Disclaimer - I do not own Fullmetal Alchemist. Not at all. Nope.
This is just a little something I pulled together. It's short, yes, but I believe it's better that way.
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Roy sat in his office chair, eyes half closed. As he sat there, hands grabbing the sides of the chair tightly, his mind kept going to Maes. He couldn't get the general out of his head.
It had only been a few weeks since Maes had been killed, but to Roy it still felt like yesterday. His heart pained every single time he thought about it, or heard his name, or saw his picture. He didn't think he was ever going to recover. Even now, his thoughts were on the other man...
When he closed his eyes, the other's naked figure stood in front of him. As much as he tried not to, he could feel his touches, hear his voice, feel his lips on his skin... Even now, he kept thinking that it was Maes that was there, giving him the pleasure he so often received.
He bit his lip as his whole body went rigid, before his release eased every tense muscle in his body. Wiping the sweat from his brow, he opened his eyes and half expected to look down and see Maes. As he did, though, he was thrown back into reality as Edward's golden-brown eyes stared back up at him. Despite his agony, he smiled at the alchemist who was there as a comfort, as a lover.
The two shifted from his desk and found themselves laying on the large black couch in the middle of the room, Ed's head laying on Roy's chest. Roy stared up at the ceiling, absent-mindedly playing with the end of the blond braid, his mind trailing back to Maes yet again. He was trying so hard to be in the now, to relish in the experiences he was having with Ed. No matter what, though, Maes was still creeping into his thoughts practically every waking moment. Would these thoughts, these memories, die down with time?
Roy sighed. Edward lifted his head and stared up at the Flame Alchemist with a cute, questioning gaze.
"Everything alright?" he asked, noticing Roy's far-away eyes. Roy blinked and nodded, kissing the top of the other's head.
"Yeah, just thinking..."