This fanfic is about Loki's thoughts when he fell from the Bifrost. I've always loved Loki. He's the kind of sympathetic, tragic villain you find yourself enjoying. This fanfic isn't meant to downplay the crimes he committed in Avengers and make him seem like a hero. It just sort of shows where Loki is coming from. Also, sorry if there's lots of grammar mistakes. I was stuck writing this on my tablet. So, without further ado, I present to you my first Thor fanfic. :)
Btw, I don't own any of this. It all belongs to Marvel.
No Loki,
Odin said, and Loki knew he had failed, knew he
Had gone too far this time, knew that all of his plans
Had backfired.
No Loki,
Odin said, and something in Loki broke, because
Odin alone had the power to swing a pendulum
Right into his heart and shatter it into a thousand
Pieces.
No Loki,
Odin said,
And Loki let go.
...
Loki is falling and screaming. And he is laughing too
Because, when he was a child, he used to be afraid of the dark.
I'm scared Thor,
Loki used to say.
Is it the dark again?
Thor used to ask.
Yes. Can- can I sleep in your bed tonight?
Loki used to plead.
Of course. I'll always be here for you.
Thor used to answer, as if it was obvious. As if Loki
Should've Known. But why should he have? In the end,
Thor had never been there for him. Not even when he
Tried to destroy those repulsive Frost Giants.
But then nobody else had been there for him either.
He'd been forsaken by his so-called "friends,"
Heimdall committed treason against him,
And Odin had simply gazed down at Loki (his not-son),
Even while he hung over an abyss
In disappointment. Even though he'd been the one to
Tell Loki that he was nothing more than a-
(... stolen relic, locked up here until you might have use of me.
Why do you twist my words?
You could've told me what I was from the beginning. Why didn't you?
You're my son. I wanted only to protect you from the truth.
What? Because I- I'm the monster who parents tell their children about at night?
At that point Odin had kept repeating
No.
Loki wonders if now, given the chance, Odin would say
Yes.)
Yet, in the strangest way, Thor's betrayal hurts most of all,
Because he used to be afraid of the dark,
And Thor used to be there for him, but
Now that Loki has fallen into true darkness,
Thor has left him all alone.
So Loki falls and screams. And he laughs too
Because, when he was a child, he used to be afraid of the dark.
But that was not darkness. Not really.
But this void, this nothingness
Is.
...
When Loki finally makes his collision,
He only survives because of the aid of a
Grotesque thing Loki later learns is called
The Other.
Then Loki wishes he hadn't been saved, because
The Other likes to sing along, in that guttural voice of his,
To the harsh, jagged music of agonized screams.
Thus, Loki learns the meaning of pain.
...
The Mad Titan, Thanos, is the one who truly saves him.
He is the one who ordered the Other to
Release him!
He is the one who promised to give Loki the power he wanted,
The power he deserved,
The power to subjugate an entire realm.
Midgard,
Loki automatically replies, because he knows how dear
The realm is to his brother, and this is an easy way to
Satisfy his desire for vengeance against the one who wronged him.
Then the Mad Titan smirks and declares that
All he wants in return is a cube.
The Tesseract.
...
After Loki accepts Thanos's bargain,
Thanos gives him a scepter containing a blue gem.
And Loki smiles and holds it and knows that he will
No longer have to be Thor's shadow.
He knows that he will no longer have to
Hover behind Thor's garish, golden glow to find his way.
He has a scepter now for that. A scepter that will make him king.
A scepter that is like light.
Well, that was embarrassing. I accidentally posted the wrong story at first. A story that didn't even have Loki in it. :( Oh well.