Chapter 1

"David. Are you awake?" Erica asked. It was almost 2am and she and David were in bed, him behind her, arm around her they were supposedly asleep. Well at least he was. "David?" She asked, louder this time.

"I am now. What is it Erica?" He asked, still half asleep.

"I know we've only been married a few months, but I was thinking."

"Can't this wait until morning? It's late." He asked burying his head further into her neck.

"I guess it can wait." She said, getting that she probably just woke him up and she should let him sleep. He did have surgery in less than 8 hours.

She was silent for a little while hoping he hadn't fallen asleep again. She wanted to sleep but her head had other ideas.

"David?"

"What Erica?" he replied a little angry that he was just about asleep again.

"I tried sleeping but I just keep thinking about something." She said hoping he would just give in and listen to her.

Realizing she wasn't going to let this go he gave up on sleep and decided to hear her out and hope it would be something quick. He rolled on his back and she rolled over facing him.

"Im sorry to keep you up but I just need to share this. It's been on my mind for the last couple days."

"Its okay, tell me what's going on. What are you thinking about?" he told her not exactly thrilled they were having a conversation at 2am but she was his wife and this was his job as her husband. And really he didn't mind listening but he rather it was at a decent hour.

"I know neither of us are exactly young or have a lot of spare times. We both have high powered jobs and like I said we've only been married a few months. Not to mention our relationship up until this point hasn't been without it's problems."

"Okay Erica what's going on? You aren't thinking about gettig a divorce are you? I thought we were in a good place..."

"Oh David, no." She quickly answered and put her hands on his face to calm him down, reassure him.

"Sorry, I just thought, the way you were talking. It scared me." He explained, relieved she put his fears at ease.

"Its nothing like that. In fact it's the opposite. I was thinking maybe we could start a family."

"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" He asked, not sure if he heard her right. She was quiet, almost embarassed to say it so he answered for her. "You want to have a baby?"

"I mean, well if you want to?" She fumbled with the words.

"Can I ask what got you thinking about having a baby, and now of all times?"

"I don't really know. There's Colby. I've seen her and she's beautiful. She reminds me of when Bianca was a baby. And then I thought about how much I missed out on with Bianca."

"And you think now is the right time for another child?"

"Why not? It won't be too much longer before it won't even be an option. And I never had an opportunity to raise a son."

"I can see you're really excited about this. I mean you told me you couldn't sleep, that it was keeping you up. But do you really think bringing a child into the world is a good idea right now?"

"Oh David, I thought you might want this too. I didn't even take your feelings into consideration. I'm sorry. I don't want to force you into something you aren't ready for."

"I just don't know if I'd be good daddy material. Look at all the things we went through to get to this point. I just don't want to see a child go through anything like that."

"I'm sorry David. I never should have asked."

"No, no I love that you want to have my baby. I really love that you'd be willing to give me such an amazing gift. But I don't know if I'm ready. Why don't we talk about this later. Preferably after some sleep." He confessed, giving her quick pecks on her forehead.

"Okay." She smiled. "I'll give you some time to think about it. Then we can discuss it a little more. Thank you for being honest. I wouldn't want you to appease me by telling me yes, when you aren't at all sure. This is a huge step and I want you to be sure."

"I'm sorry I couldn't give you an answer, or at least the answer you wanted."

"Don't worry about. I still love you." She said, smiling.

"Thanks." He said kissing her and then she turned around, to how they were before their conversation and they both drifted off to sleep.