Title: A Glimpse of Heaven
Author: Zarrah
Archive: http://darkprophecies.net/alwaysforever
Rating: R (just to be safe)
Pairings: Spike/Buffy
Distribution: PLEASE ask! I get upset when others take my work without permission.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to the man god Joss and his buddies at ME. I just like to play with them.
Setting: Takes place during the final scene of "The Gift" and goes COMPLETELY AU after that.
Summery: Ever wonder "WHY" Buffy missed heaven so much? What was really there to make her long for it? This is my take on that very thought.
A/N: I am not being paid to write. I do this for fun, so please do not email me about my grammatical errors. I know I make them, I'm not perfect. If you feel peeved about the fact that I put the word "to" instead of "too" then please find a more thoroughly checked piece to read and leave the flames for lighting cigarettes and NOT my hard work. I am writing another piece for my site, so it may be a little longer than usual between post.
Chapter One
A Glimpse of Heaven
By Zarrah
In the distance, holes seemed to be opening in the sky. The sky is growing lighter as the sun tried to rise. Demons were breaking through from hellish dimensions, bent on destroying all things.
"Buffy ... no!" Dawn yelled, tears filling her eyes as she realized what Buffy was about to do.
"Dawnie, I have to."
"No!" "Listen to me." Buffy said, smiling slightly at her sister. "Please, there's not a lot of time, listen."
"I love you. I will *always* love you. But this is the work that I have to do. Tell Giles ... tell Giles I figured it out. And, and I'm okay. And give my love to my friends. You have to take care of them now. You have to take care of each other. You have to be strong. Dawn, the hardest thing in this world ... is to live in it. Be brave. Live. For me.
Buffy turned, running down the platform to the swirling mass of light. She neared the edge, her heart beating faster as she knew she was about to die.
With a deep intake of breathe, she jumped, closing her eyes as the images of all those she was leaving behind flooded her mind.
The pain that wracked her body caused a sharp scream to emit from her throat and her eyes to open as the crushing hold the portal had on her gripped her.
The smiles of her friends, their loving embraces, the laughter and thoughtful words filled her mind and drowned out the pain, causing a tiny smile to curl her lips as her eyes slowly closed.
~*~*~*~*~
"So what do you do for fun, what do you like, what do you look for in a man, let's hear it." Xander said as he stared down at Buffy.
Buffy turned her head, looking behind her as Xander sat there staring at her. She glanced over, seeing Jesse before turning her head back around and seeing Willow. "What's going on?" she asked, confused.
"Uh, that would be lunch." Xander said, grinning. "So, out with it."
Buffy put a hand to her head, looking around the courtyard. She watched as all the familiar faces of her classmates milled around, talking and laughing.
Her view was blocked and she looked up, a real feeling of Déjà vu coming over her as Cordelia stood infront of her.
"Are these guys bothering you?" Cordelia asked, looking at Willow and Xander before turning her attention back to Buffy.
"Huh?" Buffy said confused.
Cordelia smiled big before letting out a small chuckle. "Well, these guys will only bring you bad dates and a very lonely social life if you hang around them."
Willow's light laughter caused Buffy to turn her head. She noticed a very plain looking Willow sitting there, her long red hair hanging down her back. "Wills, what's going on?"
Willow smiled brightly and sat up straight. "Wow, your first day and you already have a nick name for me?"
Buffy closed her eyes, shaking her head slightly trying to clear it before she finally stood. "I've got to go." She quickly said before running towards the building.
The faces that surrounded her all smiled, hellos being passed her way as she quickly walked down the hall. Everything was exactly as she remembered it.
"Miss Summers!"
Buffy froze, the sound of that voice causing a shudder to run through her. She turned, the man smiling at her sending a shiver down her spine.
"Miss Summers, I hope you're finding your first day at Sunnydale High to be pleasing to you." Assistant Principal Snyder said as he slowly approached her.
Buffy looked at him wide-eyed, blinking a few times as she stared at him.
"Are the other students helping you in locating your classes?" he asked her, a huge smile on his face.
"You're not supposed to be here." Buffy said quietly as she looked at him.
Snyder laughed softly, looking around the hall before turning his attention back to her. "Yes, that may be true, but I did want to come and personally welcome you."
Buffy was speechless. The faces around her all blurred, the small chattering echoing in her head before the images around her all faded into one. "Am I in hell?" she asked softly, staring at Snyder.
Snyder laughed quietly as he shook his head. "Hell" he said, "Well some of the more rambunctious students seem to think so." He told her with a smile.
Buffy looked around again. Snyder, classmates that had been more than mean to her, all laughing and walking the halls of a school that she had personally seen fall to the ground. "This is hell." She said softly. "I've died and gone to High School Hell!"
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
There you are." Willow said with a smile as she hurried down the hall towards Buffy. "We'll be late if we don't hurry."
"Late?" Buffy asked, still in a daze as she stood against the lockers staring at all the students walking to their classes.
"Yeah, for class, you know, the reason we're here." Willow said grinning. "I have your books; you left them in the courtyard."
Buffy reached out, taking her books from Willow, staring at them as she held them. *This can't be real* Buffy thought to herself. "This is all wrong." She muttered quietly, still staring at her books.
"What's wrong?" Willow asked, puzzled by her statement.
Buffy finally looked up, smiling in spite of her confusion as she looked at Willow. She looked exactly like she remembered when she first saw her. The simple jumper she wore, the stockings and the bubbly smile that always greeted her.
"Are you ready?" Willow asked, "Our History class is down the hall."
Buffy turned her head, looking down the hall before looking back at Willow. "When in Rome." She said softly before smiling.
Willow smiled and turned, leading Buffy down the hall to their class. Buffy was still in shock, staring at everyone as they all passed her, smiling and giving her warm hellos.
Buffy stopped, staring at the Library as they came to it, and leaned her head to the side as she remembered how much time she had spent in there.
"That's the Library." Willow said as she also stopped. "We have a new Librarian this year."
Buffy turned, looking over at Willow before smiling. "Giles?" she asked, grinning bigger as Willow's face lit up.
"Yeah, how did you know that?"
Buffy let out a small chuckle, shaking her head before she turned. "You wouldn't believe me if I told you."
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Buffy sat in the lunch room, surrounded by her friends. She still couldn't get over the fact that she was in school, and she was actually enjoying herself.
The day had gone by almost exactly the way she remembered it, the only difference being; it was actually 'pleasant' this time around.
"Yoo-hoo.earth to Buffy." Xander said, smiling as she finally snapped out of her daze and looked over at him.
"Uh, sorry." She said smiling. "What was that?"
"I asked if you were going to try out for cheerleading."
Buffy looked at him and smiled. She hadn't even thought about that or much of anything really. "I'm not sure." She answered him.
"Oh, you totally should." Willow said, bouncing in her seat. "We could get into all the games for free."
Buffy chuckled slightly as she watched Willow's excitement. "We'll see."
"Hey, I could talk to Cordy for you; she's the captain of the team." Willow beamed.
Buffy still wasn't able to get over the fact that Cordelia was actually nice to them. She was nice to everyone. That was the one major difference that she was beginning to like. The fact that Snyder was there, now that one was a little more hard to swallow, especially seeing how he shouldn't be, not time wise speaking and the fact that he was 'nice' was bugging her out in a major way.
A shrieking squeal from Willow brought Buffy out of her thoughts and she smiled as Willow was sitting there with a complete dazed look on her face.
"What's up with her?" Buffy asked grinning as Willow leaned her arms on the table and laid her head in her hands.
"It's the studly man god that all the girls are crazy about" Jesse said, grinning as he turned his head and pointed towards the door to the cafeteria.
Buffy turned, looking where Jesse pointed and her eyes went huge. A small gasp escaped her throat and she stood quickly, knocking her chair over as she did. "Oh. My. God." She said, her mouth flying open as she stared at the same thing that had taken all of Willow's attention.
"See, we don't even stand a chance." Xander said as he saw Buffy's reaction. "I knew one look at him and she'd be so over us."
Buffy finally blinked and closed her mouth. She couldn't take her eyes off of him. The fact that he was there was majorly wiggy, the fact that he had walked right over to the table by the window and sat down in a full stream of sunlight, had her head spinning.
"Isn't he a dream?" Willow said lazily. "Angel Conner, captain of the football team. Every girl's fantasy."
Buffy stuttered quietly before she was finally able to get a grip on what she was seeing. She pushed her hair behind her ear, her daze lifting somewhat before she sat.
The attention of everyone in the cafeteria fell on Buffy as she let out a scream when her fallen chair wasn't there to catch her as she sat. She looked up, ready to hide as it seemed like half the room hovered above her.
"Oh my god, are you okay?" Xander asked as he helped her stand.
"Yeah, I'm fine." Buffy said, embarrassed beyond belief.
"Geez, someone really needs to find a way to stop the constant swooning girls seem to do when they see Angel." Jesse said, shaking his head as another potential 'date' was once again swept away by Angel. "Gives us little guys a real complex.'
"I'm fine, Thanks." Buffy said as Xander helped her back into her chair. She looked back up, seeing Angel again, laughing and talking. He was leaned back on his chair, his arms behind him, propping him up against the window sill. It was still a shock. She just stared at him, the sunlight playing on his features, illuminating him in an unearthly glow.
"Hey, come on." Willow said again, grabbing Buffy by the arm.
"Huh?" Buffy said, finally tearing her eyes off of Angel.
"The bell rang." Willow said again. "We'll be late for class if we don't hurry."
"Yeah." Buffy said, grabbing her books and hurrying along as Willow practically drug her out of the cafeteria.
"Mr. Boggs will have a cow if we're late for class." Willow said as she practically ran Buffy down the hall.
Buffy barely even remembered getting to class, let alone sitting down as her mind was still reeling around seeing Angel. The tardy bell ringing finally got her attention and she looked around the room, seeing everyone with their books open and staring straight ahead.
"Buffy Summers?"
"Huh" Buffy said, finally looking up at the teacher.
"Buffy, would you like to come up front and introduce yourself to the rest of the class?" Mr. Boggs asked, smiling at her as she stared at him.
"Uh, yeah, sure." She said, standing slowly and walking to the front of the room.
"It's a real pleasure having you here Buffy." Mr. Boggs said as he sat down on the edge of his desk and looked at her. "Just tell us a little about yourself."
Buffy shook her head at him before looking back out at the class. All the faces smiling at her caused a small smile to curve her lips. She took a deep breath, reading herself to introduce herself to people she already knew when the door to the class burst open. She turned her head, her eyes widening comically as she stared at the person that sauntered in.
"Spike?" she asked, her voice shaky as she stared at him.
"Hello Cutie."
TBC............
Author: Zarrah
Archive: http://darkprophecies.net/alwaysforever
Rating: R (just to be safe)
Pairings: Spike/Buffy
Distribution: PLEASE ask! I get upset when others take my work without permission.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to the man god Joss and his buddies at ME. I just like to play with them.
Setting: Takes place during the final scene of "The Gift" and goes COMPLETELY AU after that.
Summery: Ever wonder "WHY" Buffy missed heaven so much? What was really there to make her long for it? This is my take on that very thought.
A/N: I am not being paid to write. I do this for fun, so please do not email me about my grammatical errors. I know I make them, I'm not perfect. If you feel peeved about the fact that I put the word "to" instead of "too" then please find a more thoroughly checked piece to read and leave the flames for lighting cigarettes and NOT my hard work. I am writing another piece for my site, so it may be a little longer than usual between post.
Chapter One
A Glimpse of Heaven
By Zarrah
In the distance, holes seemed to be opening in the sky. The sky is growing lighter as the sun tried to rise. Demons were breaking through from hellish dimensions, bent on destroying all things.
"Buffy ... no!" Dawn yelled, tears filling her eyes as she realized what Buffy was about to do.
"Dawnie, I have to."
"No!" "Listen to me." Buffy said, smiling slightly at her sister. "Please, there's not a lot of time, listen."
"I love you. I will *always* love you. But this is the work that I have to do. Tell Giles ... tell Giles I figured it out. And, and I'm okay. And give my love to my friends. You have to take care of them now. You have to take care of each other. You have to be strong. Dawn, the hardest thing in this world ... is to live in it. Be brave. Live. For me.
Buffy turned, running down the platform to the swirling mass of light. She neared the edge, her heart beating faster as she knew she was about to die.
With a deep intake of breathe, she jumped, closing her eyes as the images of all those she was leaving behind flooded her mind.
The pain that wracked her body caused a sharp scream to emit from her throat and her eyes to open as the crushing hold the portal had on her gripped her.
The smiles of her friends, their loving embraces, the laughter and thoughtful words filled her mind and drowned out the pain, causing a tiny smile to curl her lips as her eyes slowly closed.
~*~*~*~*~
"So what do you do for fun, what do you like, what do you look for in a man, let's hear it." Xander said as he stared down at Buffy.
Buffy turned her head, looking behind her as Xander sat there staring at her. She glanced over, seeing Jesse before turning her head back around and seeing Willow. "What's going on?" she asked, confused.
"Uh, that would be lunch." Xander said, grinning. "So, out with it."
Buffy put a hand to her head, looking around the courtyard. She watched as all the familiar faces of her classmates milled around, talking and laughing.
Her view was blocked and she looked up, a real feeling of Déjà vu coming over her as Cordelia stood infront of her.
"Are these guys bothering you?" Cordelia asked, looking at Willow and Xander before turning her attention back to Buffy.
"Huh?" Buffy said confused.
Cordelia smiled big before letting out a small chuckle. "Well, these guys will only bring you bad dates and a very lonely social life if you hang around them."
Willow's light laughter caused Buffy to turn her head. She noticed a very plain looking Willow sitting there, her long red hair hanging down her back. "Wills, what's going on?"
Willow smiled brightly and sat up straight. "Wow, your first day and you already have a nick name for me?"
Buffy closed her eyes, shaking her head slightly trying to clear it before she finally stood. "I've got to go." She quickly said before running towards the building.
The faces that surrounded her all smiled, hellos being passed her way as she quickly walked down the hall. Everything was exactly as she remembered it.
"Miss Summers!"
Buffy froze, the sound of that voice causing a shudder to run through her. She turned, the man smiling at her sending a shiver down her spine.
"Miss Summers, I hope you're finding your first day at Sunnydale High to be pleasing to you." Assistant Principal Snyder said as he slowly approached her.
Buffy looked at him wide-eyed, blinking a few times as she stared at him.
"Are the other students helping you in locating your classes?" he asked her, a huge smile on his face.
"You're not supposed to be here." Buffy said quietly as she looked at him.
Snyder laughed softly, looking around the hall before turning his attention back to her. "Yes, that may be true, but I did want to come and personally welcome you."
Buffy was speechless. The faces around her all blurred, the small chattering echoing in her head before the images around her all faded into one. "Am I in hell?" she asked softly, staring at Snyder.
Snyder laughed quietly as he shook his head. "Hell" he said, "Well some of the more rambunctious students seem to think so." He told her with a smile.
Buffy looked around again. Snyder, classmates that had been more than mean to her, all laughing and walking the halls of a school that she had personally seen fall to the ground. "This is hell." She said softly. "I've died and gone to High School Hell!"
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
There you are." Willow said with a smile as she hurried down the hall towards Buffy. "We'll be late if we don't hurry."
"Late?" Buffy asked, still in a daze as she stood against the lockers staring at all the students walking to their classes.
"Yeah, for class, you know, the reason we're here." Willow said grinning. "I have your books; you left them in the courtyard."
Buffy reached out, taking her books from Willow, staring at them as she held them. *This can't be real* Buffy thought to herself. "This is all wrong." She muttered quietly, still staring at her books.
"What's wrong?" Willow asked, puzzled by her statement.
Buffy finally looked up, smiling in spite of her confusion as she looked at Willow. She looked exactly like she remembered when she first saw her. The simple jumper she wore, the stockings and the bubbly smile that always greeted her.
"Are you ready?" Willow asked, "Our History class is down the hall."
Buffy turned her head, looking down the hall before looking back at Willow. "When in Rome." She said softly before smiling.
Willow smiled and turned, leading Buffy down the hall to their class. Buffy was still in shock, staring at everyone as they all passed her, smiling and giving her warm hellos.
Buffy stopped, staring at the Library as they came to it, and leaned her head to the side as she remembered how much time she had spent in there.
"That's the Library." Willow said as she also stopped. "We have a new Librarian this year."
Buffy turned, looking over at Willow before smiling. "Giles?" she asked, grinning bigger as Willow's face lit up.
"Yeah, how did you know that?"
Buffy let out a small chuckle, shaking her head before she turned. "You wouldn't believe me if I told you."
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Buffy sat in the lunch room, surrounded by her friends. She still couldn't get over the fact that she was in school, and she was actually enjoying herself.
The day had gone by almost exactly the way she remembered it, the only difference being; it was actually 'pleasant' this time around.
"Yoo-hoo.earth to Buffy." Xander said, smiling as she finally snapped out of her daze and looked over at him.
"Uh, sorry." She said smiling. "What was that?"
"I asked if you were going to try out for cheerleading."
Buffy looked at him and smiled. She hadn't even thought about that or much of anything really. "I'm not sure." She answered him.
"Oh, you totally should." Willow said, bouncing in her seat. "We could get into all the games for free."
Buffy chuckled slightly as she watched Willow's excitement. "We'll see."
"Hey, I could talk to Cordy for you; she's the captain of the team." Willow beamed.
Buffy still wasn't able to get over the fact that Cordelia was actually nice to them. She was nice to everyone. That was the one major difference that she was beginning to like. The fact that Snyder was there, now that one was a little more hard to swallow, especially seeing how he shouldn't be, not time wise speaking and the fact that he was 'nice' was bugging her out in a major way.
A shrieking squeal from Willow brought Buffy out of her thoughts and she smiled as Willow was sitting there with a complete dazed look on her face.
"What's up with her?" Buffy asked grinning as Willow leaned her arms on the table and laid her head in her hands.
"It's the studly man god that all the girls are crazy about" Jesse said, grinning as he turned his head and pointed towards the door to the cafeteria.
Buffy turned, looking where Jesse pointed and her eyes went huge. A small gasp escaped her throat and she stood quickly, knocking her chair over as she did. "Oh. My. God." She said, her mouth flying open as she stared at the same thing that had taken all of Willow's attention.
"See, we don't even stand a chance." Xander said as he saw Buffy's reaction. "I knew one look at him and she'd be so over us."
Buffy finally blinked and closed her mouth. She couldn't take her eyes off of him. The fact that he was there was majorly wiggy, the fact that he had walked right over to the table by the window and sat down in a full stream of sunlight, had her head spinning.
"Isn't he a dream?" Willow said lazily. "Angel Conner, captain of the football team. Every girl's fantasy."
Buffy stuttered quietly before she was finally able to get a grip on what she was seeing. She pushed her hair behind her ear, her daze lifting somewhat before she sat.
The attention of everyone in the cafeteria fell on Buffy as she let out a scream when her fallen chair wasn't there to catch her as she sat. She looked up, ready to hide as it seemed like half the room hovered above her.
"Oh my god, are you okay?" Xander asked as he helped her stand.
"Yeah, I'm fine." Buffy said, embarrassed beyond belief.
"Geez, someone really needs to find a way to stop the constant swooning girls seem to do when they see Angel." Jesse said, shaking his head as another potential 'date' was once again swept away by Angel. "Gives us little guys a real complex.'
"I'm fine, Thanks." Buffy said as Xander helped her back into her chair. She looked back up, seeing Angel again, laughing and talking. He was leaned back on his chair, his arms behind him, propping him up against the window sill. It was still a shock. She just stared at him, the sunlight playing on his features, illuminating him in an unearthly glow.
"Hey, come on." Willow said again, grabbing Buffy by the arm.
"Huh?" Buffy said, finally tearing her eyes off of Angel.
"The bell rang." Willow said again. "We'll be late for class if we don't hurry."
"Yeah." Buffy said, grabbing her books and hurrying along as Willow practically drug her out of the cafeteria.
"Mr. Boggs will have a cow if we're late for class." Willow said as she practically ran Buffy down the hall.
Buffy barely even remembered getting to class, let alone sitting down as her mind was still reeling around seeing Angel. The tardy bell ringing finally got her attention and she looked around the room, seeing everyone with their books open and staring straight ahead.
"Buffy Summers?"
"Huh" Buffy said, finally looking up at the teacher.
"Buffy, would you like to come up front and introduce yourself to the rest of the class?" Mr. Boggs asked, smiling at her as she stared at him.
"Uh, yeah, sure." She said, standing slowly and walking to the front of the room.
"It's a real pleasure having you here Buffy." Mr. Boggs said as he sat down on the edge of his desk and looked at her. "Just tell us a little about yourself."
Buffy shook her head at him before looking back out at the class. All the faces smiling at her caused a small smile to curve her lips. She took a deep breath, reading herself to introduce herself to people she already knew when the door to the class burst open. She turned her head, her eyes widening comically as she stared at the person that sauntered in.
"Spike?" she asked, her voice shaky as she stared at him.
"Hello Cutie."
TBC............