Fall Asleep On Your Deathbed

A/N: So I deleted my other story 'The Amazing Spider-man' mostly because I felt like I was NEVER going to update that. So...I decided to make a new one. I'm still working on my other one called 'I Am Number Four' but I always like working on two stories. If I feel like writing a chapter one day on ONE story, but if the next day, I don't feel like writing the next chapter of the same story, then I go to my OTHER story, and write the next chapter for THAT one instead. It's just how I work. ^-^

So, this story is based off a song, and a true story. The song is called 'Deathbed' by a band named 'There For Tomorrow.' Now I'm pretty sure a lot of you haven't heard of the band, but I love them. ^_^ Their my second fav band. And, I saw this video where the lead singer of that band talked about what happened in his life and about him writing the song.(Like, his dark past. Seriously, that video made me freakin cry, it was so fuckin sad)So I decided to take that, add some of my own little ideas, and make it into a Big Time Rush story. :)

On, and by the way, this will just be a short story. Probably just 5 chapters or so. Unless I get more ideas. And this is like, the prologue though.

Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush, the awesome song by There For Tomorrow, or the whole plot of this story.

Sometimes we lose what we loved the most. Whether it is someone human or just an important object. But in this case...it's a human being.

We can lose that special someone in a couple of ways. Whether it's because they left or moved out. Got kidnapped or lost. Or worse... they... passed away.

Well then they passed away for a reason. Maybe it was an accident. But then again...maybe it wasn't. You can kill yourself. You can have a car accident or something and just die like that. You can get a very bad illness and die from it.

But death shouldn't even be crossing your mind right now.

You should be happy that your still alive.

And you should remember that that important person in your life who is gone, is in a better place now.

Whether it's in heaven, and God took them there way too quickly. Or whether it's in a different country or state. Because they left for a reason...and you just keep thinking that they hate you, but in reality they still love you with all their heart.

And you should remember that that person is always with you everywhere you go. No matter what.

Now, what if all of this...started out with one little promise? Because sometimes, people make promises that the they can't keep. Sometimes, they know they can't keep it. But a lot of the times, they don't know it. And once that promise is broken...you start to feel bad and do every bit of thing that you could possibly do, so that person can forgive you.

Apologies won't always work though. So you can say it all you want, but that person might never forgive you. And if that person never forgives you, then that would just break your heart. You don't want them to keep hating every bit of you. You don't want them to ignore you every time you talk. You don't want them to pretend that your invisible when you clearly aren't.

If that actually happens, then you must've messed up. Big time.

You feel like there's no going back. You can't change the past. You can't forget about the past.

But what if something much, much worse happens in the future that you never expected?...Well then that would definitely shatter you into pieces. But mostly your heart.

You won't be able to sleep. Terrible nightmares would keep you awake all night.

You won't be able to eat. You'd feel like throwing up afterwords.

You won't be able to think straight. All of those memories will just keep circling around your head and never leave you alone. They'll just keep haunting you.

You'll sob or cry all day and night and you won't be able to stop.

You keep thinking to yourself 'Why couldn't I keep my promise?' or 'I wish there was somehow a way...to go back in time to prevent any of this from happening.' Even though you know that there is NO way back.

You can't do anything. The past is gone. The future remains.

But you just can't forget the past. No matter how hard you try...and no matter how sad it might've been.

You just have to move on. Let it go. Because if you keep thinking about it, then it would just keep ruining your life.

A/N: So yeah...this prologue sucked and didn't make a sense a little bit, but I'm pretty sure this kinda gave you an idea of what the story is gonna be about. If you want me to continue please review. If not I can just delete it. I mean, I'll delete it from HERE but not from my computer. :)