I didn't want to come in, but I knew I had to. I had been standing in front of the door for a while now. I brought my knuckles to the door to knock, but hesitated. Okay screw this. I opened the door and went in without giving any warning. I stood still in the middle of the room, not expecting what I was about to see. 'Karma?' Amy said while sitting on her bed, interrupting her conversation with Raegan. 'Oh, I'm sorry. I-I had no idea Raegan would be here. I'll leave you two alone.' I said and turned towards the door, trying to hide my pain. But Amy could hear the pain in my voice. 'Don't be ridiculous Karma. Come here', Amy said while giving Raegan a long look. Raegan got the hint and said 'Yeah, I was about to leave anyway. Got to go to work pretty early tomorrow.' She kissed Amy goodbye and went out through the window. I was still turned towards the door. I knew I couldn't go back now. 'Karma, come here'. Amy said. I wanted to, but I couldn't. I just couldn't move. Amy stood up and walked towards me. 'You know it would be much easier to have a conversation with you when I can actually see your face', Amy tried again, but failed like before. She was standing behind me and I could feel getting her closer which made me nervous.
I couldn't help but cry. Amy was still standing behind me. At that moment I felt her grab my hand. It scared me, but at the same time I didn't want her to let go. Slowly she walked around me so she could see my face. But my face was nothing more than a sad and painful expression. I could see she was shocked seeing my like this. She wrapped her arms around me and held me for a while. She knew this was what I needed right now. We didn't speak for a few minutes. Even if I wanted to, I couldn't say one single word because of my sobbing. After a while I felt myself calm down. Amy looked at me again and put her hands on my cheeks. 'Karma will you please just tell me what happened?' she said out of desperation. 'No more secrets between us, remember?' I felt my tears coming up again. Amy noticed that and grabbed my hand so I would follow her to her bed. I sat down while she walked to the bathroom to get me a tissue. 'Thanks' was the only thing that came out of my mouth.
Amy was trying so hard to make me speak to her. I know she would do anything for me. But why was it so hard to tell her? I guess I just didn't want to hurt her anymore. 'Karma, talk to me. Is it your parents?' I shook my head. 'Is it Liam?' I shook my head even harder. 'Is it…' 'It's YOU.' I interrupted her. I scared myself while saying that. I never thought it would come out that easily. Amy frowned, not knowing what I was talking about. 'Did I do something wrong? Because I'm sure I didn't do it on purpose.' Amy said. I looked at her. Normally I would have smiled, but right now I just felt too much pain. 'It's not really something you did. I just wish it would've happened before.' Again Amy frowned.
I took a deep breath and after a long pause I finally said it. 'I love you'. I looked deep in her eyes while saying it. 'I love you too', Amy said. I felt my stomach twitch. 'No, Amy. I mean, I'm in love with you.' Amy kept staring at me, not saying anything. The silence was deafening my ears. 'I-I'm sorry.' I finally cried. 'I know you and Raegan are together and I will never get between the two of…' 'Since when?' Amy interrupted. I gazed at her, knowing perfectly how to answer that. 'I've always been in love with you. I think I've just been too blind to see it. The moment I thought I would lose you, I realized you mean so much more to me than I could ever think. My feelings are much more complicated than I ever thought they would be. Every time I look at you, my stomach gets these butterflies and…' 'Karma stop.' I could tell Amy was in pain. It felt like my heart would jump out of my chest any moment now. 'How could you?' Amy whispered, looking at the floor. I felt my tears coming back now. 'Amy I'm so sorr…
'How could you have me waiting so long?' she said, looking at me. I was looking at her too now, not knowing what to say. She moved closer to me and smiled. 'Why didn't you tell me earlier?' Amy asked. 'Oh, well, I don't know. Maybe because you told me that you're not in love with me anymore. And of course I don't want to hurt you anymore than I already did. And then there's Raegan who turns out…' Amy interrupted me by pressing her lips against mine. I felt the butterflies in my stomach again. She had never kissed me like this before. It felt real and alive. I put my hands on her cheeks and pulled her further against my body. Then we stopped for a while. Amy looked me deep in the eyes. God, she was beautiful. 'I've never stopped loving you', Amy said. But all I could say was 'Woah'. Amy laughed 'Shut up'. She put her arms around me and started kissing me again as we crawled back into bed. She made me feel safe. She made me feel special. And her kisses felt just like home.