The ache in my throat had dulled once I had fed.

I knew this week would be hard so Edward had told me to feed as much as possible before attending Charlies funeral. Charlie had died from an attack, everyone had said it was a bear but Edward and I knew the only dangerous things in the woods were us, EJ's protector and the pack she was in.

If it werent physically impossible I would've cried till I couldn't but I can't. Edward has been nothing but reassuring and I'm glad Charlie met my little lion before passing, he knew years ago that the we'd have to leave some day and that's what we did two years ago; but now we're back in Forks at the Cullen's residence getting ready for the funeral that I had dreaded since finding out two days ago.

"Bella?" Edward usually didn't stop at the door but under the circumstances I understood why,

"It's okay Edward come in" even with this soprano poker voice I knew Edward would hear through the facade.

Edward walked into the room and it was like Jasper was here, he lifted my spirits, he made me feel comfortable and at peace.

"Please forgive me for the stupid question but how are you holding up my love?" He gently rubbed my shoulders, his topaz eyes never left mine that stared at him from the mirror.

I didn't know how to properly explain to him in words so I put my shield down; it was the easiest way to tell him things without physically telling him.

I was hurt, I understood this was coming but just like everyone else I thought my dad would live forever; I'm holding up okay, better than I expected of course I'm glad he met my little lion, I'll never forget the day he met EJ..

We both smiled at the memory, Charlie's eyes wide with shock and then nothing but adoration, they were in it together and from Ejs thoughts that was more than his "Poppy" that was his reflection.

Hearing my worry Edward reassured me "EJ understands you're sad so he wanted to surprise you that's why I'm here, he was very strict and told me to "bring mama here dad I want to make her feel better" he chuckled.

My little lion definitely has both of our stubbornness, once his mind was made up nothing could change it, only Aunty Alice had persuaded him once to change the shorts he was in by fake crying and saying "you're breaking my heart Prince, are you really going to break Aunt Alice's heart?" But then again Alice could persuade anybody.

The dress I wore clung in the right spots and even though it was a time to mourn Alice had said we could always mourn in style. My arms snaked around Edwards neck and bought him as close to my face I possibly could. He gently kissed my neck pausing to nibble now and again. I needed to stop this before it gets outta hand. At this rate we'd never leave for Charlie's funeral.

I spun around and gave Edward a peck on the lips

"As much as I'd love to continue we have a son to attend too" I teased "but Rose would like to baby sit tonight so we'll pick up where we left off tonight"

He growled into my ear, biting it softly and leaving my embrace.

Once downstairs I could hear my sons feet running back and forth.

"EJ I hope your shoes are on we're leaving soon" as hard as I tried I could never exactly sound motherly

Ejs run stopped

"Well Bella little prince here refuses to put anything on until you see his surprise" Alice called back. As humorous as it was to see Alice annoyed she loved him more than anyone besides Edward and I. EJ had taken quite a liking to his Nana and Aunts calling himself there "protecter"

That had bought him a house of laughing vampires when Emmett had teased him a little longer than usual causing my lion to lose his temper, as worried as I was my little boy managed to knock Emmett down screaming " No one hurt my girls no one!" Emmett fell to the ground holding onto his shoulder like EJ had done some real damged.

I covered my eyes joining in on the fun as I walked through to the kitchen. Human Bella couldn't walk a straight line, yet it came so naturally using my other senses once my eyes were closed.

A floral scent hit my nose first, I loved fresh flowers since becoming like my family and understood why Esme's loved to have them around

"Okay Mama you can look now" giggles came from Edward Jacobs sweet mouth

I uncovered my eyes to see the biggest bouquet of flowers And handdrawn pictures on the kitchen counter top and of course a butt naked EJ waiting in anticipation

Love filled my chest, I grabbed EJ off the counter and hugged him tenderly, brushing his shabby ringlets out of his eyes I said

"You are the most sweetest thoughtful and gentle soul I know, thank you very my little lion"

EJ's smile was infectious, he plastered my face in kisses and as much as I loved him I needed to get some clothes on my lion so I did an "Alice"

"Buuut I'm still sad" my eyes dropped to the ground and I could feel Edwards teasing stare on me

"What can I do mama? I'll do anything?!" My sweet princes voice broke. He didn't like to talk much and he didn't like clothes either but Alice was pretty much begging me to get some clothes on him

With practice I had mastered how to "dazzle"

"Anything?" I looked up from under my lashes

My son really thought I was sad, he grabbed my face with his tiny hands "anything mama"

Determination.

Oh he was definitely Edwards son.

"Well would you let Aunt Alice choose your clothes today? It would make me very happy"

His eyes flickered between Edwards, Alice's and lastly mine.

With a defeated sigh he finally gave in

"Okay mama just for you and Pop"

I planted a small kiss on his cheek

"That's my boy" he darted to Alice and Jaspers room already knowing what too do.

"If only everyday was that easy" Edward had teased

"You ready love?" Edward rubbed my hand with his thumbs causing me to hum;

"Yes, time to face the music"

We all got into our separate cars;

Edward, EJ and I had decided to take the Volvo; for old times sake.

Rosalie and Emmett took Roses red convertible.

Carlisle and Esme in the black Mercedes with Alice and Jasper in the back; we had to convince Alice that taking her bright canary yellow porsche wasn't exactly fitting in.

Once we were around the corner from the church my nerves began to show; I realised why Edward needed me to feed more than usual; this was my first proper outing with humans

And to make it worse; humans I know.

Oh great.