Title: All That I've Ever Known
Rating: Pg-13 for now
Feedback: hell yes! Either on the kitten or to laura_isaac@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: All characters in this story belong to Joss, I just play with them for a bit. The lyrics at the beginning however are all mine
Distribution: Anyone who wants it but let me know so my ego can be massaged!
Spoilers: S6 but not so much ep specific.
Summary: A letter from Willow - but will it help bring our girls back together?
Dedication: To Alice, you are my life - love always
Coz you're all that I see,
You're all that I breathe,
You're all that I need,
And everything I've ever known...
Tara,
I'm trying and failing miserably to live my life on my own and I just can't do it anymore. I need you more and more each day and its hurting me more than I can bare. I'm truly nothing without you by my side, in my life, surrounding me, making me whole. I know I don't deserve you, I'm not asking you to forget everything that I've done to you, I'm just asking for one last chance. The pain inside as I write is clawing, trying to get out, the only things thats keeping me sane is thoughts of you. I've tried to make sense of everything that I've done but how can I possibly make sense of something I didn't understand in the first place? I'd like to say I was a victim in all of this but I cannot make excuses for what I've done anymore.
You are my life Tara, my better self. We've been through so much together and have still come out stronger on the other, although I know this time I've really screwed up. You have to believe me when I say I'm sorry. I'd got through hell, I'd go to the very ends of the Earth, I'd do ANYTHING you asked Tara if it meant I could gain one iota of what I've taken from you.
From the moment I saw you I knew then that there would never be another for me, I would never want anyone else the way I wanted you, the way I still want you. You are all that I see Tara, all that I breathe, all that I need and so much more. The only thing that I've been sure of in my pathetic excuse of a life was you - us and I'd do anything in my power if you would only believe we still have a chance together.
I'm so confused Tara, I don't know why I went to him in the first place, I had all I ever wanted in you. For years I have been nobody, always in Buffy's shadow, just another one of the Scoobies. But I was stupid enough to throw everything that we've accomplished as lovers away in a single second - and for what?
I need you Tara, oh Goddess I really do! My life is empty without you, the magic withdrawals get worse with every passing hour and I'm not sure I want to fight them anymore without you. Please at least give me the chance to restore your faith in me - in us again even if we can never recapture what we once had...
Yours forever and always...
Willow
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Tara stared at the crumpled piece of paper in her hands for what seemed like ages, and was unaware and unable to stop a single tear falling down upon the paper, causing the ink upon there to run. What should she do? She felt Willow's pain and confusion because it was coursing through her very being also, their connection stronger than ever. She needed Willow more than life itself, but she was not going to just let her walk back into her life as if nothing had ever happened - she couldn't and wouldn't let herself do that - even though her whole being was telling her otherwise. This was going to take time - she could not forgive Willow that easily, but there was still a glimmer if hope in her heart that Willow could change...
Rating: Pg-13 for now
Feedback: hell yes! Either on the kitten or to laura_isaac@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: All characters in this story belong to Joss, I just play with them for a bit. The lyrics at the beginning however are all mine
Distribution: Anyone who wants it but let me know so my ego can be massaged!
Spoilers: S6 but not so much ep specific.
Summary: A letter from Willow - but will it help bring our girls back together?
Dedication: To Alice, you are my life - love always
Coz you're all that I see,
You're all that I breathe,
You're all that I need,
And everything I've ever known...
Tara,
I'm trying and failing miserably to live my life on my own and I just can't do it anymore. I need you more and more each day and its hurting me more than I can bare. I'm truly nothing without you by my side, in my life, surrounding me, making me whole. I know I don't deserve you, I'm not asking you to forget everything that I've done to you, I'm just asking for one last chance. The pain inside as I write is clawing, trying to get out, the only things thats keeping me sane is thoughts of you. I've tried to make sense of everything that I've done but how can I possibly make sense of something I didn't understand in the first place? I'd like to say I was a victim in all of this but I cannot make excuses for what I've done anymore.
You are my life Tara, my better self. We've been through so much together and have still come out stronger on the other, although I know this time I've really screwed up. You have to believe me when I say I'm sorry. I'd got through hell, I'd go to the very ends of the Earth, I'd do ANYTHING you asked Tara if it meant I could gain one iota of what I've taken from you.
From the moment I saw you I knew then that there would never be another for me, I would never want anyone else the way I wanted you, the way I still want you. You are all that I see Tara, all that I breathe, all that I need and so much more. The only thing that I've been sure of in my pathetic excuse of a life was you - us and I'd do anything in my power if you would only believe we still have a chance together.
I'm so confused Tara, I don't know why I went to him in the first place, I had all I ever wanted in you. For years I have been nobody, always in Buffy's shadow, just another one of the Scoobies. But I was stupid enough to throw everything that we've accomplished as lovers away in a single second - and for what?
I need you Tara, oh Goddess I really do! My life is empty without you, the magic withdrawals get worse with every passing hour and I'm not sure I want to fight them anymore without you. Please at least give me the chance to restore your faith in me - in us again even if we can never recapture what we once had...
Yours forever and always...
Willow
____________________________________________________
Tara stared at the crumpled piece of paper in her hands for what seemed like ages, and was unaware and unable to stop a single tear falling down upon the paper, causing the ink upon there to run. What should she do? She felt Willow's pain and confusion because it was coursing through her very being also, their connection stronger than ever. She needed Willow more than life itself, but she was not going to just let her walk back into her life as if nothing had ever happened - she couldn't and wouldn't let herself do that - even though her whole being was telling her otherwise. This was going to take time - she could not forgive Willow that easily, but there was still a glimmer if hope in her heart that Willow could change...