The Girl in My Body
I wake up every morning to go about my day. And I always feel that there is a girl inside of me. no one knows who that girl is even I do not but that little girl inside of me her heart is tied in knots, she cries all day and screams at night and there is nothing I can do. that poor little girl is dying now and its all because of you. she used to be so happy but now she is scared to die. I wish I could give that girl some wings and let her fly away, but when I do she puts up a front and says that she is ok. and of course I do believe her even if it is not true. I'd rather see her dead right now than be tortured by you. when you speak that poor girl just curls into a ball. she starts to whimper and to shake and doesn't speak at all. I don't know how to help her but I really wish I did, cuz after all ya know BJ she's only just a kid. you treat her like a peace of crap she treats you like a god, cuz if she don't your sukio comes and her eyes will quickly fog. you haunt her dreams and nightmares too and make her feel distraught. you make her want to up and die she ponders it a lot. I'm afraid right now that little girl is hanging by a string, and one day soon that string will snap and that little girl will fall into the sea. and that little girl you push around, you know she can not swim so one day soon your watch her drown in that sea of dark abyss. your hear her scream and you will laugh just like you always do. and you will know you've broke this child just like you knew you would. she will say that she can't breathe, your smile and say that's good. your watch her sink into the dark, a trap you've set for her. and then she's yours forever more, and she will never leave your side. but its sad to think and hard to find that little girl, is me.
A poem declaring my future in seven days