Somewhat Damaged
(This'll take place before Rin came about and Sesshomaru lost his arm.)
I'm lying in this fucking room, unable to move and get away. Unspeakable things have been done to me. It would make any sane woman or squeamish male sick to the stomach. I'm bruised, broken forgotten, raped, and sore. I'm too fucked up to care anymore. Those horrible inhumane men have ripped me limb from limb countless times and there's no escape. They open the door every other day to give me some horrible inedible substance and water. I used to pass on whatever food they gave me until it had became over two solid weeks of no light.
Oh yes they bring lanterns to light the way in when they either hurt or put their hands in places I'd rather die than them touching ever again. Last time they said I wasn't paying enough attention to what they were ordering me to do so they threw me against the wall and stripped me of the clothes they gave me and well let's not go there. I remember when I used to live in a village. With many people who were happy to be living. But my old life has been horribly forgotten in all the dirty excruciating memories that have filled my tired useless mind. I once had a name and can't even recall it.
I hear them speaking of selling me off to the highest in power they can. To be congratulated for selling an obedient maid or servant to their higher ups. I don't care where or who they sell me too. I just want out so I can see the sun rise or fall once again. I clench my fist not being able to feel the left one from the elbow down, since the day before he popped my elbow out quickly, as the tears come once again. The door opens and I release my fist only to be grabbed around the waist and taken out into the blessed light for once in a long while. He drops me onto the floor of a room with four or so maids. "Dress her and her wounds she shall be sold tomorrow for top dollar. No less than 500 yen so make her look it." He one of my rapists orders to the others then slams the door behind him. Two of the maids grab my arms to sit me up on a chair.
"Alright you have brilliant blue eyes and long black hair to your waist it seems. Let's see what we can find for you to wear." One of the maids says to me as I stare at the wooden cherry floor blankly. They open the closet to grab out something that most likely was left by their master. That bastard left a short mid thigh length black cami dress with a see-through black over top to put atop that and black wooden sandals. They dress me since I don't respond to anyone or anything. They brush my hair as a tear slides slowly down my cheek. I'm finally gonna get out of this fucking hell! Finally…
I was taken to a small stage for auctions and the bastard made me walk behind him like a dog to show how I followed him. When we got to the stage he pushed me out in front of him as the crowd of people in front of the stage started making their bids. I held my head high and my face expressionless as he pointed to certain attributes on my body as the bids went up. The last one was 5000 yen. Wow so people here covet me at least someone does even if only for a slave. I'm sold to the highest bidder for 10,000 yen. He is a burly man with a brown beard. He hands the money to the bastard and grabs me by the waist and walks off as I pass out from tiredness in his grip.
You wake on a bed in a small room and you move to sit up as you hear footsteps run away from outside the door. With heavy sleep laden eyes you look around at your surroundings theirs a window and seat built into the wall in front of it. You're sitting on a bed as you slowly rise to sit at the window watching as it rains. I didn't even recall the rain ever being this beautiful. You sigh and close your eyes just for a moment when the door is thrown open revealing a small ugly toad shaped creature holding a wooden staff with two faces on it. You blink in amusement when the creature speaks. "I am Jaken and I'm here to take you to my master Lord Sesshomaru." He says as you rise to follow him out the door and down the hallway.
You take so many turns and stairways you can't remember where the room you were just in was. You follow silently and keep an expressionless look about your face until 'Jaken' stops in front of an extravagant looking double door and knocks. "Come in." you hear a dark emotionless voice order to both of you. You keep your eyes down to the floor in front of you as you follow Jaken in. "Lord Sesshomaru this is the new slave that was sent to you by Lord Kiyoshi to offer peace from their lands. She is nameless and follows orders diligently." He says proudly as he motions me to stand by him. My eyes glued to the floor the Lord states in the same monotone voice "Look at me I need to see your eyes." I slowly look up doing as told and look into his golden depths. "Your name from now on is Amaya. Do as you're told and there will be no problems between you and me." He says slowly as if I'm a baka onna of some sort. I bow my head and my gaze falls back towards the floor where it was once before.
"Jaken, show her around so she can start working the kitchen. It will be her main area of work, see to it that she becomes comfortable with her surroundings and will start dinner around six. You're dismissed." He commands in the quiet, calm monotone I'm becoming used to quickly. I start to turn and Jaken follows my arm lays uselessly to my side. "Oh and Jaken repair her left arm so she can use it in her tasks." He adds calmly as a side note to the small ugly demon. "Yes Lord I will." He says and bows leading me to the nursing station a nurse sits me down and examines my left arm. After about a second of this she twists and pops it back into place as I bite my tongue from screaming out what on my mind. Basically it's a long stream of curse words I don't allow myself to utter out loud.
I close my eyes and breathe deeply relaxing a bit as Jaken grabs at my good arm to show me around. "First I'll show you back to your room Amaya, then I'll…" Jaken continues as I fade out and in of listening. Later that evening I'm in the kitchen creating a dinner for the Lord and Jaken. "Ribs and spices should work for him." I say adding more different spices and stick my finger in to get a taste. I've got to say that is some good food. I smirk when it comes off of the fire cooked to perfection at around six. I step out holding two plates and set them on the table in front of Jaken and the Lord. I turn and leave for the kitchen to continue cleaning.
"It's quite delicious Amaya." The Lord nods in my direction I bow in return to him. (While I'm not there and oblivious to me.) "Jaken why is it that this slave will not respond to anything I say with words of her own?" Sesshomaru inquires the troll. "I'm not quite sure Lord but she is a great servant. Hopefully she's not a mute." Jaken says taking one last bite of one of his ribs. "I think I'll inquire this of her soon." Sesshomaru says standing and leaving the dinning hall.
I walk into my room after the kitchen was cleaned quite well and I sit down at my window and put my hand on the glass while resting my head against it to. I fall into quite a deep slumber only to awaken with the sun coming up on the other side of the glass. I let my guard down and smile at the rising sun and close my eyes to happiness. Then I rise up to get changed, I look into my closet and pull out a white cami dress and slip in to it. It has lace on the bottom and up at the top. I brush my long black curly hair and slip on some black shoes.
I draw my shades back open as a knock comes to my door. They come in after a few seconds of silence. It's Lord Sesshomaru. "I have a question for you Amaya." He says as he sits down on my bed. I nod to assure him I don't mind. "Why do you not speak?" he asks in that monotone once again. I blink and think on how to answer this. "I haven't spoken since that inhuman man took me from where ever I was before all this." I say quietly, keeping my eyes pinned down to the floor in front of me.
"Will you ever speak normally again?" he inquires. "Who's to say?" she says in a dark manner. "I was taught that mainly to survive, even if it's painful to do so, to keep your mouth shut. I used to be happy but I don't even recall smiling since those-" you just shake your head in disgust. "Men did those things to me." You look out the window sadly for some sort of an emotional escape. Sesshomaru nods his head towards you and makes for the door. "I'll see to it that the rest of the night is yours to do with as you please." He says walking out of the door and shutting it behind himself.