Author Note: I've deleted the first chapter because I wrote it when I was 14 and it was bad so this is now the first chapter. Kk? thanks

Disclaimers: In my reality I own Naruto and therefore Kakashi, but unfortunately that reality is not this one so I cannot own Naruto and Kakashi *tear*. I also do not claim the poem which comes from the book The Devil's Footsteps by E. E. Richardson so I presume that he wrote it. I also am not responsible for the name The Sadist which comes from Anne Bishop's series the black jewels (also know in America as the dark jewels trilogy)

(Third person PoV)

As the mask goes on

One in fire

The will of Fire is strong in those of his generation the war had seen to that he is willing to give everything for the village, for his Hokage, for his precious person.

Two in blood

The blood of friends, enemies, innocents that were in the wrong place at the wrong time. Mixing with his own so that not even his sensitive nose could tell whose was whose.

Three in storm

The raw power and the feeling of being caught in a thunder storm with nothing to hide you, this was how his unique chakra made people feel he knew, and Kakashi used that to show them how mortal they were before using that pure white lightning to burn his hand through their chests and burst their hearts, just like a lightning strike in a storm.

Four in flood

The flood of emotion that he knew was coming, waiting for the tears, the sobs, the heart wrenching knowledge that it was all his fault...Father... Obito...Rin. The flood starts with a single tear that never comes.

Five in anger

So much anger at himself( it's all his fault),The Iwa nin (because without them there wouldn't be a war), At Father( why wasn't I enough to live for?), Obito(why did you have to be my friend?), Rin ( why for me?), Himself again (because it's all his fault).

Six in hate

Kakashi used to hate the Iwa Nin, he used to hate the front lines, and he used to hate the feeling of blood covering his body, but he's to numb to hate now, to use to the war, to use to killing or being killed.

Seven fear

People fear him now, he's been in Iwa's Bingo book since he was Eight and he did his first A rank behind the lines. It's amazing how easily they trusted children. He got to the Kage's wife so easily. Kakashi Hatake, a child that everyone fears including sometimes the third Hokage, when he looks into eyes much older than even his own.

Evil eight

Kakashi doesn't believe in good and evil now, when he was very young he believed that who won the war would be the good people and who lost would be evil, now he knows that war doesn't show who is good or evil just who survives.

Nine in sorrow

He stopped crying, giving in to his grief and sorrow after his father, but just because he didn't show it (shinobi rule: 25) didn't mean he didn't feel sorrow. (not until the porcelain mask slips over his face does he stop feeling it all)

Ten in pain

Kakashi's no stranger to pain he's been captured and interrogated (tortured) before and he's not afraid of the pain. So when the ANBU agent (according to the mask, Hawk) does what they have to, to see if he has what it takes. He doesn't even scream A: he knows this isn't real and he's survived the real thing, and B: he's known the girl they call The Sadist since he was five. So he's really not worried about mental torture. (because he knows how good she is, but it was a fair deal he trained Obito's sharingan on her so she practiced the new interrogation Jutsu that she was creating on him) He learned how to embrace pain a long time ago.

Eleven death

All dead, all but him, all gone, leaving him all alone, he wants to be with them but he knows he won't, not until he is no longer of any use to the village.

Twelve life again

What he wouldn't give to have them back in his life to talk to them, to touch them one more time but Kakashi knows he can't so he will live for them, fight for them.

Thirteen steps to the Dark Mans door

At thirteen Kakashi is the youngest ANBU Ever and he's damn good at his job (after all he is a weapon)

Won't be turning back no more

And then Kakashi Hatake is no more and there in only ANBU Wolf

One in fire, Two in blood

Three in storm and Four in flood

Five in anger, Six in hate

Seven fear and evil Eight

Nine in sorrow, Ten in pain

Eleven death, Twelve life again

Thirteen steps to the Dark mans door

Won't be turning back no more

A/N so what do you think? Please review thank you to everyone who does. Yes I know that itachi was probably younger than 13 when he joined ANBU but at the time that this chapter takes place in the Naruto world he wouldn't have joined yet and therefore Kakashi would have been the youngest.

Bye for now,

Cai-ann