She looks amazing in her white dress. The lace corset bodice clings to her perfectly and the train of the dress trails elegantly behind her as she walks down the aisle. Her hair falls in loose curls around her shoulders. She has diamond studs in her ears, and the platinum necklace around her neck has rows of diamonds, dipping into a v in the center.
Something borrowed may turn into something stolen, she teased me when I gave it to her.
Something already was stolen. My heart, but of course I didn't tell her that...I couldn't. Not when she was gushing over her engagement ring and making plans to pick out a wedding dress and finding the perfect maid of honor dress for me.
So I did what I always did. Packed my feelings up into a little box and stored it away, trying to forget about it. I jokingly reminded her that I knew where she lived, but truthfully I wouldn't care if she kept the necklace. It's not like I'd ever need it for anything.
Now I'm standing here, watching her walk down the aisle towards me, but not to me. Instead Will is standing a few feet away from me waiting for her. I see the smile on JJ's face, but it doesn't seem to reach her eyes. When JJ is happy her whole face lights up. If I'm having a bad day all it takes to get me out of my funk is seeing a smile from her. I silently scold myself. I know I am just seeing what I want to see. I should be happy for her, because she is happy and as long as she is happy, thats all I can ask for. Even if I'm not the one making her happy.
She reaches the alter and her eyes lock with mine. I try my hardest to read her but I am unable to. Instead I let her warmth wash over me and rapidly blink my eyes, silently reminding myself that Prentiss' don't cry. JJ smiles then, and this time it reaches her eyes. She slowly hands me her bouquet and I gasp as our fingers brush.
Breaking our eye contact she turns to face Will and the priest begins to speak.
"We welcome you today to the marriage of William LaMontagne and Jennifer Jareau. We are met together in the presence of their dearest family and friends to join this man and this woman in holy matrimony. This is indeed a joyful time, in which we witness the love of these two people expressed in the joining on their lives together."
I know its selfish but I try to tune the priest out as he begins the ceremony because standing here is just about killing me. The fact that I lost my chance was so final. Not just my chance, my everything...my JJ. I don't know when my feelings went from friendship to something more, when the flirting after hours went from playful to downright suggestive, but then Will came along, and she didn't stop her end of the flirting, so neither did I. But when he proposed, it hurt me too much to continue it.
"William, will you have Jennifer to be your wedded wife, to live together in the covenant of marriage? Will you love her, comfort her, honor and keep her in sickness and in health, and forsaking all others, be faithful to her as long as you both shall live?"
"I will," Will replied, sliding a band on JJ's finger.
"Jennifer, will you have William to be your wedded husband, to live together in the covenant of marriage? Will you love him, comfort him, honor and keep him, in sickness and in health, forsaking all others, be faithful to him as long as you both shall live?"