Disclaimer: I do not own 7th heaven, though I wish I did. The quote from this story is not mine, however, I found it on many web sites and thought it seemed to fit with my story.
A/N: The characters' thoughts are in Italics. Please read and review. No flames, but constructive criticism is welcome. Enjoy!
"The girl who seemed unbreakable… broke.
The girl who seemed so strong… crumbled.
The girl who always laughed… cried.
And…
The girl who would never stop trying… finally quit."
It had been one week since Ruthie Camden had been broken. One week since she had laughed. Seven days since she had crumbled. One hundred and sixty-eight hours since she had stopped caring about anything. Betrayed by her own blood, deceived by her love, her best friend. Martin Brewer had gotten another girl pregnant, a girl whom he hated. It had taken one night, but in one night he had betrayed the girl who had loved him the most. He had lied to her for months.
Flashback"I hate you! I hate you!" Ruthie cried into Martin's chest.
"I know. I hate me too." He replied as he stroked her hair and held her.
End Flashback' Martin ruined everything that could have been. How could he do this? I thought I was his best friend. I thought I could have been more than his best friend. His girlfriend. My whole family knew! Everyone. They listened to me talk about how much I loved Martin and didn't try to stop me. And Martin! How could he be so stupid? How could he lie to my face for months?'
"I hate him! I hate him!" Ruthie continuously sobbed as she leaned against the wall.
This was how she had begun her day for the past week. She continued to sob, leaning back against the wall, until she slid to the floor.
"I ha—," she stopped. "I love him." Ruthie whispered.
She continued to sob and whisper incoherently. Throughout her fit, Annie entered Ruthie's bedroom.
"Oh, Ruthie," Annie whispered consolingly, " I know you're hurting sweetheart, but think of Martin. Think about how Martin is having a baby that he didn't want or ask for. I know that you're heartbroken, but Martin needs you right now. You can't just turn your back on him."
Ruthie seemed to consider this for a moment before breaking down into more sobs. She looked up at Annie through watery, deep brown eyes. Though her eyes were watery and tears were streaming down her cheeks, Ruthie's face hardened. Annie took a step back as Ruthie stood.
" You don't understand, Mother. I love Martin, but he lied to me. You all lied to me. Everyone keeps going on about how Martin feels and how hurt he must be, but not one of you has considered my feelings. Yes, I understand that Martin is going through a rough time, but you don't seem to understand that I am too! I want to be there for him, but I can't because every time I see him it feels like my heart breaks all over again. Don't you understand that? It hurts too much. It just hurts too much."
"Ruthie honey, believe me, I understand. But sweetheart," Annie began, only to be cut off by Ruthie.
"No Mom. No. I'm not ready to face this yet. And even if I was, that doesn't change the fact that you don't understand how I feel!"
" Honey, I want to understand. Why don't you explain it to me. Give it a shot." Annie tried again.
"No." Ruthie stated in a voice void of emotion. " Now, if you would please leave my room, it's time for me to get ready for school."
Annie complied, walking out of Ruthie's room and journeying down the stairs. Ruthie slammed her door.
" She has no idea what it feels like to be broken. No idea what it feels like to be dead inside." Ruthie said to the empty room.
With that last statement, Ruthie gathered her bathrobe, blue thong and matching bra in her hands, opened the door, and went to take a shower.
Well that's my first chapter. I'm sorry that it wasn't that long. Please let me know what you think.
Beautiful Deceit.