Never, ever, in Amy's life had she ever been so sad. Not since Sandy Miller seduced her only boyfriend before Sheldon in high school. Not since football jock Ricky Jones gave her a wedgie in front of the whole team. Not since Penny admitted to hating the gigantic painting she gave her. Never.
Sheldon being gone seemed like the worst thing that could possibly happen. Sheldon was her whole life. He was the sun, and she was the Earth. Without him, she felt useless. People thought their relationship was a joke, but to her, it was the most real thing she'd ever felt.
But Sheldon being gone turned out to be the best thing that could have happened.
Amy's POV
I woke up that day and realized; nothing had changed since you left. The sky was still blue, the grass was still green, and I was still me. And I decided you couldn't take that away from me.
The only thing you succeeded to do to me is make me hate myself more than I already did. You're condescending and stuck-up and you treat me like fecal matter.
You think you're so much smarter than me even though your IQ is only two points above mine. You think you're so much better than me because you're a physicist and I'm a neuroscientist.
I thought I stopped self-harming because of you but now I know it was because of Penny, Bernadette, Leonard, Rajesh and Howard. You had nothing to do with it. I convinced myself I loved you. I convinced myself you were perfect for me; and maybe you are.
But I never want to go down that path again.
Although it pains me to say this, I truly hate you. You changed me, and there is no question that it was for the worst.
But you made me realize that I didn't need anyone but me to be happy. For that, I am eternally grateful.