Poetry is not usually my cup of tea, but hey, my muse decided to have me write some and who am I to disobey her?
Please let me know whether or not to try again ;)
If Only
I don't know how to love you
How I should hold you
We've been friends for so long
And I don't know where we've gone wrong
All I know is that
Things have changed between us
The comfortable friendship has turned deadly
And I can't continue,
even though I want to so badly
I need your arms around me,
Holding me where I should be
With you,
With you in my mind
With you in my soul
With you in my life
For now and forever.
Only you're not ready
And I'm beginning to doubt you'll ever be.
You have no idea for the longing I feel,
For the dreams I have, night after night
How badly I wish things would become right
If only you knew,
If only you could see how badly I want us to heal
Together as one.
Why can't you see?
Why can't I hold you like I should?
Why won't you love me
Like I love you?
If only we could be together
If only the hurting would stop
And the barriers could be dropped
I know what I said so long ago
And what that decision cost us,
But I'm telling you now,
From the bottom of my heart
That I will vow
Today and tomorrow
And the day thereafter
Through tears and through laughter
That my heart, my soul,
That my very being belongs to you.
Today, tomorrow, broken and whole.
If only you felt it too.