Revan's Tears
PG13 or T if I decide to change it.
Pardon the grammatical errors since I have Carpel Tunnel and am wearing a wrist brace to stop the pain.

Disclaimers: I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR THE PLOT AND MY CLOTHES!!!! X3 And my fantasies about Canderous ;

Hurt © Christina Agulara
Yes I know you couldn't return to Dantooine after the Leviathan, but this is my plot and I want Revan to return to Dantooine for some soul searching

Pairing/s : LSF Revan/Carth in the beginning, Canderous/LSF Revan in the other chapters

Revan's Tears

Sera Chan sat up in a tree in the Ancient Grove in Dantooine, wiping away stray tears from her eyes. It was she who was the infamous Dark Lord, she was Darth Revan, Carth blamed her for his wife's loss, the bombing of Telos and he possibly held her in contempt for his son being in the Sith academy on Korriban.

Seems like it was yesterday

When I saw your face

You told me how proud you were,

But I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

Ooh, ooh

Carth's warm chocolate eyes burned with a obvious hatred for her, the woman that she never knew she was. But he didn't care, he saw her as Revan. Not Sera Chan, but Revan. If they were alone on the Ebon Hawk, he would have murdered her for sure. Mission stared in disbelief at her with tears in her eyes beginning to trickle down her blue cheeks.

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I wanna call you

But I know you won't be there

Oh how she wanted to hold Mission and cry with her…. But the glare she received from Carth after she took a step forward to hold the poor Twi'lek girl, she backed down and had to painfully watch her cry.

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Zaalbar just glanced at her every once in a while… Sera Chan glanced around to see Juhani shaking her head in sadness and disbelief. Canderous stood there with a look of displacement and disbelief, Sera Chan knew what he was thinking 'This short woman is the woman who defeated Mandalore?! THIS IS REVAN?!!?!?!?!"

Some days I feel broke inside

But I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide

'Cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

When it comes to this, ooh

She turned to and ran down the plank down into the plains of Dantooine. She ran past the kath hounds and straight into the Ancient grove, there were so many dead on Dantooine because of her…. Because of Malak's relentless chase to find her and Bastila. Now that Malak had Bastila, There was no hope….

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

Sera Chan gazed out at the sun setting on the freshly razed planet and she sobbed. Her memories of her first kiss, her first success at being a rookie scout on Onderon. Even the name Sera Chan was a hoax… She was living a lie. She was the reformed Revan, JedI Guardian, Former Sith Lord. Boy what a resume she had. She felt unbridled hatred and rage towards the council and Bastila. She wanted to be the woman that she was told that she was…….. But she couldn't live that lie any more… She was Revan.

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes

And see you looking back

The hurt and betrayal that was in Carth's eyes made her soul shatter, It wasn't like she asked to be this way! She wanted to be Sera Chan again more than anything in the Republic. To have the respect and trust that her friends had in her, but it was long gone after they learned who she really was.

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself, oh

Watching the native birds call to their mates, Sera Chan, now Revan felt a cold pit in her stomach. If she went back, either Canderous or Carth would murder her. She understood why both wanted her dead, but in her heart… She wanted them to kill her, so that she would have their mercy again….

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

Ooh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

Her soul was shattered and she lowered her head, mentally hearing Carth's shouts in her head; 'YOU'RE REVAN!!!?'

'you are nothing but a backstabbing Nal-Hutta joy girl!'

'YOU KILLED MY WIFE!!!! AND DESTROYED MY PLANET!!!'

'I knew there was a reason THEY sent YOU without a Master!!!'

She buried her head into her arms and wept. The only thing she remembered about being Revan was the location of the Star Maps and a few flashes of her fighting Bastila. That was all! Before she could state her side of the story to Carth, he jumped her about it and accused her of things she could not recall.

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself..

By hurting you

She looked at the small dagger that was attached to her boot that was given to her by Canderous, and she curled her hands into tight fists. And she stared up at the sky and made an audible vow to herself, "I will NOT become the monster I once was…. I will redeem myself…. Once again…. For I am not the Lie called Sera Chan…. I am Revan…."