What I'm Really Saying
By
Scoutfan22
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Disclaimer: I don't own LOTR. Tolkien Enterprises and all that jazz do, not me.
Summary: She wanted to tell him so badly, wanted to scream it out for him to hear that she needed him, wanted him… loved him.
Pairing: Eowyn/Aragorn
Rating: K+13
Author's Notes: Now before anyone says anything, I am a HUGE Eowyn/Faramir fan. But, this stems from me watching the scene where Aragorn is leaving for the Paths of The Dead and Eowyn comes up to him. I knew he would say no, I knew she would end up with Faramir, but I almost scream every time, "Say yes, you idiot!" so here it is, what I think Eowyn was trying to say, and what she wanted to say. I believe that even though she loved the idea of being with him, to be by his side in honor and glory, she really did love him too. She mourns him because he was her first love. However, she truly does find her soul-mate in Faramir.
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He's leaving! Where's he going? He can't do this!
"Why are you doing this? The war lies to the east, you cannot leave on the eave of battle!" Why? Why are you going away? Why can't you stay? Why can't I go with you?
"You cannot abandon the men." You cannot abandon me. Please don't go; I need you.
"We need you here." I need you here. If you leave, I'll never have the courage to tell you…
"Why have you come?" he asks.
I'm shaking. Dear Orome, I'm shaking like a little girl! I have to tell him or I'll never forgive myself…
"Do you not know?" I love you, Aragorn. Please don't leave me. I've wanted to tell you for so long. I've tried to so many times. Every look, every touch every smile, that was for you. Please don't go.
He looks at me slowly, and I can see the rejection coming. Oh no…
"It is but a shadow and a thought that you love." He says.
You lie! I love you! I want you! Please, for the love of Orome, don't tell me that! It's you I've longed for in the nights so dark and lonely! It's you I love!
"I cannot give you what you seek."
Yes you can! Please don't do this to me!
He looks at me, and I can see it in his eyes. He cups my cheeks in his rough hands, and even though my heart is breaking, a shudder of desire goes through me. "I have wished you nothing but joy since I first laid eyes on you." Then why are you causing me so much pain?
I back away slowly, the tears threatening to spill from my eyes. I can't cry in front of him, I can't…
He looks at me sadly for moments longer, then turns and leads the horse away. He's gone…
I stand and watch him go. He's walking out of my life forever…
A soundless sob escapes my lips, and I turn and run to my tent. I throw myself onto the sleeping furs and begin to cry, loud heaving sobs. Why? Why? Why me?
So many nights after I first saw him, I've imagined his lips upon mine, him holding me close and whispering tender words, his rough and beautiful hands caressing my skin…
But no more. All my dreams have been shattered.
So I will ride to battle. Perhaps I will find the peace I long for in death…
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10/14/2005 11:20 AM Hope ya like it!