Hi! Just a fun 50 shades fanfic to contrast my other one (because I do stuff like that.) Maybe you'll like it? Or too common?
When you are young it's hard to see what the future holds.
I had never pictured my life at this age besides for a few things, most of which I didn't achieve, and now I can't picture it at twenty-five or thirty. Neither can't most of the people I know though. Before college, and even now, we had no plans or ideas for ourselves, but that was fine for us we would figure them out eventually, right?
My parents were worried that I had no vision, after all, wouldn't it be better if I knew what I wanted? It's easier when you are young and everything is new, if I started working on my future now it would make things simpler for later.
But something that I, we, can't ignore is that things change. People change. What we want now, no matter how certain it may seem, might change overtime and the future will be different from what we had pictured.
Who hasn't changed their minds about their life choices? Wannabe astronauts I knew are now med students and restaurant owners. People who dreamed themselves as lawyers, painters, football players and veterinarians were now either travelling through Europe or were economic grads, ecology students and even professional dancers.
People change, friendships get lost, it happens.
Still, that doesn't mean that I will lay back and let life go by. I have lost friends but I can also gain new ones. Just because I can't see myself in the future it doesn't mean that I won't have one. I want to find something that excites me, a passion. To discover that thing that, even if I can't imagine my future I'll look forward to it, to new challenges and experiences. That is why I went to college really, to try and see different things, get out of my comfort zone so I could know what I like and what I don't like.
I had never pictured myself going to college with no idea of what I wanted to do in life, I always figured I would know for certain and focus exclusively on achieving that.
I also know for a fact that not even my hyper-paranoid mind could have pictured myself as I was now; trying desperately to stuff a frozen corpse behind a closet while the police calls at the door and my friend on the bed beside me with her pants and underwear at her ankles, frantically fighting against the cold wax that had glued to her skin as she had tried to wax her bikini area.
But, isn't it nice how life can surprise us?
Weird, I know. Don't worry it will be explained. Eventually...