Sorry for the wall text. I was sick today, so I decided to write/post the next today. Enjoy!

'1:30. 30 minutes until I have to wake him.' I look over at his sleeping form.

"[whispers] Whenever I'm with you, I feel like nothing else exist, but us. Ever since you come into my life, I've grown into a better person, thanks to you. When we first fused into Smoky Quartz, I knew that the key to my true strength, to my true self, was you. Without you, Steven, I would never be what I am now. You're my drive. Your personality is the bright light that shows me that there is hope. Oh, if you knew what you, believe are just simple acts of kindness, do to me. Even a small word of Praise or encouragement can send my heart racing. A hug from you, and I have to tell myself it's plutonic to calm down. *nervous chuckles* I nearly fainted when you asked me to sleep with you. However, you were being big-brotherly. *chuckle* I remember that little, cute, ball of energy that you used to be. The kid who always needed someone looking over his shoulder. But look at you now. You're the new leader of the Crystal Gems. You've become a thousand times stronger then what Garnet I can produce. I'm jealous, really I am. You gained so much power. More than I can imagine. You're like a god." I look up over at his sleeping face.

"heh. I guess even gods need to sleep. At least, mine does."

I feel a hand run down my back. I look over my shoulder, to see it was him. I focus on him again, and notice his hand, laying on the pillow I am "sleeping" on. I begin to reach for it.'Do I dare? Don't over think this, Amethyst.It is just you holding his hand. Get your balls up, just do it.'

I, gently, take his left hand place a kiss on top of it.

"[whispers] I'll pledge my allegence to you. I'll do anything you say, if it means you'll still be with you. You're so pure hearted. You'll give anyone the chance to be saved, no matter what they have done. You're the most virtuous soul I have met.You are always protecting me, even if I don't realise it. All I have to do is ask you'll give me strength, or anything else I want. You're the embodiment, if not, Christ himself. *heavy sigh*"

He suddenly pulls me closer to his chest. I take in his scent; a mixture of Axe Gold sweat. I wrap my arms, tightly, around him, as I try to compose myself.

"*sniffles* But that's why I can't tell you how I feel. A disciple should love her god, not be in love with him."

He nuzzles his cheek against mine, He then whispers in my ear; " I love you my [non-understandable mumbling]."

I feel my face heat up, as my anxiety goes hay-wire.

'AAAAAAAAAAHHH! Holy mother of diamond, did he just say what I think he said?! Who is he even dreaming about? Cant e Garnet or Pearl. Peridot? Maybe. Lapis? Well, she does obsess over him. Connie. *defeated sigh* That's the most likely scenario. I mean, they're fusion is based off they're love for each other Ours is based off our drive to become stronger. Heh, I'm a fool for even thinking I'm on his radar. I'm not as smart as Peridot, or as strong as Lapis, or as loyal to the team as Connie. I'm just...Amethyst.'

"Oh, God, why do you torture me like this?!"

I look over at the clock. '1:57. Only more minutes with Steven. I can't fall asleep now. I have to him to wake up at 2'oclock. Hmmnm, maybe I could fall asleep. I would be able to be near him for a while longer.'

"Forgive me, Lord. I'm being selfish."

I drift off to sleep.