Disclaimer Thingy: I sadly do not own twilight, or any of it's characters, and the saddest fact of it all... I do not own Robert Pattinson :(

CH 1

Edward had left me. Reality was finally setting in. He didn't want me, wouldn't want me, and there was nothing I could do about it. He's gone, he left me.

Of course he left you, idiot! You're... you're absolutely ordinary. I shouted at myself, hoping that it stayed an inner monologue this time. I couldn't dare let Charlie find me babbling off to myself yet again. It was plain to see that he thought I was completely and utterly insane. And maybe he was right, just maybe. I supposed that was fine all the same, to be insane and all, at least it would tack on to my list, my "Why Edward Was Right To Leave You" list. Despite Charlie's long going speech on how I'm such a "great girl" who any young man with common sense would love to have, I knew that this list was extremely long and only getting longer.

My mind just kept going back to that night. Sometimes I wish I could just focus on the night that he left, the night he told me "You're just not good for me". To think of those words still cut through me like a knife. How could that soft velvet voice pierce through me like that? Wasn't he supposed to love me? Isn't that what he used to tell me, when we'd lie in my bed and talk all night? Or maybe that never happened. Maybe I imagined it all. Impossible! I can still feel his touch sometimes. Regardless of all of that I still wished that I could be tortured with the memories of the night he abandoned me more often then the night I suppose it all came crashing down. The memories were too much to handle. Wonderful, painful, but wonderful all the same.

"Oh Bella you are definitely ordinary!" I scolded myself, this time letting my words actually escape my mouth. Just like the typical teenage girl I've sat here contemplating the possible reasons for the death of my short lived relationship. Just like the typical teenage girl here I am going on and on about a boy who clearly decided I wasn't worth his time. But our relationship wasn't ordinary, and neither was he. And neither was that night.

I turned my pillow over in order to get to the cooler side, even though I was pretty sure it wasn't that cool seeing as I had just done this same thing maybe ten minutes ago, fifteen tops. I just couldn't get to sleep. It was becoming a reoccurring problem, not sleeping. Sure I was used to being up all night but not being up with nothing but my thoughts to keep me company. I couldn't remember the last time I had slept peacefully... probably before he left me.

"One week down... The rest of my life to go" My last thought escaped my lips before I dozed off into a dream filled sleep, one that would torture me just like the night before, and of course the night before that too.

Thanks everyone for reading! This is my first fanfic ever (my first writing anything not to do with school work) so bear with me. Please read and review! Also I'd love a beta if anyone's interested!