Title: Who needs love?
Disclaimer: I do not own teen titans or raven just boring them for a while.
"love does not exist" I whispered to my over enthusiastic psychologist. " not in my world, nothing so pure as for me to care deeply for another, where I depend on said person. Nor do I think that I shall ever feel this profound feelings many people talk about. I am content with what I do feel even if you can barely count them as emotions.
I see lust in the eyes of men and women alike, I see contempt, anger, fear and the few so fortunate or damned enough to feel it I see love in their eyes. They carry that god forsaken feeling with them, I pity them. Now do not get me wrong I am not some crusader or even so void of emotion to feel nothing.
I care for my family and share a bond of fondness with them but that's all it is fondness. I care for my friends. I know how to appreciate the beauty of nature, of mankind, of humanity and the unknown." I take a long breath to calm myself down from the passionate rant before I continue.
" I feel lust, anger, desire, happiness, I feel vulnerable and strong, I feel safety and finally I feel fear. So I am not the cold hearted ice queen you all think me to be. Though I do not feel love, I do fear it.
I fear how it may shatter the walls that hold me together, that I had spent years building and the darkness I hold within me. I see how they pine for a lost lover or how they feel incomplete. To me that is a weakness I hope to never know.
A love they can not attain or a friendship broken over that love. Yes I care and yes I feel but I hope to never come across this dreadfully plaguing happiness that terrifies me to no end." I finished slightly breathless trying to convince myself just as much as I was trying to convince her.