Hey! so, this is a case of 'woah i did not like that thing that happened so i'm going to write fanfic of an alternative'. The rating will change if I get that far into the story. This chapter is short, but it's kind of more of an introduction. I'm terrible for carrying on fanfics, so encourage me, mkay?;3
"Please, just kill me, Shinji-kun," Eva 01's grasp constricted Kaworu's lean body. Yet Kaworu looked straight to Shinji with pleading eyes, and a painful ghost of a tilted smile still lingered upon his lips. Behind the actions of Eva 01's squeezing fist, Shinji cried.
He couldn't be the last Angel.
He just couldn't be.
"I'm afraid that if you don't kill me, everyone – including yourself, will perish instead," Kaworu took a weak breath and added, "and I don't want that."
"Kaworu," Shinji sobbed. About twenty seconds passed as he attempted to breathe through his choking. "You betrayed me," Shinji growled. "You betrayed me just like my father!" His voice was wild and upset. Kaworu's throat clenched. I'm sorry Shinji. I promise I would never… I never chose to be an Angel. But he couldn't say it.
But yet, Shinji still took no action in killing him. The palm which restricted Kaworu's being trembled a little.
"Why won't you do it?" Kaworu asked sadly.
"Because… I- You… You're the only one who.. I… You betrayed m-…"
"Then why, Shinji?"
"Because I love you!"
Kaworu's face softened, Shinji's choked sobs continued within the silence.
Silence and sobs.
More silence and sobs.
"Then allow me to be selfish," Kaworu suddenly offered. "If you will not kill me, then love me instead."
A few moment of silence as Shinji calmed his tears.
"R-really?" Shinji breathed.
"That is my only condition," Kaworu said calmly.
"I already do, Kaworu-kun, so please…"
"Okay," Kaworu affirmed. Shinji lowered Kaworu to the floor as gently as he could, but Kaworu's legs did not hold himself standing. He collapsed limply to the floor, any hint of his evangelical qualities dissipating. He was just an injured boy. Along with Kaworu's unconsciousness, NERV could again contact Shinji's Eva.
"Shinji-kun?! What's happening?! Did you defeat the last angel?"
No. Yes. Maybe.
But Shinji's thoughts were elsewhere. Had he suffocated Kaworu? He was frozen in his pod, startled at the Angel's unconscious body.
"Shinji-kun! Report the situation!"
Was that even possible?
"Get someone in here," Shinji replied. "Kaworu-kun requires medical attention," he announced.
"But Shinji?! Kaworu's-…"
"Just do it! Please! Quickly!"
He heard some conference in the background.
"Okay, Shinji-kun. Return to base, yeah?"
Shinji sighed, "Okay."
Do Angels even have feelings? Looking at Kaworu, Shinji couldn't even begin to fathom otherwise.
His head hurt.