IMPORTANT STUFF: Squaresoft owns Final Fantasy VII , and the song "Little Flower" is from El Hazard: The Magnificent World , which belongs to its rightful owner--err, whoever that is... (It's a good series too, so check it out!! Ifurita is SO awesome!!)
Bonds of Destiny: Little Flower
I feel so light as if I'm just drifting through a void, all alone. But there were so many memories flashing through my mind, remembering everyone and our adventure together. How I miss them so, but here I am, not sure if I was dead or alive. My body flinched when I recalled my last moments on the Planet... at the altar, praying for our hope.
Little flower, I seeThose eyes... such beautiful, blue eyes. I saw the horror and pain in his eyes as he watched the long blade slide from my body. It just pained me when his hurtful eyes bore into my limped body as my vision blurred against darkness. The last image of him etched deeply into my heart, and I just wanted to reach out to him and comfort him. I wanted to whisper soothing words in his ear, holding him against me to protect him... from himself.
You know the very place you must be.
Right there, blooming at my feet.
Perfect and complete,I couldn't bear to see him suffer as if my heart was being ripped apart. There was so much I wanted to tell him... My feelings, his feelings... but I knew of HER feelings for him. I loved... No, I still love him dearly, along with our other friends, but I don't know if it was more than a platonic love... because I never did get a chance to find out. Perhaps it was that main reason I couldn't figure out our relationship. I didn't want anyone to be hurt, but I guess with my death there was no choice in the matter.
Innocent and bright.
Each day, you give yourself to the light.
You sway in any gentle wind,My death itself was something I knew about but yet didn't know. Yes, it was rather confusing even for me, but I always knew something would happen to me, but I just never understood or knew exactly what it was until that day. I never told anyone about those mysterious dreams and conversations with the Planet--I just didn't want them to worry about my well-being when we had greater challenges and threats to face. It would only hinder our mission to save the Planet... but now I feel so guilty because my death brought only pain and vengeance in their hearts.
And you bring such pleasure to my eyes.
You drink your fill of summer rain,'I'm sorry, Cloud,' I can hear my mind call out to him, 'everyone... I'm so sorry...' I doubt if they could ever hear me, but I can always hope... because that's all I have left.
And I know this vision will not die,
Watching you bloom peacefully...
Sweet, little flower,I felt something against my cheeks... wet and warm. And I knew they were my own tears, tears of a lost soul. My eyes wouldn't open to my surroundings, fearing that I could lose this serenity and find myself far from all my loved ones. My arms wrapped around my naked body as I curled into ball like a child afraid of the loneliness. And the tears were endless.
You know where you must be...
Little flower, I prayI was dead yet I wasn't--trapped between the planes of death and living. Summoning Holy required a physical being, but before Sephiroth killed me, I wasn't able to complete the acceptable chant. And then when I regain some consciousness, I was already drifting to the bottom of the lake, but I wasn't suppose to die just yet because my destiny was to completely summon Holy. The Planet protected me until it was time, but that wasn't enough to stop Meteor. Therefore, I was willingly to sacrifice myself and my future for this world everyone lived in, and my spiritual (dead) self merged with the Life Stream to aide Holy...
That I may be like you one day.
So pure, the earth below my feet.
Perfect and complete,And now I am here... in this emptiness with an uncertain future. But shouldn't I be leaving for the Promised Land like all other souls? I guess I should, but my heart wasn't ready for it. I just couldn't let my past life go, I couldn't let them go... I couldn't let HIM go... My heart just couldn't do it. So much pain and sadness, yet I held onto them... my last hope.
Innocent and bright.
Each day, I'll give myself to the light.
I'll learn to dance in any wind.I remember reaching out to him when he stood alone after his victory against Sephiroth. I saw the hope radiating in his eyes at the thought of being with each other again, and I wanted so much for him to take my hand and pull out to him and hold me, never letting me return to Death again, but I knew I couldn't be selfish and let Meteor destroy what my friends and I wanted to protect.
I will grow stronger and more kind.
I'll bless the sunshine and the rain,But for once, can't I be selfish? I need them... I need him. And even though I couldn't see them from where I was, I could still feel them like they had been apart of me, which wasn't far from the truth. We went through so much together, and we would've gone even further if it wasn't for me. 'It was never your fault, Cloud... It was mine... My fault... for...'
Living on, and when I say good-bye,
Somewhere I'll bloom peacefully.
Sweet, little flower,To them, the final battle ended, but at what loss? This question continued to linger in their minds, and it was my fault that the pain and sorrow still loomed over them, especially him. I wanted much to be by their sides again, to see them smile once more... And how I wish I could've said a last farewell, but Fate never gave me that chance...
I'll know where I must be...
But somehow, I knew I shouldn't be sad... because this bond with them--with him--has been fated and will never be broken. Perhaps in another lifetime, we will meet again... so there will be no 'farewells'.
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Ne, doesn't the song really fit Aeris?!!!! I've been wanting to write a songfic for her using this song, but I'm not familiar with ALL the events of the game since I take FOREVER to complete an RPG... [sighs] so I wrote something from Aeris's POV of what could possibly happen to her after the end of Sephiroth and Meteor.
If you didn't know, Aeris is my favorite character... and somehow it just doesn't feel right that Cloud would just get over Aeris and hook up with Tifa (but I don't have a problem with a C&T fic coupling)... Anyway I just think that Aeris has such a strong bond with everyone that it would be difficult for her to leave everything behind and move on to the Promise Land (err, or willingly let her soul into the Life Stream... whatever)...
I won't go much into my opinions of this Life Stream stuff, but if you've lead a good life and such, you merge with the Planet so there's no point in reincarnation... but if you still hold onto something--like Aeris--then you could/would not enter the Life Stream but be reborn for another chance... or something like that... Aeris's relations to her friends are so strong that there will be another chance for them to be reborn again and meet... and perhaps fall in love... A second chance, I guess. This is just the basic idea for a future fic...
Please tell me what you think 'cause I just felt depressed and wrote this... This songfic and including another (parody/comedy) story would be my only 2 FFVII fics... I hope to change that in the future. Okie, enough of my ramblings... Thanks for reading this. [bows deeply] =6_6=