Hey guys!! This is my first fanfic I hope you like it : D oh and I am writing in Rukia's P.O.V kay, please review.

I stared blankly at the ceiling in my room. Thoughts and feelings raced through my head fast as lighting as I let my body relax and my mind wander.

I was searching for somthing. It was somthing very important, somthing no one could ever live without and somthing no one could ever forget. I was searching for memories.

I closed my eyes tightly and breathed deeply letting my mind go as far back as possible. Letting myself take in all the details that came up and soak them in like a sponge in water.

It was right then, when my mind went back is when I saw her.

She really did look just like me. Her skin was pale and felt cold, her body was small and skinny. She was weak, she struggled to lift me and hold me. Her hair was just like mine, it was shiny and dark even though it was full of tangles. Her eyes, they were dinmed and full of sad emotions. Her lips were small and pink and were always forcing smiles.

She placed me down on the stone cold floor and whisperd somthing to me.

Then my eyes opend and I layed upright in my futon. "thats all I ever remember" I thought to myself.

I have been trying to remember things about my sister for months now. Everytime I try to close my eyes and think about her that is all I get up to. I can never remember what exactly she whisperd to me.

After nii-sama told me about her on sokyoku I was obsessed with knowing more about her. I wanted to know everything, what she ate, what her hobbies were, how she acted etc. but I was always afraid to ask nii-sama about her, I didnt want to ask him questions about such a touchy subject but me trying to remember was not working.

"Rukia-san" A light voice called from outiside my door. "come in" I called back.

A woman with dark hair pulled into a ponytail and rosy cheeks enterd my room. "Miyako-san" I said as she enterd.
lord Kuchiki has requested you for breakfast" she announced.

"alright, I will be right there" I responded. Miyako nodded and left the room.

"yes, this will be the perfect chance to ask nii-sama about my sister" I thought aloud while making my way to the dining hall.

I enterd the dining hall feeling confident as I sat right in front of nii-sama. It was just the two of us sitting silently as usual.

He motioned for the maids to start serving breakfast. The maids placed the food in front of us and we began to eat.

I must admit I was a little nervous to ask him somthing like this but I had to know somthing about her.

"nii-sama, may I ask you a question?" I asked. He rose a thin black eyebrow indicating for me to continue.

"could you tell me...how lady Hisana was?" I was a little scared that he might not answer. He looked deeply into his cup of tea like he was searching for somthing.

He finally spoke after a few minutes of silence "I do not know why you wish to know such a thing"

"well, she is my sister and I wish to know some things about her, I did not know her but from what you told me she spent a great deal searching for me so.. I paused looking into my tea cup trying to find the right words. "so, I feel that to repay her I want to know about her so that atleast I can mention her and tell people I had a sister"

He stared at me for a moment. His gray eyes penitrated through mine for a while until he closed them and sighed.

"very well Rukia" he answerd. He took a small sip of his tea and began "Hisana was very quiet. She hardly ever spoke to anyone, and when she did speak it was like a whisper" His eyes dinmed and his voice became softer.

"She was also very kind.....she never yelled and never got angry even at those who disrespected her" he continued. His eyes changed dramatically. They were soft and calm rather than hard and cold like they usually were.

I listend intently to every word making sure I took in everything he said about her.

"She also had a good sense of humor, she could make anyone laugh" his lips slightly curved making a small smile. That was somthing I had never seen before. I was glad she made him so happy.

Soon that smile dissapeard and his face turned from a look of slight happiness to a face of sorrow. His eyes went lower and he tightend his grip on his cup.

"She was also very weak, any physical activity took alot out of her; but she never complained" His voice was so soft and gentle, it was very odd to hear him like this.

"and her smile, she always smiled..it was one of the many beautiful things about her" as he continued to speak I could tell it was getting harder and harder for him to go on. He took longer pauses and looked even more deeply in his cup.

"She loved the outdoors, especially the garden. She liked to have picnics under her favorie cherry blossom tree"

I was so into what he was saying I didint notice how much pain he was in by telling me all of this.

"and..... he began but stoped. He ran his fingers through his hair and got up. "exscuse me" was the last words he said before leaving the room.

It took me a while to figure out what just happend. Until I realized how much pain he was enduring. It must have been hard for him to talk about her like that.

But I figured out so much, and I wanted to know more. "thank you nii-sama" I said softly while bowing. Then I quickly left the room.

I walked swiftly across the halls and turned a corner and bumped into Miyako.

"oh my gosh, I am so sorry Rukia-san" she said pulling me to my feet.

"no, no it is my fault" I responded whiping off my robes.

"have you seen lord Kuchiki? I was told to deliver these papers to him" Miyako asked picking up the papers she dropped.

I leaned down to help her pick up the scatterd documents. "you best not go now, he isnt.....in the best mood" I told her.

"oh, well i have to do some errands ummm" she said obviously not knowing what to do.

"I will give them to him" I said taking the papers from her hands.

"oh you will? thank you so much Kuchiki-san" she said smiling. "I will repay you" she called already running away.

He probablly doesnt want to see anyone right now, so I will just slide them under the door I thought.

I came to his room and knocked. "nii-sama" I said softly I really didnt want to disturb him, after all he was hurting right now.

There was no answer. So I decided to just leave the documents on his desk.

I enterd the room, it was dark and neat. I went to his desk and put them on it. Then somthing cought my eye.

It was hanging off his desk almost about to fall off. I quickly grabbed it about to put it back on his desk when the title stopped me.

It read "Kuchiki Hisana's Diary".