Agh! Damnit! My sister and I got into a fight and I went for a walk to cool down but left my edit story page up and in spite she bloody deleted it! GAH!
Well obviously I've had to re-post this story thanks to my sister who I am now ridiculously pissed at.
Anyway this time it will only contain the new revised version, in other words I will not be putting up the original draft in a separate chapter like I did last time. So this story is now "in-progress" being properly transformed from very long one-shot to even longer chapter story.
Sorry about the inconvenience that having to re-post this may cause. Ugh.
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Warning: Contains occasional mild coarse language, mild violence/gore, suicide and boyXboy love.
Disclaimer: I sadly do not own Yu Yu Hakusho. Though heavens knows I wish I did.
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Anyway as promised, the full summary:
Hiei has always been an outcast, a reject, never considered good enough. He himself shared those views even if none of his friends knew that. So when his feelings for Yusuke become too much to bear he attempts suicide. He never planned on Yusuke and Kuwabara being there to witness his actions. Will he survive? If he does, will Yusuke be able to realise his feelings for the fire demon before it's too late? Read on to find out.
Better than the summary sounds I promise.
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Darkness in the Shadow
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It was a most beautiful night; the young raven haired man couldn't help but notice as he knelt among a field of flowers in a quiet park. The stars could just be sighted through the pollution of light, and the full moon, abnormally large, shone brightly, covering the field in an ethereal light. The nearby lake was still and showed a perfect mirror image of the dark sky above. The flowers around the young man were open their creamy vanilla petals greedily soaking up the light of the moon as if it were the same light that had shone on them earlier that day. The young man's eyes had closed and he was breathing in the fresh air with a rueful look on his face. Dark lashes fluttered against pale skin as a comfortably cool breeze flowed across his face. His eyelashes removed themselves regretfully from his cheeks - a parting farewell til they would meet again, - to reveal incredible almond shaped ruby eyes, shining with the reflection of the moon above.
Hiei sighed, his scarlet eyes sliding shut, reuniting lashes and cheeks once more. A sad aura emanated from the normally stoic fire demon. Hiei allowed his metaphorical mask to fall with relief. He knew there was no chance of anyone bothering him here at this time of night. He was almost surprised by the emotions that greeted him. Loneliness, sadness, longing…He thought he had left them behind a long time ago.
"I guess I was wrong…" Hiei whispered. "But then…When aren't I?"
A small sad smile spread across his face, smoothing his normally harsh expression.
"I was never good enough…I was never good enough to be their team mate, their friend…If I can't even have that then how can I ever expect to have his love?…A Forbidden Child just isn't meant to belong…Just isn't meant to be…"
Hiei's eyes fell shut the same moment another woeful sigh escaped his parted lips. A pale hand reached down to his belt, closing around the hilt of the katana there with familiarity. The sword came free from its sheath with a deathly silent hiss. Crimson eyes opened to stare in admiration at the silver blade glinting in the moonlight. The raven haired demon allowed the blade to slide along his palm as he turned it, the metal biting into his calloused skin. Hiei stared at the blood dripping down his weapon with morbid fascination.
"This sword…I've taken so many lives with this sword. Its blade has been stained by the blood of countless demons…But it won't shed any more blood after tonight…" The fire demon faltered before smiling slightly.
"All my life I've pushed people away. Friends, family and foe alike. But they refuse to see. They don't see that I'm nothing more than a Forbidden Child. A disgusting monster deserving nothing more than an eternity in Hell! I have no right to want their friendship, his love…I have no right to pull them down to my level. After tonight they'll see…I won't weigh them down any longer…"
Hiei brought his left hand up to meet its twin on the blade under the hilt of his katana, the point aimed directly at his leanly muscled torso. A strong gust of wind tore through the park and Hiei almost swore he heard someone call his name. A small chuckle escaped him at the thought, so ridiculous it was. For no one was coming to save him from the darkness that had built up inside him over the years… 'No one…'
Without even flinching Hiei pulled the blade down towards himself, the cold metal slicing into his palms once more. The blade slid through his chest with ease and within seconds he felt his hands and hilt pressing his black tank against his already blood-slicked skin. Hiei let his bloodied hands slip from the weapon. A wave of dizziness passed over him and he swayed precariously, his limbs rapidly becoming heavy and leaden.
A short burst of hysterical laughter bubbled from the raven haired man's lips forcing blood from his mouth to flow down his chin.
"Funny…I didn't think death would come this quickly…" He gurgled before he fell forwards, his body hitting the ground with a thud.
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Send away for a priceless gift
One not subtle, one not on the list
Send away for a perfect world
One not simply so absurd
In these times of doing what you're told
Keep these feelings, no one knows…
What ever happened to the young man's heart? And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45 Send a message to the unborn child
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart!
Swimming through the ashes of another life
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45.
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high up on the shelf
Left for you, no one else What ever happened to the young man's heart? And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45 Everyone's pointing their fingers And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight.
Swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart!
Swimming through the ashes of another life
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45-!
Always condemning me-!
And nobody knows what I believe-
I believe-!
I'm swimming through the ashes of another life
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45
And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45
And I'm swimming through the ashes of another life
There is no real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45-!
45-!
(Staring down the barrel of a 45-!) - 45 by Shinedown
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Okay the prologue is back up. I'll probably put the other chapters up at least one every week so that way I can keep some sort of deadline for myself. That and so people can have some sort of timeline as to when I SHOULD be updating.
Okay please read and review! Especially read and review. I would appreciate it! ^^