I guess you should think of it as a diary entry from Grells POV.... =w= I love this guy.~3
The pain was indescribable each time Sebastian yanked me by my blood red strands.
"OUT!" He would shout, throwing me off the mansion grounds.
I looked at him, hurt and sad, but I would never hate him.
No matter what he did to me, no matter what pain he caused me, I could never hate him.
He would tell me how disgusting I am, and that I was no lady.
It would hurt immensely, but I could never hate him.
I could only love him.
I've liked countless other men; I've had my little flings.
But, Sebastian, He stood out to me.
His mystery,
His beauty,
The way he could be so cruel, but caring at the same time…
I wanted it all.
I wanted him.
I loved him. What else could this feeling be?
The way he made me feel so invisible, so unnoticed, so unwanted…
I think that's what made me love him so much.
And I wanted him to notice me, to care for me, to want me…
To love me.
He hurts me everyday.
But I still can never hate him.
No matter what.
If he even looked at me, I would melt.
But if he touched me, I would drown.
I was drawn to his eyes.
Those beautiful, crimson colored eyes…
Oh how I really want him to love me.
But I seemed to make a fool of myself every time I'm around him,
"Oh, my, my Sebas-Chan, Come with me so we can do some vigorous exorcises together! ~"
I don't mean it. I want to tell him what I feel, but each time I'm around him, I melt. I break down into pieces.
I love you, Sebastian, Is what I want to say, what I think, but I know now, that if I say it, he won't take me seriously.
-Grell Sutcliffe ,