Title: I Will Survive
Author: Sgt. Maritza Cruz
I do not own Third Watch.
Spoiler alert.
Is this real?
Is this really happening?
That son of a bitch.
Warner.
He did this.
He did this to me.
And now I'll always have the memory.
But wait Maritza, you woulda had the memory anyway.
How could I think I'd ever loose that memory?
Sure I walk around all tough and acting like I don't give a damn.
But the cases that deal with that.
There's so many.
Outside, I pretend it don't bother me.
Inside, I'm crying.
I'm crying for the women who were damaged and whose sense of self were stolen.
I'm crying for the men whose humility and manliness were lost.
I'm crying for the young girls and boys that don't know its wrong.
I'm crying for everyone whose pride and dignity was broken.
Noone should EVER have to go through the pain and the embarssement, the shame.
Ever.
And now I learn that cabron gave me a disease that can't be cured.
It had to be him.
I can't stand to have a guy kiss me, forget about sex.
It's all his fault I can't be touched.
It's hit fault I'm gonna die.
Just to show that son of a bitch
I won't let AIDS destory me.
I won't let Warner have the satisfaction in knowing he killed me.
It can destroy people.
Both of it.
The part that happens first.
And the part that can happen.
The first almost destroyed me.
The second....
I won't let it.
I will survive.