Avon was lying on the bed in his cabin, staring at the ceiling. He was having trouble sleeping, he always did. It was the reason why he volunteered to keep watch on the flight deck the most, he always did it until he physically could not do it anymore. It had gotten slightly better after Blake and Jenna left, he no longer had to put up with Blake's stupidity and Jenna's mistrust. But it got worse after he learned the truth about Anna. About how their relationship was a lie, about how she had used him to play the fool and about the fact that he had spent years beating him-self up over Anna's death and swearing to avenge her, had all been for nothing.
But that wasn't why Avon couldn't sleep tonight. While the usual reasons were still there: worries, uncertainties and regrets, they weren't the main reasons tonight. The main reason was because of what happens earlier that day. Earlier that day, He had kissed the alien which had tried to possess Cally. Avon had used the kiss as a distraction to grab the ring on the alien's finger and destroying it, causing the alien to disintegrate and die. Later, once everyone had recovered, he and Cally had shared a significant look. This had caused Avon to think about relationships.
Avon had spent most of his life avoiding relationships because they usually ended in tragedy. Anna had been the perfect example, faking her love for him, faking her death and it all ending with him killing her, after years of believing she was dead and swearing to avenge her. After that, Avon wanted to die because he didn't see the point of living without Anna. It wasn't until he was accidentally saved by Serverlan that he now realized that since Anna was dead, he could move on.
That moved the matter over to Cally. Avon knew that Cally loved him and would die for him. He once told Cally that he acted like he had never cared for anyone because if people knew he cared for them, they could manipulate or betray him. Avon's years with Blake had remined him why he acted like that. And Cally had understood his views of caring and had never used that knowledge to betray or manipulate him.
Cally was one of the few people on the Liberator that Avon liked. She wasn't stupid like Blake, she wasn't distrustful like Jenna, she wasn't boring like Gan, she wasn't a bully like Tarrent and she didn't have a desire to kill like Dayna. Villa was the only other person Avon liked, because he was more unfortunate then annoying.
Avon got up and went over to the window and looked at the passing stars. He thought back to when he was kissing the alien. For a brief moment, he had felt Cally. The lips he kissed, were no longer the alien he didn't know. In that instant, he knew that she would risk everything for him; that she was risking everything. Action beyond words.
But then Avon asked himself: Was I imagining it? There was only 1 way to find out. So Avon turned around and exited his cabin before heading to Cally's. He had to know the answer.