there is nothing left between her and Deeks, her life start to lose control. Can Deeks fix things and save Kensi before she does something she'll forever regret?

Characters: Kensi Blye, Marty Deeks, G Callen, Sam Hanna, Eric Beale, Nell Jones, Hetty Lange,

Disclaimer: I do not own NCISLA or its characters.

Rating: Not sure. Mild language, nothing to bad.

Chapter One - "Innocence"

She sat there on the floor leaning up again her bed, trying so hard to pull herself together. She wanted so badly to turn back the clock, redo the things she should have done the first time. She didn't know how she could be so stupid. This wasn't how it was supposed to go. Things weren't supposed to be like this. She closed her eyes trying to remember how things got so screwed up. He was gone and avoiding her and now here she was. All she really wanted to do was forget it, forget him and move on and some how it wasn't going to be that easy. She then heard a knock on her door. She got up from the floor, looked in the mirror and wiped away the tears. She made sure she looked like she hadn't been crying, before walking out of the bedroom. Whoever it was she wasn't about to let them know she was upset or crying. Once she got to the door she took one more deep breath, before opening it to find Callen on the other side.

"Hi," Callen said.

"What do you want Callen?" she asked him. She turned away from the door. Callen walked in and closed the door behind him.

"I'm worried about you Kensi," Callen said to her.

"I'm fine," Kensi said. "I don't know what you really have to worry about."

"You," Callen said to her. "I'm worried about you."

"You can stop worrying," Kensi said to him. "I didn't need you saving me."

"Are you sure about that one?" Callen asked. "We all understand you are hurting, but doing this isn't going to help it. We are here for you Kensi, we aren't going anywhere."

"Well right now I want you to leave," Kensi said.

"Why are you punishing us for what Deeks did?" Callen asked.

"Is that what you think this is?" Kensi asked him. "You think I am punishing you? Do you have any idea how much it hurts to know Deeks is gone, that he won't even take my calls. That he… how much it hurts to love someone and have them just walk away?" Kensi said trying not to let her emotions get the better of her. "Am I that …"

"Kensi," Callen said as he walked over to her but before he could do or say another word, there was a knock on the door. Kensi walked over and opened the door and there stood Deeks.

"Deeks" she said, not really sure what else to say.

"Hi Kensi" Deeks said. He looked up to see Callen standing in the back of the room.

"What are you doing here?" Kensi asked him. She was glad Callen hadn't started yelling at him.

"I was hoping we could talk," Deeks said. "Alone."

"Come in." Kensi said, moving so he could come in. She then turned to Callen. "I'm fine Callen."

"Are you sure?" Callen asked.

"Yeah, I'll see you tomorrow," Kensi said.

"See you tomorrow," Callen said before leaving, closing the door on his way out.

"So what did you want to talk about?" Kensi asked him.

"I wanted to apologize for the way I have been acting" Deeks said to her. "Before you say anything, I've been a complete jer… asshole. You didn't deserve any of that and I'm sorry."

"It's a little late for an apology isn't it," Kensi said to him bitterly.

"I deserve that," Deeks said. "I just wanted you to know how sorry I was... I am. I have done nothing but hurt you, when all you have tried to do was help me. I guess I felt like if I pushed everything away it would make it okay. In truth it made everything worse." Deeks explained to her. "The thing is that… It was you that kept me going. Getting back to you was all I thought about. I didn't want to think about not being about to hear your laugh, or see you smile or even make those silly jokes. After I was released from the hospital I didn't feel like the same person I was and I didn't want you to see that person. I didn't feel I was worthy… maybe not the right words, but I didn't think … I didn't want things to change. I wanted you to remember that person I used to be."

"So you ran away?" Kensi asked him. The tears where starting to form in her again.

"I wanted to hide from it all," Deeks said. "Yet every time I closed my eyes I was back there, it was just a lot for me to deal with. I didn't want to burden you with that, or to know any of that. I thought it be better if you were at arms length. I was wrong."

"You were," Kensi said to him. "I don't need protecting. I don't need you to tell me what's best for me. I just need to know you were still there. That I wasn't going to lose you, but you left."

"I hurt you I know that," Deeks said.

"No you didn't," Kensi said. "What you did was far worse."

"I'm sorry Kensi, I know it's not enough," Deeks said. "I want you to know how sorry I am."

"Now I know," Kensi said. "But it doesn't mean we are okay, we are not okay."

"I guess I shouldn't ask if it be okay if I came back to work," Deeks said.

"I thought you asked to go back to LAPD?" Kensi questioned him.

"I did actually, but Hetty refused to let me go. She told me to take the time and if I still wanted to go she'd let me go," Deeks said. "I don't want to go, but I will if you don't want me there."

"I don't" Kensi said.

"I guess that's it then," Deeks said and then turned to leave.

"Deeks wait," Kensi said. Deeks stopped and turned to face her. "I don't want you back, but you shouldn't leave."

"How can we work as partners?" Deeks asked her.

"We'll figure it out," Kensi said. "We always do."

"We do" Deeks said in agreement. "I guess I'll see you tomorrow."

"That you will" Kensi said. Kensi then walked Deeks leave. Once he was gone she once again broke down in tears. She honestly didn't know how she was going to do this. Between where she was now and Deeks back in her life, things were bound to collide. It was only a matter of when.

AN: This one has a different storyline, but still takes place after the season five opener.